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In the Bee Latitudes
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’ A n nah
Sobe l m a n
In the Bee Latitudes
University of California Press
Berkeley Los Angeles London
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for the beloved souls in my life including my mother , Viana Belida Knutson Sobelman in human form & Jacob , Emma , Melissa , Alice of the Palace , Mirandello such a Cello , and Rebeccarina Ballerina in dog and cat form all of whom helped me write this book & the trees i sang to
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who sing back
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Contents
Proem 3
Structure — Masolino ’ s Eve — The Female Snake I
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The Ghosts Are Different From the Love of Some Brains
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In the Bee Latitudes
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The Untitled
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The Mess
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Midnight Address from the President
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Violence of Feathers
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Ode to the Surfacing
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If A Commandment
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Dandelions for the Threnody
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After Awhile
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Summer ; — Fatigue ; — A Direction , Up ; — and A Spreading Out Unlawed II ( notes from inside a dark forest )
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for whomever whispers
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delay is nevertheless
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a persona of there you go
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forest nightingale makes more
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Quick Draft
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fresh to make
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oh pilgrim
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see , it ’ s the no horizon III
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I Felt a Fierce Unfreedom
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The Concept Death Was Walking Around This Pill Sentence Structure
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It Has Been Given Me To Understand Bats
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No Unconceiving Cave
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And I Do Desire Your Looking Back
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It is Very Sculptural to Wake Up
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The Be Thou Gaia Pastoral Air
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Not On Its Own
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Quick Draft 2
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A Physics of Desire
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In the Bee Latitudes 2
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Curved Over the River
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‡ ° § £ ¢ ∞ § / the haloes on the Barbizon night lanterns
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Concerning the Ode to a Focus Then a Free Fall
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Acknowledgments
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Notes
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My Thanks
Proem
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S t r u c t u re — M a s o l i n o ’ s E v e — The Female Snake
: ~ a springy fire set inside pear prickles the vocative , a now bubble now that’s a thing your nervous system might have been one of the paths on the Tree on earth , oddly like as night where she was musing , under sap , blazed in here , hushed in under cover of , , : ~ a springy fire sets arm in arm on the athlete sea of interpretation bushes where the moon was waxing under sap , here we make up the arbornauts travelling around the islands and the forests-of-summers amateurs we called ourselves ~ a forno with which to scratch her nickname , soften a groove into a belt trout pan , her initials into how a highway feels ; ~ : ~ taking space out hanging it up along the clotheslines in that hour of the trees : ~ the Brancacci chapel winds might have been one of the paths of the tree Blazed in here , hushed in here under cover of painting : ~ The springy fire set by one long experience on earth , , On earth , through that roar gap makes through trees ’ velvet amateurs : ~ no longer ashamed to be a tree-like belly the I is laid upon , as if emblazoned in vowels it must be the poise of the Linden leaves he is swimming with : ~ it might have been a structural tense upbraiding in and out of her saying what is the plural of one that on their lapping undersides snake eggs lay their little heads ——
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I
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The Ghosts Are Different From the Love of Some Brains
the doves float above the street , back and forth and back again until one white female sticks to the windowpane . Hammerhead of love landing on the skull with its calcium cartons , hunting for prey on the ledges ? — in the cartoons , the slim shell of bone opens and the brains gush ‘ forth ’— Do the doves feel elected by what is sticky ? It isn’t that you didn ’ t want to be materialized at least as corporeal as snow the Solstice loves ; — but so do ghosts the most frozen parts of winter bleed into — fall into us , they ’ ll beg , almost soundproof room profound pale skinniness through which no one else can shove — You are sympathetic to the pursuit of a surface that will not try to capture you and call itself love —
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In the Bee Latitudes
Once the length of the sun gets stuck on my breasts ( Patti Smith wails out milk rather than purple on the other side of the bee culture ) my mouth does not tilt as much toward the nightlife layers of vowels and consonants before they get said , a passionate and preverbal shattering of one ’ s ideas of restraint such as the children I may, or may not give birth to— anyway , I had tasted the length of the sun in the milky substances which tilt toward high yellower layers — Later more in the mouth itself as longing — Later in the longness of sky above and beside , in female brain , of male brain , a mouth now full of sun which is not yet purple , still not colour yet itself , part of the body ’ s fullest future which the sun and I cannot seem to get
