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THE RE-ENGINEERING Of HUMANKIND

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i

JAMES L WALDEN,

Ed.D.

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DISCOVERING ANOTHER DIMENSION Imagine looking into the eyes of an alien being and realizing

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you thought you knew about yourself your heritage, where you came from, who you really are was a lie. That's exactly what happened to teacher, counselor and public servant Jim Walden when he looked up one night and saw an alien being standing at the foot of his bed. The events that followed would turn his world upside down and force him to rethink everything, from relationships to his concept of the

that everything

—

universal order.

His story ing facility

.

— .

rich with images of a secret

.

alien beings here

fourth dimension

.

.

.

for

—sounds

Jim Walden,

like the

underground

test-

earth, operating within a

ancient religious figures revealed as

aliens ... the unveiling of

gram

on

an age-old human-alien hybrid pro-

makings of great science

who had never had any interest in

tion or extraterrestrials, these events were far

fiction.

science

from

But fic-

fictitious.

Discover the details of what happened that night in 1992, and the

numerous encounters

that followed during his interdi-

mensional search for the truth of his existence.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR James

L.

Walden, Ed.D. (Pennsylvania), holds a doctorate

in business education.

He

served as the city administrator

of Eureka Springs, Arkansas, and has been a tenured asso-

of business administration.

ciate professor

in the development of the 12-part

This

is

his first

He participated

TV series From Beyond.

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THE RE-ENGINEERING OF

HUMANKIND

JAMES L WALDEN, Ed.D

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Harmony Mary Henry and

Barbara

>

Erik Arnesen;

and

whose

for

Barbara Bartholin

tireless, selfless

compassion saved

my life.

coHims Foreword by Barbara Bartholic

ix

Part One

The Night

My Life Changed Forever

Sleep

Is

Impossible

9

The Regression Begins 17

Going Deeper 23

The Day After 41

J_ Writing

It

All

Down

59

Part Two Human Hybrids

69

JL Who Are the Huliens?

81

3

viii

Contents

Love Obsessions 91

\0 Let's Start

Over

105

Part Three

H My Alien Emerges, Feet First

119

Something's Happening, Barbara!

J3 Old Big Head Shows Up

141

14 Return of Old Big Head

155

15 Thinking

It

Through 167

16 Playing Devil's Advocate

17 Reptilian Origins

189

Epilogue They Are Us 207

1

79

131

fORiWORD During December

of 1977, a handsome, beguiling dark-

haired professor politely declined an invitation to attend the

premier opening of the epic the Third Kind. Dr. Jim

UFO

film, Close Encounters of

Walden decided

evening in his cozy study grading students'

The

snowy night was unaware of the that was occurring simultaneously in hoods, and throughout Arkansas. Shortly after 7:00

KTHS

incoming

p.m.,

calls as

real-life

their

UFO

own

drama

neighbor-

the telephone lines at radio sta-

in Berryville, Arkansas,

were jammed with

people tried frantically to report

sightings. Terrified teenage boys

UFO

exams.

final

captivated audience that watched the Spielberg film

that

tion

spend the

to

were chased

A

UFO

home by

a

frantic

mother

claimed that her frightened daughter had been

electro-

that hovered over their car.

cuted by her curling iron as a

UFO

passed over their

house. Farmers reported that their livestock went "ballis-

and ferocious guard dogs cowered in hiding as mysterious objects maneuvered silently across acres and acres

tic,"

IX

x Foreword

of icy pastureland. Dismayed law enforcement agencies

confirmed the event, and officers watched in awe while strange lights remained suspended in the dark winter sky. Personnel

radio station received a tip that a "big

at the

one" was heading in their direction. Anxious announcers rushed outside just in time to watch an object, reportedly the size of a football field, glide slowly over the station building.

During the following months, witnesses, rang-

ing from nurses to nuclear scientists, continued to report

More than 200 people in Northwest Arkansas witnessed UFOs that December the evening's unusual events.

evening. Outraged farmers, nervous

and deeply con-

cerned about increasing cattle mutilations, formed heav-

armed

ily

patrols.

They camped in fields throughout long, and were prepared to shoot the perpe-

eerie winter nights

trators if necessary,

be they

My investigations ters in

human

or extraterrestrials.

of the unprecedented

UFO

encoun-

Arkansas consumed nearly three years of my life and

set the stage for

researching alien

my life

lifelong devotion to identifying

Fond memories of that flushed through

my

time, nearly fifteen years earlier,

senses

when

Walden's introductory telephone

call.

self in a soft-spoken, gentle voice.

and once-skeptical

and

forms that interface with humankind.

critic

answered Dr. Jim

I

He

introduced him-

The thoughtful

realist,

of alien encounters, spoke in a

guarded fashion, trying desperately to avoid sounding insane as he described the recent disarming appearances of alien beings in his historic Victorian

told

home. He cautiously

me about his abduction to an underground alien facil-

ity,

described inexplicable marks

his

overwhelming

fears

on his body, and expressed

of short, slender

aliens.

When I responded to Dr. Walden's plea for help in understanding his contacts with alien beings and accepted his case,

Foreword

xi

neither of us realized the significance or the magnitude of

our future

As

alliance.

his

life's

story unfolded,

I

learned that

he had been a successful business manager and a respected educator at major universities in Arkansas, Missouri, and

Oklahoma. A year before we met, he had accepted ship role in the

management of Eureka

thriving resort

community

known

Switzerland of America." Dr. Walden's

was

Springs, Arkansas, a

nestled in the grandeur of the

primordial Ozark Mountains and

that he

a leader-

as

"The

in control of the alien intrusions in his

beneath his controlled facade,

I

Little

demeanor suggested life;

but

man who was human world while

perceived a

struggling to maintain one foot in the

the other one explored an alien dimension.

Throughout ters

with

his

unimaginable and traumatic encoun-

aliens, Dr.

Walden continued

to execute his chal-

lenging duties as a city administrator with composure, dignity,

was

and courage. Always considerate of other people, he careful to avoid creating a fearful

community where

he,

environment

and many other

residents,

in a

were

being examined and manipulated by invasive beings from another world.

UFOs and

aliens returned to

Northwest

Arkansas during the spring of 1992. Cattle were spared; but the aliens targeted

"human

Investigations of

livestock" this time.

human

contacts with alien beings are

time-consuming and complex sions are just

activities.

one component of the

Hypnotic regres-

total process of

docu-

menting and assessing such extraordinary events. The researcher and the subject must develop a continuous and integrated partnership, which

may span

several years or a

Both must be dedicated to an unending quest for understanding relationships between humans and aliens;

lifetime.

and the researcher must be committed to providing tireless support, counsel, and comfort to the subject. As Dr.

xii

Foreword

Walden's case subjects.

The

illustrates,

such researchers evolve with their

investigations of his accounts of traumatic

alien abductions have facilitated the

development of new

theories about the presence of alien beings and their inter-

actions with

You most

humankind.

either believe in this

people, belief

is

phenomenon

or you

don t. For

experientially based. For those

who

experience the alien presence, naive concepts of human reality are forever shattered.

dream. For nearly

Dr. Jim

five years,

Walden was

a researcher's

he meticulously documented

the extraordinary events of his

life

with pristine accuracy.

He

was valiant in his efforts to acquire understanding of his alien abductors. Dr.

that separates

Walden stepped

human

across the

boundary

consciousness from human-alien

connections and returned with greater understanding of himself, humanity,

and interdimensional worlds. Barbara Bartholic Tulsa,

Oklahoma June, 1998

Part One

WISH I could forget the alien who stepped through my bedroom door and abducted me from my home. In an instant, I

this experience

transformed

my life,

and forced

me

to ques-

tion every one of my core beliefs. It all

started

pleasant evening

bed,

I

one night in March 1992. at

home, and got

bed

to

read for a few minutes until

I

felt

had enjoyed

I

a

at the usual time. In

ready to

fall

asleep.

My bedroom wasn't completely dark; street lights shone into the

room through

six large

windows.

It

was

just as

I

dimmed

my bedside lamp that the alien stepped through my bedroom door and glided to the foot of my bed. Simultaneously, cold air filled the

and

terror.

The

I

room. began

I

was wide awake, but

petrified with fear

to cry.

alien stood at the foot of the bed,

focused on me. The

memory will

its

large dark eyes

always be engraved in

mind. The being was between four and

five feet tall,

bulbous head, disproportionately large for body.

Its

its

my

with a

thin, frail

gray skin appeared cool, moist, and leathery. As

looked into

its face, all its

features disappeared, as

if it

I

were

4 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

becoming see

its

invisible.

I

now could only

strained harder, but

silhouette.

Then, the being's right eye enlarged and turned bright red, as if activated by the flip of a switch. A brilliant beam of red light streamed from

below the knee

just

jumped up was

was so

I

leg. I

it

sudden stinging pain.

I

my leg with both hands.

I

a

I felt

confused, sobbing, and terrified.

—

terrified

so

I

of the alien that

I

jumped from

it

move,

said out

couldn't bear to think

told myself that a spider

must have bitten

was

"just a spider bite."

found some ointment

I

rubbed

on the

it

my

the bed and ran into the bathroom.

stood there for a few minutes, paralyzed with that

I

must be dreaming!"

loud, "I

about

—where

my right leg,

and penetrated

bed and grabbed

in

chilled,

it

When

in the

small, red spot

on

I

was

fear,

I

repeating

finally able to

medicine cabinet and

my leg.

I

didn't think

kept repeating to myself, "A spider bit

on my leg, I just my leg. A spider bit

my

feel

about the

leg."

alien.

In a few minutes,

inner voice told

As

my

Transfixed by the red spot

I fell

I

began to

me to return to the bedroom.

onto the bed,

I felt

drugged, but

surroundings. The alien returned

appearing

drowsy, and an

at the foot

of the bed.

sob loudly in terror. Again,

I felt

—

still

aware of

this time,

simply

My only reaction was to chilled.

Although

spring air was flowing through the open windows, shivering. Eventually, sheer desperation gave

energy; I

I

hurt, but

my

wall.

eyelids felt very heavy.

the drowsiness

being was

room

I

was

me a burst of

leaped off the bed and back into the bathroom.

slumped against the bathroom

come

warm

still

forever,"

I

My leg no longer

struggled to over-

and remain conscious. I knew that the

waiting for me. "You can't hide in the bathI

told myself.

My Life Changed Forever

The Night

5

my thoughts, a powerful telepathic voice commanded me to return to the bedroom. As I walked, my legs felt like soft rubber, and could hardly support my weight. Just outside the bathroom door, I fell into As

in response to

if

an antique rocking

my

wrapped

arms

Struggling to stay awake,

chair.

around

tightly

my

chest

I

and clenched

my legs together. The rocking and the sound of the creaky me that I was still alive.

old chair reassured

"Are you trying to In response,.

kill

me?"

return to the bed. Although couldn't walk, either. As floor,

asked.

I

heard another telepathic

I

the chair,

was

I

—but

exhausted

my

dragged

mentally,

I

physically,

I

heavy body onto the bed,

was

and

couldn't defy the being's

I

tumbled

some time before

for

muster the strength to crawl to the bed. loudly;

to

couldn't resist the voice,

I

left

I

and remained there

command

still

to the

I

could

sobbing

emotionally

commands. As

I felt

I

—

numb

I

as if

anesthetized.

As soon chilling

as

I

energy

rolled

at

me;

onto the bed, the alien directed

started shivering again. "This

me,"

I

By

is its

said aloud, trying to force this time, however,

ing awareness of

its

my body temperature dropped, and I

my

I

was

body,

I

third attempt to freeze

my brain to function. helpless. Just as

I

was

saw a beam of white

above me, moving slowly and steadily toward me,

los-

light

as if

my

gaze was locked with something approaching in slow

motion. entered

My eyes were still focused on the light beam as it my body, just below the navel. As the beam of

white light penetrated

my body, the voice said, "Relax. Do

not struggle." I

exhaled deeply and released

ing sensation

came over me.

my resistance, and a float-

My physical body was nearly

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

6

my mind was withdrawing

and

frozen,

into unconscious-

My last thought was, "The being is taking my life." When came to, I was lying on my back on a hard, cold

ness.

I

with a surface

table,

lized

—

my eyes, I

focus light

couldn't

i

polished metal.

like

move any of my

stiff white

my face.

smocks, peering

The beings were observing

Some of

their faces

them looked

When

limbs.

I

tried to

could only blink in pain; a bright overhead

was shining right into

beings in

was immobi-

I

I

was surrounded by

clinically

down at me.

me and examining my body.

appeared to be human, but most of

like the alien

being

who had stood at the foot

of my bed, except that their eyes were not red and enlarged.

Although overhead

couldn't see

I

light, I

seemed

to

surgical

room.

be in a

My mind mated that

When

I

solved,

sterilized area,

seemed as

many

helpless to

I

faces

and the bright

room was

and

I

quite large.

wondered

to be functioning again, as a

tried to focus

and

beyond the

sensed that the

on

if it

and

hundred beings were

I

was a

esti-

I

present.

their faces, their features dis-

could only see transparent silhouettes.

do anything but lie there

I

was

in the bright light.

My

memories of

As

heard the words, images appeared in

somewhat fragmented. I remember that the beings touched and examined every part of my body, and were particularly interested in my groin. I remember feeling humiliated when they extracted a sperm sample. When the examination was over, I heard the telepathic voice again. I don't remember all that it said, but I will never forget what I do recall. I

a movie.

this experience are

"You are in an underground

beneath southeast Kansas," the voice said far

above the

facility

was

a flat

wheat

my mind, like

facility located

—and

field in

I

new

saw that growth.

The Night At the edge of the trees that

field,

My Life Changed Forever

a steep hill rose, covered

7

by leafless

were just starting to bud.

The voice

said,

"You are participating in a peaceful,

cooperative experiment."

I

remembered

that

I

had seen

a

—

mixed company of experimenters both human and nonhuman. "You will not be harmed," it added. I also remembered that some of the humans had small glowing red objects implanted underneath their right middle fingernails.

I

now realized telepathically that these were

monitoring devices. In response to

my unspoken question,

human workers are volunteers who are learning to control human disease." I didn't believe this. I couldn't understand why humans the telepathic voice said, "These

would volunteer They're captives, I

I

to

work cooperatively with

alien beings.

thought.

wondered why I had been brought

to this facility.

telepathic voice responded, "We're interested in

The

working

with you because of your ability to send and receive information." ities

I

interpreted this as a reference to

—and suddenly

regretted

my psychic abil-

my twenty years of work as a

psychic counselor.

The

telepathic voice continued, but

pable of absorbing any

more thought: "You and you must accept this!"

ber one

by now

more information. are not

I

I

was inca-

only remem-

who you think you are,

MMe The NEXT

thing

fortable bed.

I

was so glad

"Yes,"

I

and

I

was back

my

that

I

me that

caressed

in

my own warm, com-

bedroom, searching out

A

and shadows.

assured

I

faint reflection in

really

my quilt

was home

my

bed

in

all its

bed-

again.

my pillow.

and hugged

thought, "I'm really home."

Curiously, ful

knew,

scanned

I

familiar shapes

room mirror

I

sleepy.

position,

didn't feel disturbed, or in

I

and

I

rolled

fell

onto

asleep.

shock

—

just bliss-

my left side, my favorite sleeping alien scientists given me

(Had the

an anesthetic?)

The next morning, however, was anything but emotions erupted with volcanic force

blissful.

—images

My

of alien

beings and the underground examining room surged through my mind. I felt drugged. I just wanted to cry and cry... as if tears

knew

that

lated.

I

my

was

could wash away the terrifying memories.

mind,

terrified

my body, and my being had by the

alien intruder's total

me. "When they're finished with me, aloud to myself.

they'll kill

I

been vio-

power over me,"

I

said

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

10

During the following days, I was an emotional wreck. I cried continuously, and the memories of the aliens and underground

their

trollably, in a

facility

its

way

into

struggle to force the terrible

during the day, so Restful sleep

the alien,

my mind

my

my

awareness.

memories from

could work

I

was impossible. Before

it

was invaded by

bedroom had been my

favorite

was

afraid to be in there at

all.

I

my friends

and

and depressed, victimized and I

to

at the office.

could no longer relax, or enjoy any

withdrew from

had

I

my thoughts

me

image of the aliens glowing red eye haunted I

new

spacious

room. Afterward,

stantly;

uncon-

continuous loop. Occasionally, a vivid

would work

detail

ran through

lost weight.

"An

I felt

alien being

I

fatigued

my

fragile

abducted me!"

thought repeatedly. Rather than forgetting,

remembered more and more

activity.

helpless.

could not escape the awful memories. All

rationalizations failed.

The con-

I

gradually

I

—and my memories of

this

experience initiated a life-long interdimensional search for the truth.

Before

March

1992,

or science fiction. tion books,

I

had zero

interest in aliens,

UFOs,

to science fic-

TV programs, and movies. A persistent friend

talked

me into going to

When

I

finally

saw

never occurred to ity,

1

had an outright aversion

it, I

Close Encounters of the Third Kind. just dismissed

it

as a silly

movie.

It

me that any of it might be based on real-

or that anyone else might have really encountered an

alien.

To me,

aliens

was one reason So, while

my

fiction fantasies

remembering more,

that the encounter

cated

were science

recovery.

and emotional

—and

this

my own alien encounter was so disturbing. I

was

also trying to

had ever happened, and I

was

conflicts.

filled

this

deny

compli-

with unresolvable mental

For months, suicide loomed in

my

1

Sleep

mind

as the only acceptable solution.

my

tioned

Is

Impossible

continuously ques-

I

and sometimes wondered

sanity,

me

had programmed

1

if

the aliens

to destroy myself. In a way,

was

I

destroyed already

—when the intruder entered my bed-

my

abruptly ended, and for a long time

room,

old

thought that

life

would never again be worth

life

my bedroom. Although logic

could no longer sleep in

I

told

me

teen

rooms of my large Victorian house,

dining its

Most

room

large

often,

floor.

windows

I

A street lamp

—and

I

good

heard a loud, forceful voice are you.

At the time,

I

I

bedroom seemed come.

I

like a

was lying on

my

when I heard a loud at light-

image of George Washing-

my face, touching my nose.

say,

You must to

me

I

"George Washington was

accept!"

didn't understand this cryptic message.

had no more meaning that

the

room.

moved toward me

a large, life-like

ton stopped right in front of

one of us. So

lit

ceiling for sleep,

"whishing" sound. Something

—and

safer sleeping

my bed on

told myself that alien beings

alternative but sleep wouldn't

ning speed

thir-

stood directly in front of

night, the downstairs guest

back and searching the

I felt

ended up making

wouldn't dare enter such a brightly

One

any of the

that the alien could have entered

elsewhere.

I

living.

It

than the previous statement

must accept a new definition of myself. "Was the father of our country an alien?"