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to the end of — But , once a mouth gets filled with the purple or , gets stuck for awhile on another human ’ s breasts , it feels newborn and erotic to suck on the beginning in this way whose round long droopings have this lush purple birthmark on one of their sides , and do not overshadow the face with aqua milkiness ardour as , if they’d been tasted , our mothers ’ breasts might have done — I sucked and sucked anyway the way I do on one who looks like my idea of Virgil — a sun outside his knees — hiking into the hills of purple , gathering bees for later — Etruscan smelling ! — ( my beginning also contemplative with the preverbal / is where the sun and the mosquitoes smell more like the other side of the bee culture ) ; the mild awakeness feeling of lying in a hammock even overshadowing my mouth to muteness , for a while — The length of sun and its tastes give to the human and some parts of
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my unhuman world , our futures — their full yellow valour are glints . And we have had consciences of purple , ( except in that haloing around bees which give their multishades to many many many many , with a shove ) oh , now less than a full destination further off , throbbling —
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The Untitled
To have the young gods and banish the old —
But
when I think of the open sight of my father’s skin my father’s open body / my flesh rolls back in pain shoots lightning arrows through my groin as a music , too , storm-stained terrible lit my heart turns over to think of his tongue touching the naked nerve of mine so I begin to think wanting everything as I do that there are certain openings portals you cannot imagine without falling down the back cellars and collapsing tunnels of his mouth’s swollen navy pounding blue-red blood rasping touch of thick & delicate skin & mixing together of the boiling / separate oceans you cannot imagine without unraveling the careful nucleic cell structure of your life / back through human form to shapelessness a beginning isn ’ t home I didn’t want to travel through that tunnel of backwards blood backwards backwards backwards lights and I did — I do
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The Mess
and yes it was spreading our legs to heart ’ s desire , I was sure ,— A year of one idea , toward spring — A casual insomnia . But an underbrush exploded . You open its year-long window it doesn ’ t show much — Some humans ! drown and alternately sleep — you drown , toward spring , you sleep That ’ s the thing , your neck stretched way past your body lethal , the stretch — It ’ s all happening without witness . Mothers around the world complain . Fathers in the economy cafe drink pink cocktails past noon . Your computer ’ s always breaking . You ducttape it . The landscape doesn ’ t show itself to you .
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Midnight Address from the President
1 No one knows — I had a premonition the starry children would be turning into small U.S. flags —I had hoped to raise them — 2 the questions I put to the side when I sit by the fireplace in a fancy thinking I could ’ ve been a long splendour icicle — sometimes in grammar I had hoped I had starry children in me — hanging off the eaves , current, being struck by a sunbeam 3 I could ’ ve lived in seriotaneity — struck by the spot up there that looks like China — I could have had sideburns — winter is too nude — I have a droxology in mind 4 as commas come from a daughter ’ s point of view —once in a while I am shocked with the taste of too much winter mint— could have known more of how not to use stock — put on my white cooker’s hat —hmmm fingers to my lip-lines — 5 Mint on my tastebuds has snow flurries of afterducts — but when I think about Condoleeza Rice I get up to make soup — feel my mouth forming around a new two-syllable nude word like the naiude 6 — All starry children are the interesting ones who petition —
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Violence of Feathers
the sky is clean because it ’ s been scraped by the pigeons— When you blink again you ’ re going down fast — because you ’ v e been dropped from the onslaught of shhhsh , ,— flap , the violence carries you almost all the way down — You stink and feel a lot like the sky especially in the sharp way the pigeons grabbed you— — Velocity of wound means you ’ ve been listening to your full clear extent— Rapid & splanchnic you feel clean because you ’ve been cut with the pigeons ’ feet , feel clear because you know that your face will keep peeling down to the things —
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wettest , most serious
Ode to the Surfacing
And , shall I harvest the sunflowers , the ones with magpies that haven’t begun to blossom yet ? Or the ones with petals already fallen face-down unimperious on their yellowness without many flaws ? — Or those with the bumblebees on top of the center , or those with the bees — like lovers under neath of the heavier sides of their petal yellow without sutures but dropping , and more here with their weight just as I’m about to take them ? — Which sunflowers shall I take with me , which sunflowers shall I leave ? Walking here ‘ amongst ’ some at breast height with their yellow effulgent stridency drooping , some with their risen phallic centers that large bumblebees temporarily not rigid fasten on to which my head passes , bending down — And my hands moving beside me holding scissors in one hand passing them to the other hand — walking outside on top of patches — And clods of dirt — And the clavicles neckbones breast bones I’m unaware of , and my whole body ( amongst me ) walking onto long grass patches and their dark voluble mortality surface , which earth which is vastly inside
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grows , , Then for some time more , walking on top of eternity here
though not past