I

asked

naively,

Perhaps

I

journal, but

should have entered I

didn't expect to live long

one. For a while,

happen

to

my early encounters in a

me

I

lost

again,

hope

and

enough

that anything

my

to complete

good would ever

negative thinking nearly

destroyed me.

As the weeks passed, however,

some of my

physical

I

slowly began to recover

and emotional strength.

between long, painful episodes of feeling

I

alternated

like a victim,

and

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

12

sudden, brief bursts of determination to understand what

had happened emotional

to

me.

I

began to accept the inexplicable

my life had become.

roller coaster that

Then, early in June, something wonderful happened. As I

my office one sunny morning, the receptionand said, "Two women are waiting in the hall.

walked into called

ist

They want As

to interview you."

particularly

on

sitting

when

down

walked

I

drawn

women, I felt redheaded woman,

the hall toward the two

to

one of them

—a

seemed disturbed, and

a bench. She

introduced myself. The other

I

didn't speak

woman, who was

and moved toward me as I approached. name was Rachel, and she was researching

standing, smiled

She said her a

book about

ghosts. She

wanted

to verify

about a Victorian hotel that

ries

twenty years before records.

—

she'd found

I'd

some ghost stomanaged some

my name

in the hotel

"Did you meet any ghosts while you worked and

lived there?" she asked.

Captivated by her enthusiasm,

I

spoke freely about

my

encounters with the hotel's unseen residents. After thanking

me for my stories, she lowered her voice and added, "In

addition to these interviews, and reviewing historical doc-

uments, I'm also trying to identify some of the ghosts

through psychic research."

The tion

quiet

woman

hadn't taken part in our conversa-

—her head was turned toward the door. Now, Rachel

glanced at her and said, "Jane to tour the hotel

is

a gifted psychic.

I

asked her

and report her psychic impressions about

the alleged spirit entities." I

was drawn

to Jane,

icate, attractive face.

sunlight. to her

I felt

and found myself staring

Her red

hair

was aglow in the morning

compelled to speak to

and asked, "Jane, did you

at her del-

her. Abruptly,

I

rest well last night?"

turned

Sleep Is Impossible

Although

it

was an unusual question to ask a

13

stranger,

I

expected her to respond in some way. Instead, her eyelids

moved up and down, but

make eye on the bench, and

she didn't answer or

contact. She just adjusted her position

continued to gaze through the glass door panels. Rachel stepped in and said calmly, "Jane thinks that an

molested her

alien

last night."

"At the hotel?" "Yes," Rachel continued. "She's disturbed

alien being entered her

molested

who had

that

me.

clicked inside

wanted

moment,

I

to

it

another person

Finally,

encountered an alien being!

very disturbed. I

night and sexually

her."

Something

ence;

room during the

because an

And

was

she, too,

wanted to hear more about her experi-

know

our

if

stories

had never occurred to

might have been contacted by the

matched up. Until

me

that any others

alien beings.

some comfort. If Jane has encountered an thought, J may not be insane, after all

Now

I

felt

alien being,

I

Rachel closed her notebook, saying that they were ready to leave

had

town

—and

to talk to Jane,

a sense of

and

knew I had

I

mental connection with

urgency swelled in me.

her,

and

I

to act quickly.

had

to

I

I

felt a

know about

her

alien encounter. I

turned to Jane and

on the like

said,

"You must be anxious

to get

May I walk

to your car with you? I'd really to hear about the alien being who entered your hotel

room

road.

last night."

Rachel smiled and excused herself, saying, "I'd

buy some

postcards, Jane.

I'll

meet you

like to

at the car in a few

minutes."

Jane and

I

left

the building together and stepped into

the lovely spring morning.

The

car

was nearby, so

I

said

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

14

was abducted by an

quickly, "I

ago,

and

one

else

"I

been very disturbed.

I've

had been visited." was first abducted by

Jane replied. to her.

I

alien being several

I

could

tell

didn't

I

weeks

know that

any-

alien beings seven years ago,"

that the

memory was

was

discovered that she

a veteran of

still

painful

many

alien

encounters; her original contacts with the aliens had dis-

turbed her deeply. Tears welled in her eyes as she confided,

"When

institution.

I

it

happened,

really

I

thought

admitted myself to a mental

was insane."

I

was expressed in words and

tears;

Jane's anguish

her sincerity touched

my heart. She pointed to the nape of her neck. "Aliens implant

programming devices They use these devices us." After

in

humans

to control

for various purposes.

and communicate with

speaking frankly about her alien encounters, she

assured me, "You aren't insane." Her story gave for

me hope

my own survival.

Reaching to open the car door, Jane hesitated. She

me and

turned to

able to help you.

said, "I

know someone who might be

With your permission,

I'll

ask her

if

she'd

be willing to counsel you about your alien encounters."

"That would be wonderful!"

I

replied.

I

wrote

down

my phone number and handed it to her. "Please call me collect and let me know if your friend would be willing to talk

with me."

Three or four days passed, and thought to our conversation.

morning,

I

was surprised but

When

it

I

didn't give

Jane called early one

was great

voice. "Jim," she said, "I talked to

much

to hear her caring

my friend, and she's very

interested in your recent encounters with aliens. She's an

alien-abduction researcher."

Sleep

I

couldn't disguise

Is

Impossible

15

my surprise. "A researcher?"

"Yes" Jane replied. "One of the best." Panic rushed through me.

I

had never considered

talk-

ing to a researcher.

"Here's her

you I

phone number," Jane

said. "She's

expecting

to call."

wrote the number

help.

Then

I

decide whether to researcher.

down and thanked

sat quietly for several call

Jane for her

minutes, trying to

Barbara Bartholic, alien-abduction

—

ON

Although

I

was reluctant to

by now I was too desperate ters

to care.

continued to torment me,

frightened,

As

I

and

tell

my

story to a researcher,

As the disturbing encoun-

my life hit bottom

—

was

I

sick,

lonely.

picked up the phone to dial Barbara Bartholic's

num-

my sense of apprehension grew. I felt as if I was about to share my

ber,

I

didn't

know what

to expect.

While the phone rang,

with a stranger. Barbara's comforting

most intimate

secrets

voice soon put

me at ease; she seemed to

alien beings

that

I

had shattered

could trust

her.

dered what she was Except for a few

I

understand

my life. Within

minutes,

tried to visualize her face,

I

how the decided

and won-

person.

like in

details,

Barbara already knew

my story

she had heard the same story hundreds of times from other clients. After first easing

sense of anxiety and pain, she

routine questions to verify that

I

had

a genuine alien abduction. Within a few minutes,

I

was

began asking

had

my

ready to

tell

me some

her everything

—and soon

I felt

my heart, my soul, and my secrets with her. 17

as if

I

had shared

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

18

Afterward,

I

—and

heard her pause and exhale deeply

then, with a sense of deep compassion, she said, "I think

you've had legitimate encounters with alien beings. If you

need

my help, I'm here for you anytime."

Now, the alien intrusions began occurring almost every day; I became afraid to be home alone. The encounters often happened around three o'clock in the morning, and they left

me feeling drugged, unable to move. My limbs seemed disconnected from

my brain;

terrified,

I

would

struggle help-

move a leg or an arm to the edge of the bed. To focus my mind and regain awareness, I began to time my recovery periods. One typical Sunday morning, forty-five simply

lessly to

minutes passed before

I

During those weeks,

could reach for the telephone. I

called Barbara almost every day.

She was always there for me, and her calming voice was able to pull

me back into physical reality. I became

dent on her

—she was my

the only person couldn't

tell

anchor and

who knew about my

my lifeline.

depen-

She was

encounters so

far. I

my relatives, and although some of my friends my stories, I knew I would-

might have listened politely to

enjoy the jokes that would follow.

n't

Barbara emphasized the importance of talking about

my

encounters. She also recorded each

may

"Your reports others."

Only after

provide information that

several

explaining,

call,

is

helpful to

weeks of patient listening did she

suggest that hypnotic regression might help

—"when you stand the experiences

are strong

me

under-

enough

to

learn more."

The want

idea of being hypnotized

to relive

my

was intimidating.

alien encounters;

the emotional strength to handle

of June,

I

was

it.

I

I

doubted that

didn't I

had

However, by the end

suicidal, struggling for survival

—and

I

knew

The Regression Begins the time

had arrived

19

to take drastic action. Barbara invited

me to visit her over the three- day Fourth of July weekend. As

turned west on the highway toward Barbara's

I

house,

felt

I

nervous and lonely.

I

was thinking that

this

my powerful

Fourth of July would sure be different from

childhood memories of family Fourth of July celebrations

on the Kings

River.

could

I

still

smell the fried chicken and

watermelon. Now,

taste the sweet

my life lay in ruins, and I

was filled with anxiety about reliving the alien encounters under hypnosis.

When Barbara stepped out of the house to greet me, my was obvious; my preconceived image of her could

surprise

not have been more wrong. typical researcher

—

I

had imagined her

slight build,

clothing and glasses. Instead, tall,

I

little if

was hugged warmly by

a

woman with a flair for fashion. She me inside and made me feel right at home. When I

blonde, beautiful

ushered

asked about the paintings and sculptures that ing room,

were both

I

the

liv-

artists.

and

I

research, the

phone rang con-

noticed that she counseled each caller with

same caring tones

that she

filled

learned that Barbara and her husband, Tim,

As Barbara explained her stantly,

the

as a stereo-

any makeup, plain

that

had comforted me.

It

was

clear

was working with many abductees. "Each person is

important," she said. "Each abductee

is

another piece of the

gigantic alien- abduction puzzle."

Barbara encouraged

me

to talk freely about

ences, but avoided expressing said she didn't

any of her own

want to influence

mind. But she did

me

my experi-

beliefs

—she

or plant ideas in

say, reassuringly, "I believe

know what

you"

—

my and

happened

to

later she added, "I think

I

you, but

We discussed my experiences for

I

can't say

it

yet."

really

20 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

several hours before she finally asked,

look

at

your

"Would you

like to

under hypnosis?"

alien encounters

Barbara arranged a pallet of pillows and cushions for

me to

stretch out on; as

fireworks

filled

celebrating

I

lay

the room.

It

down, the crackling sound of

seemed that the country was

independence

its

—and

I

was about

to dis-

cover mine. While Barbara fussed with the tape recorder, the video camera, release

and the

my anxieties

lights,

I

had plenty of time

to

about hypnosis.

Barbara turned on some

music, and soon even

celestial

the loudest of the fireworks explosions were absorbed into

its

harmonies. Barbara s relaxation suggestions were

familiar to

me, and

peaceful state.

I

soon drifted into a relaxed and

Under the influence of her soothing

my mind slowly gave in to her soft, hypnotic voice. I placed my trust completely in her — my last conscious thought was, "She'll protect me reminders,

I

forgot

my

fears;

while I'm under hypnosis." I

was lying on

relaxed,

my back with my arms at my sides, deeply

when something amazing happened. A slender gray

alien being

—

just like the first

emerged from

my body.

Still

up quickly and looked

one

had seen

I

attached to

—suddenly

my lower body, it

seemed

to

be trying to

understand what was happening and where

it

was. After a

sat

moment's side

hesitation,

it

startled. It

turned

its

bulbous head from side to

and surveyed the room. Then

it

stood upright and, in

one springing motion, leapt into the

air

and disappeared

through a closed window. Turning to Barbara, "That's

what they put into

I

said,

my body, isn't it?"

"What, from your understanding, was put into your body?" Barbara asked, as she calmly engaged the recorder.

The Regression Begins "A being," to inhabit inside

I

my

replied.

"They made

body. But

I

didn't

it

21

possible for an alien

know

that

had been

it

me until just now."

"The being has

left

your body" Barbara assured me.

"How do you feel?" I

snapped, "Foolish!"

Barbara looked into feel that

eyes

and asked, "Why do you

way?"

For a

moment

swollen. Finally, alien

my

I

I

couldn't respond;

replied, "I

my

should have

vocal cords

known

felt

that the

was inside me."

At the time,

I

didn't understand the being's abrupt

my remark. But the image in my mind, any of my other encounters.

departure, or the significance of

of the being living inside

me

and disturbed me more than

remained vivid

For nearly two years afterward,

had returned Barbara

to

now

soon carried

I

would wonder

if

the alien

my body. proceeded with the regression; her voice

me into a dreamlike state. I was dimly aware of

my surroundings, and occasionally heard distant-sounding bursts of fireworks, but mostly

I

was relieved

to

be

free

of

the burdens of my awareness. Following Barbara's hypnotic suggestions,

cloud.

my pallet of cushions turned into a fluffy white

Her reassuring voice knew the way, and

to follow

it

deep into

"Do you want

I

was ready

my subconscious.

to talk about anything specific?" she

asked. "I see nothing."

"Take yourself back to the night

when

the alien with the

bright red eye appeared at the foot of your bed." "I see

an entire

face!"

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

22

Under hypnosis, I could see the alien's face clearly for the first time. The top of its head was rounded and large in proportion to its narrow, pointy chin. Its most prominent features were large, dark, slanted eyes. As I watched, the right eye enlarged and a beam of glowing red light

moved toward me. "Did body?"

I

me to describe the aliens face further, but

couldn't see any ears, nose, or

carefully at the alien I

told her that

I

and

tell

mouth.

"Please, Jim, look

me more about it."

could sense that

was cool and moist. "And when

it

its soft,

entered

smelled a foul, musty odor, which before.

my mind or

asked.

Barbara asked I

the red light control

I

leathery skin

my bedroom,

I

had never smelled

My fear of it was like my fear of poisonous snakes."

Barbara encouraged

me to look at the being more closely.

"Can you say more?"

My

response surprised both of us.

frightened now,"

was

right.

I

am

I

said calmly.

"The voice

one of them!

simply need to remember

"I don't

who

have to be

in the laboratory

don't need to be fearful;

I I

am."

I

—

GOIN& DEEPER

As I tried to sort through the confused thoughts that filled my mind, Barbara suggested, "You are floating in space. Your mind

will take you,

your soul, and your consciousness to the

most important memories you need

to recall in this session.

You can go to any point in time. You can travel in time anywhere you wish. Take yourself back, now." Going deeper into the hypnotic trance was like entering an

enormous library, in which all my memories were carefully bound and shelved. As Barbara guided me deeper and deeper, I

began to

scious library,

Barbara

memories from the shelves of

select

and watch them come

now

said,

looked into the aliens

to

my

life.

"Take yourself to the night large,

subcon-

glowing red

when you

eye."

The alien who invaded my bedroom again came into focus but

this time, in

right here,"

I

more

said,

detail

than ever before. "There's an area

pointing to

my forehead, "where

I

was pro-

grammed to be helpful to other people. The aliens have many different human programs, and I received 'intuitionist' programming, which allows

me to look into other people's minds." 23

24 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

Barbara asked

how I

"I see a glass tube.

.

received the programming.

.and I'm in

it!"

those words, forty- five years of beliefs of myself

With

vanished. As the image of a

human embryo

in a glass tube

time why the became clearer, alien had said that I wasn't who I thought I was. The image forced me to consider that my life might have begun in an I

understood for the

alien laboratory, rather

My

human womb.

than a

hypnotized mind said that

group of experimental

first

I

had been part of

human embryos

hear the thoughts of the alien scientists

me. "They were concerned about

"My embryo was and they had to

a challenge;

resuscitate

it

—and

a

began to

I

who had

created

my development," I said.

—

almost died

or

it

did die,

it."

As scenes of my creation appeared before me,

I

watched

my embryo; they weren't sure it was useable. "They almost disposed of me because I was-

the alien scientists discussing

n't

developing properly,"

The beings.

I

said sadly.

appeared to be compassionate

alien

scientists

"They

didn't destroy

me, even though they were

concerned about the success of their experiment. They

must have

felt

some kind of emotional attachment. They

were gentle and caring." Barbara asked details

me to view the scene again and report all

of my creation.

"I started

my embryo was implanted into my weren't my real par-

out in a glass tube, and then

brought into

this

dimension and

womb. My human parents My mother never knew about the alien implantation that resulted in my birth. They went to her while she was mother's ents.

sleeping, anesthetized

pushed

and opened

me into her body."

her, inserted a tube,

and

— Going Deeper 25

As

described this discovery, disturbing thoughts

I

my mind. I remembered an evening twenty years earlier, when my mother and I had discussed my budding flooded

psychic

abilities.

She had confessed to me,

—but when you were born,

why

ferent

from other

children.

I

knew

raised

I

"I don't

you

know

you were

that

differently,

dif-

and

allowed you more freedom."

My mother was right. All my life, I'd felt different from my siblings and peers. Under hypnosis, could see my life from a new perspective, and pieces of my life's puzzle I

began to

fall

been right

from

into place.

all

is

vividly, "I

more

to

was than

life

right! I've I

learned

and education."

religion

By accepting the to ideas about

existence of aliens,

I

had opened myself

human evolution that felt

me. "Interdimensional tion of

thought

I

along! There

humankind!"

Louise wasn't the

absolutely right to

alien beings are directing the evolusaid. It

I

first

me

occurred to

that

Baby

test-tube baby. Alien scientists

had

probably created millions of test-tube humans long before. After discovering that

with questions.

I

I

was

filled

away from Barbara's voice and

drifted

I

was a test-tube baby,

began a probing discussion with myself.

I

looked into

my

mental mirror, searching for a familiar image of myself but

it

had disappeared.

All traces of "myself"

replaced by something unrecognizable.

and

fragmented

Look at one year of age," I heard Barbara

trying to reach me.

"I don't like physical tears.

and

felt

helpless.

"Let's continue. say,

I

had been

At that

feelings,

fortable

age,

I

life; it's

a struggle,"

wasn't comfortable with

and did not remember

—more

"at

home"

—

that

I

I

said, close to

human thoughts was more com-

in another dimension.

26 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"Why were you created?" Barbara asked. I've just

"I'm confused!

been in a head-on

forty-five years of human life

collision

my embryo in an alien test tube." Barbara guided me to a deeper state, and "Please tell me more about your creation." "In the tube,

I

was given

posite of other people

—my

have just collided with seeing

special brain cells.

said calmly,

I

am a com-

and beings. Some parts of me came

from humans; others came from

aliens.

I'm not unique.

am composed of parts of all the people who were used create I

to

me!"

saw the

human

alien beings harvesting brain cells

bodies, then combining the cells to

embryo. Barbara asked brain

I

cells. I said, "I

how

from dying

make my

the aliens had extracted the

see the corpses of

two

men and one

—

woman. When they died, the aliens who cannot be seen by humans are present, and they retrieve tissue samples

—

to use in creating me."

As

I

realized that

I

was part human

word "hybrid" came to mind. The woman's corpse was the most vivid. I didn't recognize her, but I was aware that she had a superior intellect. and part

alien, the

"I'm not an individual," I

I

repeated.

hesitated, trying to accept that

three people

and other

aliens.