a surface I called imped iment , or weight of father ’ s body , for awhile , looking closer at your close-athand immense predominate unheld clods and lumps of dirt , and rock , and yellow petals , and leaves , and tongues ( later , at your grace like clusters of surface )— What else shall the bouquet I put these scissors to do but try to harvest a risen-up enough surface such as lovers ? or the other you , eternity ? — Or moving to which we ’ re tethered in through then out of a bereft — advancing loudly as it can towards the magpie diving among the standing sunflowers upright on their stalks towards three made sparrows & I among them as if I ’ ve given birth to you all ,
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even my father but I haven’t — Why wouldn ’ t eternity be one of the surfaces since I am marked by it ? Why wouldn’t you ? Then which of you shall I leave yellow longer ? Then which of you shall I take where you just join the surface , and liberate you from ? —
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If A Commandment
murders the mother the father gains more sky some lights still undressing you , will if a personal dad dies fierce chemistry is not the necessary agonia so you invert soil not heaven invert the dark forest ___________________
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judge
/
Dandelions for the Threnody
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— Then looking while I’m walking outside in air like a muscle ( inside and outside the random sprinkling of full-grown dandelions near the river , the life just above the ankles , not eternity , some of the dandelions spraying their yellow into their biggest fullest overflow and after this no place left to go fuller which is still their most excruciated , ascendant unrecalcitrant , to the limits to the exact precipice falling stepping off after which is not dandelion ) I find
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myself being lavished all out in my glance , almost as air , over these dandelions and through the wind in the air near the river blowing out from its circumference though I cannot discern where its center
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2 is — lavished all over the withering of the dandelions’ centers’ unsolemn flamboyant outward’s dropping — point after point after fullness — after italics — I am not in love — after the moving yellow drains off away from the center which I see is not rigid — lavished out upon its dry pale taupe tongue ’ s blowing radius of spikes with an extremity very like feathers’ susceptible vulnerability to air changes away from and into
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3 this river already exceeding some limits it has grown through air , and through the water , where it ’ s been melting its firmament in the mountains in the cavities in their heavy lava mineral breath where this river beneath this world air with its anvil beard of gravity , has been inscribing its bed in the shape of its overflow — And even into air rushing into me in bigger gulps was I lavished saying dandelion butterfly to flesh out the feel of the words to see how much more air gets into my mouth and words where I say them , and into where the air seems
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to covet lungs , tongue , the words , the mouth —Or when I said air cannot be overflow because there is not any re maining place without , also lavished ( brown , fluttering against windowpane box ) and where I turn to beyond / on the amber river dandelions overflow their yellow dandelions with the wind in them / overflow like old hair scattering their shreds along out of their white dying heads — Though
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4 the air didn’t stir . Didn’t seem to be a government . Didn’t seem to choose — made no shape out of or around itself neither imperial nor victim — Didn’t seem to be in shambles — it’s morning to which I am devoted though I have , here , little fear — Morning air as always continued and didn ’ t seem to shed itself in order to continue sinking always into all sinkholes and points between my fingers where I pointed — forgot to point , sometimes altogether forgot my fingers — This is because flowing out of ourselves , we over-
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flowed — This is because air is not a fabric , a hurdle — Accomodating , accomodating , not ever seeming to accord — And continuing to fall away from the self .
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5 This sea of air ( though with more looseness and taut with no lesions I can feel ) still making its bed around my hands putting them on some off-off white density but with coolness rising drama of
the untamed aspen
sapling growing up , up over shadows ’ mid lilac leaves filaments flowerets window bumps
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branches
beneficiary-
fur of a bee up up whom this latticed kitchen
twice furiously against ! then a stranger approaching , — over him , his right brown arm raising itself to inquire , — among aspens flickered with sunlight shunting its whitest points on to their chartreuse limed deliciously wind disheveled leaves becoming an almost blinding question
because so much light just got
reflected back out around shadows — One’s eyes slip against them without trellises ( more details ) into which
of more —
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looking can
get absorbed and lavished
more
into , all of us finding ourselves bed for you air , and this towards us in your
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stranger still moving closer
6 grip — Why should either air or eternity stop flooding in ? ( over here , says a father ; over here , like a large huge run-off says someone other ) — what more in me is empty you should ’ ve been spilling yourself into ? What more in you ? Why should I not call either of you overflows ? And as I listen both voices are still spilling with their overflows because there must be a place without air for which air penetrates ; there must be a place / alti -
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tude / a question for which air and eternity , ignites and bursts itself farther in
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After Awhile
what breaks sentence structure joins friends
into
the bitterness this morning singing sing the childless heart -stopping , stop . what your depression felt like , your drowned tower suddenly above water
.