I

I

was a composite of

was angry,

feeling that the

interdimensionals had robbed the people of their biological cells

and

ethereal essences.

tures of the donors?" "Let's I

hope

so.

I

"Do

wondered

aliens take the best fea-

indignantly.

Do you know any of the donors?"

didn't think so; but

something about them was famil-

and I wondered if they had had intuitive abilities. "Maybe I'm the next link in an evolutionary chain of intu-

iar,

itive

hybrids

—maybe I'm an improved version of them."

Going Deeper 27

When

Barbara asked

me to tell her how I

one year

felt at

my head, as if invisible forces were striking at me. I grabbed my head with both of age, excruciating pain suddenly filled

hands and tried to protect myself from the don't like being a child!

more, but

I

want

to

be

invisible blows. "I

older."

wanted

I

to say

couldn't talk because of the pain.

I

"Was your head injured when you were

a child?" Bar-

bara asked.

"Maybe when I was born." Barbara assumed that

and suggested that ine being in the I

I

"slip

over to the other side," and imag-

by something before

hit

Barbara tried to stimulate gin of

my

I

my head at the

Immediately,

I

time

I

unknown

about the

ori-

my

jaw was

I

first affected.

pain.

my head!" object as "a small

BB- sized

it, I massaged my jaw, my left my skull. The pain was so unbear-

thought about

temple, and the base of able that

was born."

knew what had caused the

described the

As

head may have

my memories

"A tiny object was placed in

thing."

my

head and jaw pain. Then she suggested that

look inside

I

birth,

womb.

responded, "Actually, the side of

been

my

was re-experiencing

I

my head felt like it would explode.

"The object

isn't

made of metal

—and when

I

was about

months old, my head was hit again." As I remembered Jane's comments about the implant in her head, I felt comsix

fortable saying,

ear

and into

my

functioned as a

"Did

this

"The

aliens forced

head.

It

an implant through

was an organic substance that

communication

device."

occur while you were in the

you were born?"

my

womb,

or after

28 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

womb; but I know my head when I was

"I'm not sure what happened in the

was implanted in

that something

about

would

six

months

old. Before that, the aliens weren't sure

and they didn't want to waste time on me. The

live,

implant was used to monitor

Barbara encouraged I

didn't

me

know where

aliens; the

images of

my progress and to commu-

me, or control me."

nicate with

but

I

to speak about the implants,

My mind was filled with into my subconscious was

to begin.

journey

turning out to be as traumatic as the trip to the under-

ground laboratory.

realized that

I

my life had been a series

of encounters with alien beings, and that

one of

just

their millions of hybrids.

improved horses, scientists are

foolishly

cattle,

improving

and dogs," us, in the

I

I

was probably

"Humans have

reasoned, "and alien

same way. But we have

assumed that we occupy the top rung of the

intel-

ligence ladder."

Barbara didn't ask another question right away.

became aware of the ally

silence,

be an alien-controlled

Barbara

said,

"The Earth may actu-

human experimentation farm."

knew I was burdened with

and she gave

disturbing thoughts,

me the suggestion to rest for a few moments.

After resting sis,

I

When I

and one of

I

said,

my

gling for release.

I

"I'm six now."

carefully

was

I

was

still

in

hypno-

guarded secrets was strug-

reliving a traumatic childhood

experience in which "Judy," a babysitter, had raped me.

For years,

I

had suppressed the memory of the rape

—and

the feelings of being embarrassed, dirty, guilty, and fearful that

had

resulted.

I

was afraid that

my parents would dis-

cover what had happened, and blame me. So prising that

being raped.

I

didn't

remember the

it's

not sur-

actual experience of

Going Deeper 29

Now, however, I vividly relived the experience of being raped in a bedroom closet by an overweight adolescent girl. My hands felt the disarrayed clothing on the floor; the metal clothing hangers on the floor pressed into back.

I

relived the

my

traumatic moment when

my bare

the babysitter

hand over my mouth. The impact of her heavy body terrified, and nearly crushed, me. Then I heard the approaching footsteps of her mother, and my heart raced. Her mother asked in her usual voice, "Where are you kids?" I didn't want her to find us or unzipped

pants, while holding her

me for doing something bad. Barbara asked me to breathe deeply and relax. "It wasn't

to be angry with

her

fault! I didn't

know what

my

held her hand over

made I

just

her do

to do.

mouth.

I

I

was

don't

afraid, so she

know why

they

it!"

hesitated, trying to

comprehend the words

that

had

my mouth. "We were being watched. know if my programs were working prop-

gushed from

They wanted erly. I

to

did not want to be with her!"

"Be in the experience and look around," Barbara instructed calmly. "You said that the rape wasn't Judy's fault.

Who was there?" "Until now,

I

didn't

"and I'm having

know anything about this," I

difficulty

with

it." I felt

replied,

like a small child

confessing to a scornful parent.

Barbara suggested that

and

close

it. I

I

place

my confusion in a drawer

followed her advice and was able to look at

the rape scene again. This time,

I

saw images that

my mind

had suppressed for nearly forty years. "They came through the walls! They came through the walls!"

I

shouted, as frightening scenes flashed in

"Aliens watched us,"

I

said tearfully.

my mind.

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

30

"How many beings were present? How many watched?" Barbara asked.

then

"First three, then four,

and

first;

six... they

were

invisible at

didn't see them."

I

"Did Judy see the beings?" "No, that

I

don't think so

—but her mother must have known

something was happening. She must have looked into

the bedroom;

heard her heavy footsteps hesitating near

I

the closet door.

I

didn't

want her

to

open the door."

My anxiety mounted. "Judy was manipulated. experiment. .the aliens wanted to see .

if I

.

.it

was an

could function,"

I

said indignantly.

Barbara asked

why the experiment was conducted. I

her that the aliens were testing

"Did you pass the "I survived.

I'm

Barbara asked

told

my sexual abilities.

test?"

still alive."

how the

recurring pain in

my jaw related

to the rape. "Fear,

maybe.

anyone, so

I

kept

I

couldn't yell for help.

it

Barbara guided

me

to

was

afraid to

tell

a secret for nearly forty years."

me

back to the rape scene to look

more closely. "The aliens were disappointed Judy forced

I

in

me. They didn't

do something bad, and her

at

like

size

it

it.

and

strength frightened me."

"Did they want you

to

be more sexually stimulated than

you were?" In response,

me.

I

I

relived Judy's hot,

immediately reached for

cover myself.

I

heavy body rolling off

my

freedom and

tried to

focused on a stream of light gushing

through an open crack in the closet door to

and

clothes

safety,

but

it

—

also stimulated

it

was

my link

my feelings of

Going Deeper 31 guilt

and

but

was too upset

I

dirtiness.

"Observe

"The

aliens discussed

me telepathically,

to understand their thoughts."

carefully.

Try to understand what they were

thinking."

"They were deciding whether of me."

felt

I

to let

me live or to dispose

disappointed in myself. "The aliens were dis-

my sexual performance." asked me to explain this. "I

pleased with

Barbara

accelerate the aliens' experiments.

sexually capable early in

life,

They expected me

earlier

"Why did they want you to

was developed

to

to be

than normal humans."

be sexually capable

such a

at

young age?" "They were trying

whose

sexuality

to develop a

would develop

and reproductive

ual

group of human hybrids

early.

These advanced sex-

would allow the

abilities

complete more

human life-cycle experiments

"You were

Did the

six years old!

aliens to

in less time."

aliens really expect

you

to have sexual intercourse with Judy?" "I ule.

think

so.

I

perform according to

didn't

They wanted me

to

be sexually advanced, but

progressing like a normal

my

with

inability to

"The

deeply.

aliens

their schedI

was

human. They weren't pleased

complete the sexual

used Judy to

act."

I

sighed

test me; they controlled

her thoughts and actions."

how the pain in my head was related to "When they forced the implant into my

Barbara asked the rape.

body,

it

I

said,

hurt

—and my

fear of

Judy and of the aliens was

emotionally painful."

"Why was your

Why

not your

"The of

my

sexuality so important to the aliens?

intellect?"

aliens said there

testicles

and

my

is

a link between the development

brain.

They expected

my brain

to

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

32

when my body experienced

take a big leap

when

puberty,

my testicles were activated." Suddenly,

I

began screaming, "Youve got to take

new one

They put a

my

in

me

Help

ear!

get

out!

it

out!

it

It

hurts!"

me

Barbara told

where

I

my head in a place she told me to rest. When I

to put the pain in

couldn't feel

it.

Then,

was calm again, she asked, "Why did you

"Some time

after

being raped,

pen by myself; the spring grass was I

feel

pain?"

was playing

I

tall,

nearly to

cow

in a

my waist.

was walking near a fence when the aliens appeared, and

one of them looked

like

Judy at

again forced something into ciating pain as to charge I

held

I

They stunned me, and

first.

my ear." As before, I felt excru-

recalled the encounter.

my brain." my head and

was able to speak,

I

tried to confine the pain.

and

fear.

but also about

Amidst

all

When

thanked Barbara for helping me.

not only discovering the truth about alien beings,

"They were trying

my encounters

I

I

was

with

forty-five years of self-doubt

the physical and emotional pain,

I felt

comforted.

The intense pain of reliving the second implant caused me to

come out of my hypnotic

questions about aliens.