i can tell you what not —
it
is
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Summer ; — Fatigue ; — A Direction , Up ; — and A Spreading Out Unlawed
1 — Yet sitting with so little blood leaving me to cause this fatigue , on top of the picnic table my ankles are now over its precipice
of
at the air over its edge over even the hollow circular and flat thin stalks and grass blades growing fast with so much speed no hurry I can see beneath my feet kicking into the summer air —— looking up from underneath in front of the on-
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rushing speed of a cloud throwing its first thrust-shudders over the top edge of the mountain like I thought a spreading out of the unlawed — up from underneath its white cloud edge , especially harvested by all these fir and spruce and aspen and pine top edges
jutting fragrant fierce with
hot smell ( spill outs of their seeds ) growing the indenting of the mountain in their evergreen to blue
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tone - scented modulatings , taperings , moorings which the now big cloud passing over also harvests push ing some kind of lawlessness
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2 along
— — ( up
from
my feet I’ve stopped kicking , or now forget to kick , underneath the great white cloud moving at varying and breakneck speeds — Which I imagine is
moving — moving
unlawed though I am not imagine out from its nature but it
is not a law passing over meta-
the air waves the satellite dish the
llic meticulous signals , , ) — I losing neither a little nor a lot of blood
—
am
over the dropped -
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down landscape thundering along its applause sounds its green to brown to amber under neath feathering along its before-fatigue intricacy , which harvests the let me come closer in — & the sun , a windfall enabling so much of it roving the mountain from almost its very beginning to its very present height ,
the world surges
as
then
world against , out
its fast one & only speed
from into
air and the lightflow at
all smashing into
what looks like a lumpy eternity , summer
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dives
me and the black
fly
in
windflow
against And in Though it is mortal
its engines , a repose in the and in its
bumping up ? its bumping up against . , I think also , of
moving , of of chance
collision ,
encounter until their currents , until their wakes let you
in
,
let
you
through
—
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( notes from inside a dark forest )
Half-way upon the journey of our life I roused to find myself within a forest In darkness, for the straight way had been lost. — dante , The Divine Comedy
for
whomever
whispers NEVER ) more ( inside this
stunned
time of with
waiting salts shoulders more bare sun
on the double - barreled titan backs of
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heavy air
delay is nevertheless asking something today ’ s unexpected cling go inside go go go ripens / the obscured as you are a
shot di giorno
indenting report
/ its
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a persona of there
you
now
carves
our
go out
overtures ,
whispers you ’ re out from experience listening rabidly hades ’ countenance into
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blank
blushes
forest
nightingale makes more
it’s been flurrying
today
for
later
elliptical a or
as cause
pear arise-aroma until
next sounds
your graved (
in-
initials better )
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Quick Draft
quick
—
so Rothko not drowning found paint
assembled the drowned
you don ’ t feel this on land ‘ shouldn ’ t ’
(
/
conditional ) ,
it ’ s the real unreachable painting hope
after
painting
is unstoryland
so
waves
water ’ s
but it ’ s the
( holy ) dose
to you ) shapelesshandlessness
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—
weigh more than the
descripture (
evacuation
—
!