I

state.

said, "I

My mind was wild with

want

to understand them.

want to ask them why they do these things Barbara looked at tell

me how and

people,

me

sympathetically. "Please, Barbara,

alien beings

create

I

to people."

human

can glide through life

walls,

abduct

in a glass tube." Beneath

my

I heard a calm and distant voice say, "Your human logic will not prevail when you seek answers about us."

emotions,

Like other telepathic messages aliens,

I

I

had received from the

didn't understand this at the time.

I

didn't grasp

Going Deeper 33

human

the fragility of gence.

asked

I

bitterly,

logic in relation to alien intelli-

"What

if

experimental subjects, the way

and mice?"

I felt

victimized,

the aliens are using us as

human

scientists use rats

and couldn't find any positive

rationalization for the aliens' behavior.

human lives. "The aliens may answer

I

resented their

control over

said,

while reinstating

my

ready to explore

underground

my

these questions later," Barbara

hypnotic trance. She was

abduction and

my

now

experience in the

laboratory.

Under hypnosis, memories of the encounter were lucid and readily accessible. Since it had been difficult to process

my

sensory perceptions in the alien dimension, at

just noticed a lot of descriptive details that

remembered "I

I

first I

had not

earlier.

was naked and

restrained.

I

could see aliens and

humans and hear some of their thoughts and mental conversations.

My

examination

fingertips felt the polished surface of the

table,

Barbara asked I

said that

I

and the room was cool and damp."

how the beings had

extracted

my semen.

didn't understand the alien technology

and

gave her a long, tearful explanation of their semen-extrac-

came toward me, and when it entered my stomach, semen was released. They wanted my body to produce sperm for them. I felt humiliated. They tion procedure. "Energy

treated

me like a research animal."

Barbara repeated the question. I

said,

entered

"The

my stomach,

to release

my body. When it maybe below my navel, it caused me

energy, or light, penetrated

semen. Afterwards,

I

couldnt

feel sexual.

I

didn't

have any interest in sex for a couple of months afterward."

"Did you

feel

yourself ejaculate?"

34 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"No.

more I

I

didn't have a physical reaction or release.

like a

It

was

milking process."

was distraught, and did not want to

ating experience; but

I

gestion to describe

more

it

relive this

humili-

nevertheless followed Barbaras sugfully.

My legs were spread apart and restrained. I couldn't move my limbs. They invaded the most private area of my body, and depleted my dignity. thought they were going to castrate "I

was naked; many

were peering

faces

down

at

me.

I

me. They treated

me

the

way humans

when

treat animals

they neuter them."

By now, ished with

I

was nearly

hysterical. "Barbara, are they fin-

me? Will I be of further value

"You re very important," Barbara those frightening moments,

I

to

said.

them?"

But as

I

relived

didn't feel important. She

encouraged

me to look deeper into the details of the experi-

"How

were you positioned when the semen sample

ence.

was extracted?" I

couldn't control

mined I

to

my

hypnotized mind.

before leapt from at

I

said,

with

home

aliens

One can

is

chilled,

feel

my

rest

human, and the legs of

apart. This

first I

many pauses, "I

took the

never heard

in bed!"

and lowered

body was

I'd

my mouth. This time, I said, "My human

This was startling, and at

my body

was deter-

answer Barbara's questions quickly and honestly.

was often surprised when thoughts that

body was

It

my

fumbled

Then

for words.

you how the

alien chilled

vibrations. While

my human

told

—

other body was transported

the

of

me

away. I'm aware of two bodies.

it's

on

my bed in my house. However, I

my other body as

body is on

their

applying pressure between

the aliens pull

examination

table,

them

and they are

my testicles and anus. It hurts!

I

Going Deeper 35 don't understand

human body

how

I

can have these feelings when

present.

isn't

The

my

aliens are not gentle.

They're hurting me."

When that

I

I

agreed to the regression,

it

me

never occurred to

would be discussing such intimate topics with Barbara.

She was aware of my embarrassment, but spurred deeper, asking, "What

"To prepare

"How "When

me

to

go

was the purpose of the pressure?"

my body to

release semen."

did they apply the pressure?"

they were ready, a very bright light was directed

toward me. The

light

caused

my semen

to ooze out.

muscles had been anesthetized, and the light caused a

My

free-

flowing drainage that didn't require any physical or mental

Do they still want me to live?"

stimulation. "Yes!

You

are valuable to them.

Was your body paralyzed

while you were on the table? Could you I

pointed to the implant behind

resist

my

ear

them?"

and

said, "It's

my me to

metal on a magnet. The aliens can block

like placing

thoughts and control

my

mind.

If

they don't want

speak certain information, for example, nal to the implant,

and

they'll

send a

sig-

my mind won't able to process the my body, as well."

thought. They can manipulate

"The

aliens block

your mind by activating the implant?"

"Yes."

"Bypass

memory

it!"

she demanded.

"Go down and

get the

of what happened to you, now! Focus on the

and your other body. Describe the body that's restrained on the table."

alien facility

"When

We

I'm out of my

human body,

I

look

like

them!"

were both shocked. Barbara inhaled deeply before

asking,

"When you were on

were in an alien body?"

the examination table, you

36 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"Yes.

I

know what Barbara was

don't

I

like the aliens."

looked

thinking, but

Vm

thoughts were, Please, Barbara, dont think

Although

I

couldn't believe

her to believe

can accept

me. But

this.

I

it

had

myself,

I

my human body

—

insane.

desperately wanted

to confess, "I don't

As the regression began,

my

saw an

I

an alien that looked

know

if I

alien leave

body

just like the

dont understand how

this is

Barbara didn't waver from her search for answers.

"How

on the examination

table.

I

possible."

did they use your semen?

What was

their purpose?"

"You already know the answers," couldn't avoid the questions, but

I

said,

wanted

I

squirming.

I

to avoid the

ensuing discussion. "Please, tell me." "I

do not want

swelled

to talk about this!"

my throat. Under hypnosis,

thing that correlated with

ments

I

had reported

I

I

was

shouted. Fear

realizing

some-

some conscious memory

to Barbara

frag-

weeks before.

"Please."

"My fears may come true," I I

knew what

I

was about

sobbed.

to see, but

Dreamlike encounters drifted in

memory

fragments came

alive.

—

I

couldn't block

it.

mind's eye, and the

My

semen had been the aliens had used my

human woman human embryo! tell me what you know about the

implanted in a

sperm

my

to create a

"Please

destination of

your semen." I

felt

angry and humiliated. "To the

I

don't understand

it's

just

ongo-

humans why they're doing this."

ing research. They're trying to evolve

of intelligence.

aliens,

to their level

Going Deeper 37

"What do you know about

woman who

the

received

your semen?" "Barbara,

I

want

don't

to live. I'm ready to die."

She must have known that in hypnosis for

I was getting tired; I'd been more than four hours. She said, "Jim, you're

new world

discovering a

—you must

how you and

learn

other people are being affected by the aliens." I

snapped, "You don't understand!

never be

I'll

like

other

people."

Barbara assured

was

that she

me that she did understand, and I knew

right.

The information

about alien beings was changing life.

Barbara counted

then

said, "Tell

me down

me how your semen was

inventory."

I

raised

my

two hybrids from the same test

to

The

strain;

from the

hand and drew

air.

and

used."

stock. We're

right

glyphic-looking symbols in the designation for our inventory.

of human

to a deep, restful place,

"The woman's from the same

same

was discovering

I

my conception

"That's

aliens

it.

wanted

they used

hiero-

That's the to

mate

my sperm

to

our compatibility. The experiment was as insignificant

them

as a veterinarian inseminating a

cow

to

produce a

better calf." "Is she carrying the fetus

"No.

womb

I

now?"

think the aliens removed the embryo from her

later.

added, "This

I

don't

woman

know what

the aliens did with

has been used as a

more than once." I vowed that I would not allow their

human

quickly realized

engineering

human

incubator

the aliens to use

experiments

me

for

anymore, but

my helplessness and conceded, "I

anything to stop them."

it." I

can't

do

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

38

"Look

at this carefully,"

Barbara

said.

"Do you know this

woman? Have you had any physical contact with her? Have the aliens manipulated you two in any other ways?" recognize the

"I don't

woman, or remember any physiwe were used for another

cal contact with her. But later

phase of the experiment." Barbara asked

how I knew about the

reminded her of the the regression.

nated the

I

alien being

experiments, and

who'd left

said, "After the aliens successfully

woman

with

my

I

my body early in insemi-

sperm, the next phase was to

mate our interdimensional bodies."

"What do you mean?" "They used us

to test the possibility of

The

outside of physical bodies.

tion

human alien

concep-

scientists

brought our interdimensional bodies together to deter-

mine

if

conception could occur in their dimension

—and

the experiment was successful."

"What does

My

that

emotions swelled in

human-like child gate

mother

As ball. felt

mean?"

I

who

is

now

throat.

"We produced

bounced from scene

being cared for by a surro-

to scene,

I felt

like a

"Let's

go back to something is

else.

The

I

known.

my emotional distress, Barbara my subconscious and changed

the underground facility

Ping-Pong

my parental feelings;

a deep sense of loss for a child I'd never

Sensing

a

in the alien dimension."

Thinking of the child aroused

deeper into

Tell

my

guided

me

the subject.

alien voice said that

a peaceful, cooperative venture.

me more about this arrangement."

"Yes!"