fresh . to make your waiting ritual . change your / courtesy dream of / life / voice /
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oh pilgrim go
ahead
kiss
yourself
hard
to get at
inner elbow , timing chambers spring vulva preparing the meals (
and table
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bare note conversation
, )
see
,
it ’ s the no
horizon
unraveling is
— that
how
speed
the spirit
walks
down by hand to stitute city ,
its
sub-
( the ) underglade
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III
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I Felt a Fierce Unfreedom
The parruchiere is brushing your hair as if you were her favorite doll . You reappear when the Primavera does . Look , these are the unfatal Celtic windows you see her coming through . Now the hands in glove thrusts mushing through the hair show so little colour on your head you have to trust your right and need to observe . Ambition , which I thought was lying under the spigot , raising its spout self today , we are eating again after fasting we ’ re
joining
the living
their right to use magnetized credit cards to see their full soul place among the crowd , the seedy the unexpected the underexposed the magnified , to see the soul of another
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glide through the open spaces chard muscles churned with ruscilio boiling
, also the right to eat boiling
green
through the broccoli limpness of the weak regard for life chrysalis of limpness around an endive that starts out being hard — Well , in the piazza
the stagnant pee will first rise through the urethra of the Neptune’s
penis , through the liquid throat centers , the gutters as if always resurging . My armpits too will admit fluids , the medium bowl of salad will be filled with such olive oil through a genital-like spout . Warmer weather umbrellas will be unbundled — . I said I hoped to understand ( for
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as
long as
we
live )
we
reappear with who
the
drinks her first green tea as
Primavera any one
might ,
after
being
ill —
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The Concept Death Was Walking Around This Pill Sentence Structure
usually I say mop me up with the dreams otherwise I have no purpose white porpoise pill complements the pink ( centuries away awake ) swallows up the insomnias , awake in ’ Annah time nevertheless , we ’ re hiking up the ally slopes I don’t completely trust or could be a motherucker we hike to her house muckraker through seeingeye red we Rilke into “La Vie in Rose ” the cabin I want to build / christens purpose / your black and heelless shoes will temper airily inflict the our
soull
contradicts
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magic city
It Has Been Given Me To Understand Bats Moon / Cantilever of sylabbles / If it were spelled ‘ mune ’ it would not —
cause madness —
Jack Spicer
someone sneezes you laugh you ’ re an advocate similar to an avocado you blare out the obvious nobody
hears
that .
you ’ re an advocate similar to a
pippistrella
hang upside down at night not content with that you sally
forth
naked unguardedly
shy
a song in your mind of
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underworld your
above
shouts
ground
therapist
out
reverse !
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radar
Simplify !
No Unconceiving Cave
A borderline of a new country never tells you not to laugh to find its accurate size — As if
not knowing
up close
what a fire
,,,, —
as if Greek islands didn ’ t exist — then forest fires roaring closer as they do . A cave was a point of view to contain rare ardour . No seal scale on the piazza tells you not to laugh so hard in a mouth able to be bored by dying ; though , once I could not feel the dolcezza dandelion —
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And I Do Desire Your Looking Back
And yours — So more of your meaning bees hum against comes out — Though you are not the bee , nor like the bee who seems to move like a humming to all these moments ( though you move to many ) I see as fruit unparching with their unsubordinatingness the air pulsing around the unsuspendingness of each — which is a motion ! Air into which one of my forefingers first moves it self out into before it ’ s feeling scared to move , before it finds another occasion for an existence here called bee — beneath the olive trees , beloved the aspen , now your skin where one forefinger extends itself out on top of the gold ’ s away-from-the-throng-
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ness into bee , or the particular — But over its major royalty action like a throne it touches and configures like a cause , the burgundy amaranthe — and your skin — and my skin ( I desire you all to touch me ) to galvanize all motions inside my fingers — your fingers — to this life upon your ear , mouth , lips , teeth and sex I’m touching to my mouth , unraveling my causing to in part
( being not your only cause ! )
oh operatic flesh ,
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I’m among the ones who are running my palms on top of you feeling abstruse , but not abstract because your surface
has not been lost
or unimagined —
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It is Very Sculptural to Wake Up
let her be walking into the very midst of summer in which a bird is squeaking . and she is only one chirp out . out from the midst of the bush with the lilacs ’ awakening
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The Be Thou Gaia Pastoral Air
1 And the day starting out almost without sounds at first except for the river falling and rising in the air without pathos in the starting day especially in a spring with its run-off, elastic ponderous more living than momentum goahead over many centuries of this riverbed like an infinity—at this stage—with more splash, more plop in it more responding plash , air not seeming to have layers though I imagined a thin stratum of air over the river , over the mountains , differentiations among phalanxes , islands of air among islands I can’t take my garden spade to since air
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slips out — But going always wanting more and to be surer that as much as possible and I inside this life might go further in than touch — That the day starting out be more than ointment in the way it touches everything and I am in it , that the air be not skin I might collide against instead of entering inside it as far as I and nature might allow — And walking outside into the kind of atmosphere which isn’t eternity , and listening to its gasp ings , surgings into
air — All morning on the
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other side of the air , eternity is being original to its origins ,
all morning air’s being
original to
its fate — Then observing each swell into the other — watching eternity starting to
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2 advance as
—
it might right now
start
to
take over my lawn spread to
blue
wild
islands
then
into
islands in
the
surf
of
the
mountain
beyond in -
among these white the
between
air-exerting the
bottom
attraction of
one
mountain
, and
its top
, the
in
triangle points ,
layers
more
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will
eventually
grow
an
ensemble
exacting
wills — holds , And
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, the
into
exacerbating
— air
.
its its
courtship
foot-
3 —,,
And the
air
suggesting things — And back at the river a few days ago I had a vision of , this frantic reaching up by the river trying to dig into air in intervals with fingernails and fingers that look energetic and timeful because they believe they’re hanging on — And the air in a
dome on top of human fingers ,
and on top of God ’s fingers
as
distance between
us
stretches toward
the other in the paintings
by
the artist who could have been up-
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right on the scaffold , neck
but here ,
( in the dome ) , is craning back her
through the high - altitude
the underside of
luminarios
the top-curved ceiling
feeling on
which is chapel plaster wet
— And
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4 the
time
which
might have
self
called of
might
have
heard itfather
distance heard
,
, ,
even
— or ,
skin
just
differences
that
them-
selves sky
,
called
Or you
not
being
here
( for
a
time )
me
calling
might have heard your name for it —
Might have exact
plump
heard , active
hello
piece
of change
by which
the
once
god / lump / singleness
between
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us from
I ’ ve ,
a
been
kind
released
of being
and
departed
imagined
forward
into
centuries is
being
forgiven
,
,
is
being
judged — —
some of
us
sang I
have times
it
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by
forgiven it , , certain
I
have distances
at
certain
judged —
But
,
touch
so
5 was the wrong
word — I did it
, but
forepowers
just now expect the day
ing
carries its gala freedoms ,
along with
its scuds ,
skids
/ / screechencounter
stones ,
tired brakes
pebbles
name
, stars
fireworks swish
to
gravel
,
the
country
on highway
asphalt ’ s exhausted
swerve swerve
swerves
—
Encounters
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the elk I’m
and
world
in
my
and
collide
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,
vehicle
driving his
instead
I
of
missing .
mine
6 Instead of
merging
:
one ’ s
constant coming
swells
forth
in exact
excruciated
acoustics — .
Can you
hear
your
passion
,
of you unscrambling to
its
outside
nature
, or
through
inside
occasional
missing
waxing
traffic not
from
choral
& river vibrations depending
on
choral what
or you
think of
your own
—
Is it random ?
extroverting
gung -
ho
human / & glitter
Exhausted
go -ahead
surge
?
?
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does Since because
your
passion
also possess
a
belongs to
the
fate ?
of its nature ,
this
distance
air . — Since
,
because of
its
engines
( slant
angels with enigma vowels ) this distance beats
also , to
upstart swanswell
a ,
float
eternity
improvise
among them in
part
( it seems to )
—
And
might this day now losing might this
day now
itself to the ebbing construction of this morning , finding
more
parts
of
itself
foresquaring architectures
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of
this afternoon
name
inside
distance to
also
silt
which
sediments ,
seems
drift
more ,
towards If
some
anyone
might
?
want
to
dig
in some off
which
all
want the
to
nots
Like the lovers , leaning
farther ?
If
slipknot —
forward
on elbows , feel more than
a little welterweight of
fear , some
parts of God are more sedimental
as
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they pass
,
,
,
,
,
And shall I keep
trying to translate this distance to call it further to me ? it
And anyhow isn’t
also that
air
and eternity , might each be
wanting
to come closer in ?