I

shouted, with hysterical laughter. "The

cooperate!"

humans

Going Deeper 39 "Are

humans

"Oh,

yes,"

peaceful.

involved in the facility?"

said scornfully. "They're there,

I

They

and

they're

believe that they're involved in a peaceful,

cooperative program; they don't

know

what's really hap-

pening."

know

Barbara wanted to tary personnel in the

"Not where

Then

I

if

there were any

was examined. Only

I

human

mili-

facility.

added, "Well,

I

didn't see

aliens

and

civilians."

any military uniforms.

Everyone was wearing white smocks."

"How would civilians be procured?" "Volunteers,

than lous.

this. I

I

assume.

Those people

I

can't

imagine anything funnier

feel like heroes,

can't stop laughing at

but they're ridicu-

them. They think they're

doing something important. I'm not that stupid.

I

didn't

have a choice about being there; they did." I

wanted

to cry, but continued to laugh, perhaps as a

—

way of denying my fears. "They're silly gooses they get some mind-controlling thoughts and believe that they're the first humans to work cooperatively with alien beings. If

they only knew.

." .

.

"Did our government agree "I

think

so. It's

to this arrangement?"

supposed to be a peaceful, cooperative

venture, but the aliens are in control." I felt

a deep sadness.

"The human volunteers have glow-

ing red implants under their fingernails.

When

they leave

their assigned areas, the implants transmit signals,

they're returned right away. aren't they?"

I

They

really are volunteers,

continued to laugh, as

funniest story. Later,

I

part of the regression.

and

if I

told Barbara that

I

had

just told the

had enjoyed

But while laughing, was I

this

also crying.

40 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

Barbara realized that she allowed guess

me

Please rest now, rest

and

trance,

as

question was,

works

was traumatized by

and cry

until

I

this discussion;

calmed down.

I

was laughing to avoid the pain of the experience.

I

heard Barbara

I

I

to laugh

—but

I

say,

"You ve done a wonderful

and

relax."

me

She guided

out of the

returned to the conscious world

I

"What time assumed

is it?" I

that I'd

job.

my first

couldn't hear the

been out for maybe

fire-

fifteen

or twenty minutes. "It's after

We had

two

in the morning."

started the regression at 9:00 p.m.

I

asked her,

"What have you been doing for nearly five hours?" Barbara smiled. "Regressions are dures.

They

like surgical

proce-

require a lot of time. I've been right here

beside you." "Yes. sliced "I

I

veil

surgery." For sure,

to see.

I

I

had

between the dimensions.

have a lot to learn about alien beings,"

much more

so

had mental

feel like I've

an opening in the

feel that

I

said. "There's

tonight I've simply

glimpsed the mountain peak from a distance. The aliens

seem

to

show us only what they want us

to see,

and

tell

us

only what they want us to hear." "Before you can understand more, you must assimilate the information that

we recorded

tonight. You'll have to

watch the videotape and give yourself time to understand what's happening in your I

life."

promised to study the video, and thanked Barbara

her help.

I

was

filled

with hope, ready to

live again.

for

But

I

aliens had invaded my life; I my relationship with them more deeply.

still

needed to know why the

had

to understand

Barbara's last words were, "As

I

mentioned

ple usually feel quite different after their

earlier,

peo-

first regression."

da/J^ter

When

I

awoke

seemed quiet and

room; a gentle flow of fresh as if they

fall,

deep

sleep,

Then

I

bedroom, the world Mid-morning sunshine filled the

in Barbara's guest

peaceful.

air

were breathing.

and

for a

moment I

caused the curtains to

My mind was didn't

still

rise

and

clouded by

remember going to

bed.

You may

recalled Barbara saying, "Take this blanket.

get cool out there."

my brain

As

finally

came

the session Barbara and

could

we have gone to

As the fog

lifted,

I

I

to

life, I

remembered

had talked

sleep after such a

for

that after

two hours.

How

profound experience?

realized that I'd slept for nearly six hours.

Sleep had been a miraculous healer. Just six hours earlier, I'd

been an emotional wreck. Now, for the

months, ized

I felt

how

peaceful and rested,

lucky

I

was to have Barbara's

two-hour discussion patiently while

I

happy

first

time in

to be alive. help.

after the regression, she

I

real-

During our

had listened

vacillated between feeling enlightened and

feeling victimized.

41

42 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

heard voices, and assumed that Barbara and her husband were already up. I decided to be a thoughtful guest I

and allow them more time together before I made my appearance. Certainly, I had plenty to think about. As I rolled onto

memory

my

flashes

side

of an

early

my

my ear, morning dream caused me to

and placed

hands under

bolt out of bed.

"Was it really a dream?" I wondered. The memories were more vivid than my usual dreams. But I didn't want to believe that aliens had visited Barbara's house that morning. "Did you remove an implant from my head?" I asked, as if

I

expected an answer from them.

was painful.

I

touched

—

my ear

it

noticed fresh blood stains on the pillow, and

I

an image of a pearly object stains a calling card left

filled

by the

my mind's

eye.

Were the

alien visitors?

Imagine the sensation of having a piece of string pulled through your

ear.

The pearly

object in

my mind's

eye was

attached to a fine cord. The aliens pulled the implant

my ear, I thought to myself. When I opened the living room

through

door, Barbara was

arranging her video camera and reviewing the regression tape.

"You did a wonderful job

glanced at

last night,"

she said, as she

my image on the screen. Breakfast was waiting,

and Barbara was anxious

to discuss the regression.

Seeing oneself on television can be startling, but seeing oneself entirely.

on As

television I

under hypnosis

another matter

ate breakfast, Barbara was scanning the tape

for interesting segments. for

is

She was locating discussion topics

I don't remember what I was too distracted by the images flashing by on the

our post-regression interview.

ate; I

television.

Memories of the regression began

my consciousness. I listened in awe as I startling, strange statements.

to flow into

heard myself make

The Day After 43

me

After breakfast, Barbara asked

handmade

chair,

to

in a sturdy

sit

while she tested the lighting and focused

the video camera.

"As

I

said last night," she began, "people are usually in

better condition

when you "I

wondered

were taking a filled

when

if I

lot

was

crazy,

trol

feeling

and those negative thoughts

of energy out of me.

I

felt

weary, and

with disturbing ideas, feelings, and emotions.

trying to figure out whether

were

What were you

they leave.

arrived yesterday?"

real,

of

and

I

my

I

was

encounters with aliens

truly believed that

I

might be losing con-

my mind."

"And how do you

feel this

morning?"

"I'm happy this morning,"

responded cheerfully.

I

now believe that my contacts with I'm not insane! In

fact,

I

alien beings are real.

suspect that

many

"I

So

other people

are having similar experiences."

Barbara smiled. "Do you have more control of your

now that you've

life

gained some understanding of your alien

encounters?"

Memories of the encounters were robbing me of physical and emotional strength. Although I slept only "Oh,

yes.

six hours, ful

I

feel rested this

morning. I'm

much more peace-

than yesterday. The regression restored some of my

control,

and

hopefully,

I'll

self-

heal myself."

Barbara didn't specifically explain the purpose of the post-regression

wished with so

me

many

but

interview,

to understand

my

I

understood that she

alien encounters.

abductees, she

knew

the importance of

reviewing and discussing the regression. the opportunity to discuss

it;

thoughts and emotions before

I

wanted

I left.

Working

I

was

grateful for

to reconcile

my

44 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"During the regression, you experienced a new

and you understand now that you're not

crazy.

reality,

You now see

your contacts with alien beings as a part of your

life

experi-

ences," Barbara summarized. I

nodded.

had allowed

I

had glimpsed another

me

to access a

has lessened, and

me. Also,

I

I

reality.

The

regression

new world. "My fear of the aliens

no longer

feel as if they're trying to kill

have insights into the alien dimension... and

can t explain

how I

I

acquired that information."

"Please, try to tell

me what you mean."

"The hypnotic experience was

new community. You can

like driving

through a

glean general information by

observing the people, the buildings, and the landscaping.

my encounters under hypnosis, I understand that I've experienced an alien dimension they took me there. Hypnosis allowed me to bring those suppressed

After reliving

—

memories

into consciousness. But along with

memories of

my alien contacts, I also have a considerable general knowl-

—and

edge of their reality

was

I

must have acquired

it

while

I

in their dimension."

"That's a very important observation," Barbara said.

"How will it affect you?" "I can't

answer

specifically.

I

can't

implications now. But because of reality,

or dimension,

I

my

understand

all

knowledge of

the

their

may be able to answer general ques-

tions about aliens."

Barbara smiled, and suggested, "Let's go to the beginning of the regression now. Remember,

mountain and asked you

to look for

I

took you to a

numbers behind

it.

What were those numbers again?" I had seen the number one in large, bold print, and also a second number, zero, which was not as obvious. However, during the regression, Barbara had encouraged

me

to

The Day After 45 explore the "zero" instead of the "one." She

now explained

that "zero" represented experiences that occurred before

"What happened when you went

birth.

to the zero?" she

now asked.

my embryo me to

Barbara was referring to seeing

which

cylinder,

"The tube was

I

vertical. It

about two or three inches

was

was

This

just large

tall,

tall,

and

slender

enough

for a

human embryo.

Every detail was important to Barbara; to

elaborate.

than a foot

less

in diameter."

cylinder, filled with a fluid,

tiny

in a glass

called a tube. She asked

know more about

now she wanted

"Do you remember what

the fluid.

color the fluid was?" she pressed. "It

was transparent, but had

She asked

me to

tell

a slight gold coloration."

her about being in the tube.

remember being in the tube," I offered. My primary memories of this stage were thoughts about the "I can't

beings

who were

glass cylinder,

I

creating me. "As

I

glimpsed myself in the

was alarmed, because the

ing whether to destroy the

embryo or

aliens

to give

were decid-

it

more time

to develop."