summer
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2000
–
march 2010
Not On Its Own
,
sounding
like a guilt
:
—
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Quick Draft 2
so , it mixes one soul and sand traps ’ barronesses no children peer perhaps you
no work sweeping the lighthouse out , to the fields — fathoms serve bouncy
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partner
— and
severe
—
A Physics of Desire
at first she thinks the attraction does not fill her with enough blood , but with a thing like the dove — White and coloured feathers — Bones unlike her own bones that gravity can’t pull down , a milky thing unlike the sea . Fills her with a wind — Starch rustle of the quick passing of things , then silence afterwards of the things that passed — that gave the wind its sound , not unlike what split the fireworks in the high school park into fanning particles of flame . The peacock that is the world , bird of breathing colour between them — Bird that is everything to choose from — or the one thing , sacred bone of the particular
—
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In the Bee Latitudes 2
Looking for you tends to give me Modigliani eyes —the kind that try to disappear beneath a skirt , part of the position of the world which shows its glory not apart from bees and twirls your ripe-nether aspects underneath my petticoats in a peach-like upraising bees come to — They tremble after you have left , as much unknown to me visible as invisible , hating that you keep me staring straight out into the air I’ve felt I come from , in part , plucking at the wide hair loops about your eyelids— Bees don ’ t disappear except at night because they defend the future it grows— Why not stay ? I notice you don’t have Modigliani eyes yourself — Have I told you the bees appear with a humour fishhooking itself into the eyes I’m getting from the sea , from so much looking out at the sea throughout the edges of my eyes that’s how they defend themselves ? Modigliani himself had eyes which thought they stared straight into the bees but had aimed themselves in-
stead into the belly of the air still almost as much unknown to us visible as invisible , thinking it a hive — Not unreasonable given that religion is having relationships with real unknown ones in you my senses want to be involved so I won’t be inclined to uncreate the beginning of my body an opus trying to pay its bills in a departure from usual figuring— Why not stay ? Bees aren’t sorry for the bride even on her slow days , not sorry for the fishermen who know how deftly like a puzzle our accounting has been done — If someone has been commanding you to vanish as the smoke of my father’s cigars made tobacco wrapped around itself disappear at the same time it was burning air , I invoke her or him to stop it with the painful detail which figures out creative ways to pay its bills— You think I ’m more visible here in my insistence than in my life ? Eye for an eye I ’ m going to tantalize and excruciate you with asking then let it disappear low over the brown terrain before it gets to the sea interrupted with bees watching , among the taupe tree limbs twisting all over the land almost like punctuation marks but not yet like you , an exclamation point of sorts , a code of sorts I see like an eyebrow no horizon which registers better dappling the very bee-shade —
Curved Over the River
Arno , only the twilight on
to
how than evated
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much
‘ mush ’ bank caught more
el risk
—
it
was
‡ ° § £ ¢ ∞ §
the haloes on the Barbizon night lanterns have been given buckets in the interior
intensity
bright emerald
interplay — nights notice ; lamplight thickens — in
our lifetime
sensations somely interplay
fear-
arc flesh-
fresh harbours aren’t virginal until they ’ ve been launched —
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Concerning the Ode to a Focus Then a Free Fall
— Or if the wind in the air did graze a particular gesture to which I say belongs , was it only the air and its wind with bees in it which gave the moment its ‘ eternity ’ ? So near me the bees are landing ( which my last daisies are still extending their summer upon ) who seem to be removing more of the summer , like a moment touching
the
skin
from
side
to side , enclosing me , , — so I could not be falling could I
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; if a focus , I mean , attaching even to
a moment , lifted out from the grass newly cut because I wanted to make more lawn and a park , eventually across from the sounds of murmuring getting louder , as night by the river we were sitting so near to on the picnic table benches
was growing in and towards us , from side to side , would it enclose
me only ? So near the bees are hovering , looking out from some eternity in which so much looseness also lives , then down from the classical fast wing sounds of this hummingbird , now whirring past — Or also enclose you , , ? Looking up from the kind of moment that starts pushing itself up through a throat , over your tongue
before it begins coming out
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as a piece of eternity at least in part , , also tearing its course away from the large head
cumulus cloudlife afterlife over-
and its absence of
sounds ? —
And if a particular moment did strike the last daisies
bees are now on beneath these unblurring cloudclumps over head like allies since we are lying down beneath them , each of us somewhere inside our ( own ) skin , you at times , inside my body which the newly cut lawn its incipience imprint smell do not adhere on
yet —though through you all
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I am moving , through all of you I am being moved — can my looking at the bushel with orchard -apples in it recently picked , and at some bees
in their live clear air with the wind
in it , and at
the river through this even ing always incoming always moving against this evanescing of this afternoon be a moment
from
which a whole river can be
heard turning its own animal , its light
on , where the river is not damaged , and its riverness is not hurt ?
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Acknowledgments
Dandelions for the Threnody
Volt
In the Bee Latitudes
Volt
In the Bee Latitudes 2
Volt
Ode to the Surfacing
Five Fingers Review
A Physics of Desire
The Denver Quarterly
And I Do Desire Your Looking Back
The Boston Review
Structure — Masolino ’ s Eve — The Female Snake
Lana Turner: A Journal of Poetry and Opinion
Concerning the Ode to a Focus Then a Free Fall
Lana Turner: A Journal of Poetry and Opinion
I Felt a Fierce Unfreedom
Lana Turner: A Journal of Poetry and Opinion
The Be Thou Gaia Pastoral Air
Lana Turner: A Journal of Poetry and Opinion # 2
No Unconceiving Cave
OmniVerse
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Notes
“ Structure—Masolino ’ s Eve—The Female Snake ” was inspired by Florence , and the mysterious fresco by Masolino in the Brancacci Chapel , entitled “ The Temptation . ” The picture enacts the garden-of-eden moment in which the Snake speaks to Eve —in this case , the snake has the head of a woman with wavy blond hair , almost prefiguring a flapper from the 1920s . “ In the Bee Latitudes ” is indebted to 1) an experience of bliss in infancy before the arrival of words ; and 2 ) Virgil — translating parts of the the Aeneid in 1971 , the arrival of some expanding pleasure I couldn’t name . ( Maybe beauty . ) “ Midnight Address from the President ” concerns former President Bush , 2001 , in the winter before he began his War . I I — The translation of the first words of Dante ’ s The Divine Comedy is by Henry Johnson . “ Quick Draft ” refers to ‘ descripture ,’ a word I thought I ’ d made up . Discovered afterwards in Jean-François Lyotard ’ s The inhuman : reflections on time , Lyotard defines ‘ descripture / decriture ’ as : “the writing of the impossible description , ” adding , among other things , ‘ it tries to slip by before its withdrawal. ’ “ I Felt a Fierce Unfreedom ” : parruchiere is the italian hairdresser . The piazza referred to here is the Piazza della Signoria , which sponsors the fountain with the Neptune statue and fauns . The location is the turn-of-the century cafe on the piazza , the Revoire . “ The Concept Death Was Walking Around This Pill Sentence Structure ” refers to the sleeping pill , Ambien, and the ‘ mood ’ relaxer , Ativan , known also as an hypnotic . 91
“ It Has Been Given Me To Understand Bats ” quotes part of a poem by Jack Spicer from My Vocabulary Did This to Me , Language (1963–1965 ) , entitled “ Morphemics . ” The italian pippistrella is the feminine form of ‘ bat .’ They swarm visibly from the horizon just after dusk . The piazza referred to in “ No Unconceiving Cave ” is the Piazza della Repubblica , said to be the exact center of the city , Florence . Historically , this center began as the Jewish ghetto . Dolcezza is another italian term for sweetness . The fires refer to the literal fire I set accidentally / unconsciously . In Iowa , the December 1993 solstice . My beloved cat Sarah , who had been recently saved from feline leukemia by state of the art drugs , was smothered in the fumes . In “ The Be Thou Gaia Pastoral Air , ” Be thou Gaia is an admonition taken from a dream , 1986 , administered by a tall goddess figure in black ; at that time there was no visible face . It is also a requiem for an elk I hit on the Taos Highway at night . After collision , the wounded animal was nevertheless able to cross the highway , disappearing into the forest . Animal services were not able to find him . It is also for SS , and AS . “ A Physics of Desire ” is indebted to the peacock , up in the Sangre di Cristo mountains , just across the street , who sang ( howled out ) his being , every single night . It is also for ML , and more lately for CM . “ ‡ ° § £ ¢ ∞ § the haloes on the Barbizon night lanterns ” is for BH , with love . “ Concerning the Ode to a Focus then a Free Fall ” is for J L , time-travelled from 1972 and 1984/5 — ‘ Til next time . ’ From whom a necessary advocating desire was born . May you and yours , your ‘ forest fires , in shifting winds ’ be well always . This poem is also for CM .
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My Thanks
Thank you to the dear hearts in Florence , Italy , at the Cafe Revoire , and the Hotel Savoy , who encouraged me in my cafe writing , let me stay late , and gave me , continually , their most affectionate friendship and service . Thank you to my dear friend Annalisa of Florence for her presence , her endless encouragement and belief . Thank you to Inger , Laura , Laura G. , and Raffaella for their companionship , dining , singing and dancing , talking into the late summer nights near the olive and fig orchards , and to Elizabeth who introduced us . Thank you to Brenda Hillman for finding a “pleasing arrangement” for the poems . Thank you to Susan McCabe for her belief , her wild and dear encouragement. More thanks to Dr. Pat Sargent in Taos for her encouragement , and my astonished gratitude for the LA doctors and healers , including Dr. Philomena McAndrew , Dr. Jing , and Sri Mahdu , Dr. Nancy Goldman , and for every nurse at Tower Hematology and Oncology including Mary Lou , Pia and Bill , helping me fight cancer , lately discovered.
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