Barbara was especially interested in the alien

who

cared for the embryo. "You spoke of the scientists as

caring beings.

Can you

explain this?"

my frightening experiences with aliens,

After

been surprised by meant, but

I

this

comment.

who

be genuinely concerned about

watched

I

me vigilantly;

once,

I

felt

embryo

assumed some

to develop."

also it

an emotional

cared for

me seemed

my development. They

even saw them share their

energies with the embryo, through their eyes. that they

had

I

wasn't sure what

was convinced that they

attachment. "The two scientists to

scientists

I

believe

risk in allowing a dubious

— 46 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"Most abductees do not describe

alien abductors as car-

ing beings," Barbara said, cautiously. "Well, perhaps they were concerned about the success of their experiment, rather

"You saw what you life.

How

than

my individual embryo."

now think was

the creation of your

does this concept differ from your previous con-

cepts?"

"Before

this, I

reincarnation, lifetimes

a

on

had studied metaphysics.

and assumed

Earth.

I

that

believed that

Supreme Being. Now,

I'll

my soul

I

had

believed in lived

humans were

many

created by

have to reevaluate

all

those

My metaphysical studies had always been haunted by the question, 'Where and when was my soul, or spirit, created?' Now would say that I was manufactured." beliefs.

I

As

I

said this, a sense of aloneness swept through me.

thought of my lifelong inability to

feel close to

and the three human corpses came had been created from the disturbing.

same

Barbara suggested that

wish

I'd

my family

mind. The idea that

I

of other people was deeply

wondered whether people who

I

transplants have the

"I

cells

to

I

receive organ

eerie feelings of discomfort. I

visualize the corpses again.

observed them more closely under hypnosis,"

said. "My images of the woman are the most vivid. She may have been in her seventies. The two men were middleI

aged or

older."

"Can you

tell

me anything else?"

"In addition to their biological their ethereal essences, too." As

own words, I

I

cells,

the aliens harvested

strained to understand

added, "I wonder what

my

else is in the recipe for

a human-alien hybrid."

"Look corpses?"

again.

What

did the aliens extract from the

The Day After 47 only saw the donors' heads

"I

—and

assumed

I

that

something was extracted from their brains. During the regression,

I

rubbed

my brow here because I felt that some-

thing was being removed from their brains.

could have been

cells, fluids,

Changing the

I

suppose that

or alien-implanted objects."

"What do you

subject, Barbara asked,

think caused the pain in your head?"

when

"I'm not sure. The pain occurred

some of your

questions. At the time,

I

I

tried to

assumed

answer

that these

questions involved topics that the aliens didn't want

me to

discuss."

"What

are your thoughts about that this

morning?"

"They could have been blocking information have been painful for

me

reveal certain things." As

would

—or they may not be ready

answered,

I

that

"The pain occurred because the

to

my internal voice said,

aliens did not

want you

to

reveal specific details yet."

Barbara mentioned the link

I

had reported between the

pain and the implantation of alien devices in

"Do

asked,

Remember,

implant such devices in people?

aliens really I

my head. She

asked you to use x-ray vision to learn more

about them."

When that

I

she said

this,

I

suddenly remembered something

hadn't told her during the regression, I'm not sure

why. Perhaps the aliens didn't want details yet.

"While

I

was a

fetus,

me

to divulge certain

something probed

my

mother's womb." I first wondered whether this was a mem-

ory of

about

my

it, I

"While

head

parents having intercourse, but as

realized that I

was

—imagine the

thing was

it

a fetus,

was something I

was

hit

I

thought

else.

on the

force of a stapler or a

side of the

BB

gun. Some-

implanted on the side of my head, and I

enced that kind of impact."

my

experi-

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

48

"When

I

asked you about this before, you saw a BB-

sized object," Barbara

reminded me.

recalled a pearly object,

I

and more oval than

spherical.

was made of an organic substance, not metal." It looked like a baroque pearl, strung on a strand of fine silk. "It was "It

a living organism, with intelligence, or it

my

moved around in

device

programmed to

body.

It

programming; and

was a communications

interact with the alien

communica-

tion center."

"Do you remember anything

else

about the alien

implants?"

"They may contain programming physical, intellectual,

may have changed

for various stages of

and emotional maturation. The

the

programming

aliens

my body

devices in

several times."

Barbara asked whether eases or health

bering

all

infancy.

my

I

had suffered any serious

problems in infancy. parents'

humorous

According to them,

I

was

I

dis-

had to laugh, remem-

stories

about

my

allergic to every

sickly

form of

nourishment. As a last resort, a wise old doctor prescribed fresh goat's milk,

which saved

my life. For several months,

they had to take a goat with them everywhere they traveled.

car

Although the goat

and pulled down

alive.

Was

adapt to

this

ate

their

through the cloth top of their

camping

tent,

an example of a hybrid

it

also kept

me

infant's struggle to

human life?

Barbara chuckled

at the

goat stories and asked, "Did any

other unusual events occur during your infancy?"

me of my childhood "close encounters" reptiles. "My parents have a story of the time they found a large coachwhip snake coiled around me in my crib and my mother still has the dried-out rattles of the This reminded

with

—

rattlesnake that

I

befriended while a toddler."

The Day After 49

me to tell her more about the rattlesnake. "My mother was at the kitchen window, watching me Barbara asked

play in the backyard. She thought

I

was playing with a

thick rope, until she saw the "rope" begin to

saw that

was holding

I

a rattlesnake, just

Then

coil.

below

its

head.

it

to the

She rushed over, grabbed the snake and carried

chopping block by the woodpile, where she chopped

head off with a hatchet. She

removed the

she

its

and has

rattles

kept them in a jewelry box for nearly forty-five years. .nine .

and a button!"

rattles

Barbara asked

if I

had an

affinity for reptiles.

"I'm fascinated by snakes,"

I

said, as she

repulsion. "I like to look at them, although

touch them. But After

all, I

I

wonder

this point,

these questions,

I

didn't

and

I

don't care to

they aren't attracted to me.

didn't go looking for the

our house and crawled into At

if

twitched with

coachwhip

—

it

got into

my crib."

know why Barbara was

asking

certainly didn't understand the

I

implications of my responses.

Barbara

now moved on

about the rape before "I often It

last

to another topic.

"Did you know

night?"

had painful memories about

it

during

was a haunting and depressing experience.

anyone to know about

I

my youth.

didn't

want

my encounter with her, because I felt

like a sexual failure."

"Why did you need

to

keep

"The experience was very thought of it as that

it

was

it

a secret?"

hurtful, but

'rape' until last night.

I

I

may

guess

I

not have

told myself

between a six-year-old curious about male anatomy.

just sexual exploration

boy and an adolescent

girl

When I was six, 'rape' was not in my vocabulary." "Last night, however, "Yes!

I felt

raped."

you did consider

it

to be a rape?"

— 50 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"When you

learned that Judy wasn't totally responsible

how did you feel?" now believe that alien beings directed her to was just a pawn in their experiments; they

for her actions,

"Shocked. rape me. She

I

probably gave her telepathic commands. The rape was a test.

They were checking to

see if I

accelerated sexual schedule. This

was progressing on

is

very disturbing."

Barbara asked, "Can you understand that child incest

by

and rape

—sexual

their

child abuse

—

many cases of may be set up

aliens?"

This rang true. "Yes. Today,

me child abuse. common term."

pened to wasn't a

we would

But forty or

call

fifty

what hap-

years ago, that

"Considering the current epidemic of child abuse, your case

may provide new clues. According

one out of three

girls

and one out of

to recent statistics,

five

boys have been

molested." "Yes

—

I

can see

how

child molestation

may be

corre-

human- engineering experiments. After driving my new car for the recommended miles I take it in for a checkup and servicing. Likewise, when aliens create a new human, they have to check it out periodically, to lated with the aliens'

determine

if it is

maturing on schedule.

decide whether to scrap the project or

and

I

If not,

they have to

make adjustments

barely escaped being scrapped!"

"During the regression, you reported

feeling dirty after-

ward. In addition, you were afraid of Judy, her mother,

your parents, and the

aliens.

Your

fear

and

deep sense of trauma. Can you forgive Judy discomfort you've endured?"

guilt led to a

now for all the

The Day After Yes, I

I

could forgive her for

could see

wonder

if

now

the pain I'd

felt

—because

had been manipulated,

too. "I

the emotional side effects were part of the over-

program

all

that she

all

51

for

my

life.

If

me

they had developed

for

may have been a way to me from becoming sexually involved with women

hybrid breeding purposes, this prevent

other than those they selected."

This intrigued Barbara. "Absolutely!

method of check and

their

Maybe

was

this

balance."

Barbara's enthusiasm was contagious. As the questions

and answers flowed, new theories emerged. She was

tireless

about the alien-abduction

in her search for information

puzzle. "According to your understanding, the alien scientists tell

gave your

embryo an

'intuitionist'

me more about their human

I

programs?"

told her again that alien scientists have developed an

array of human programs, or

use to create

human

life

a public official, educator,

one

exemplifies replied

—but

question.

I

and psychic counselor. "My

category

body. "Can

tell

"You were

on

to serve

of

alien

life

programming,"

I

we

discuss

the alien

I

alien being

what happened

who

at

the

asked.

who

left

your body?"

need to understand what happened."

"Please

lying

which they

was having trouble focusing on Barbara's

"Do you mean I

orientations,

was programmed

has been devoted to service, as

beginning of the regression?"

"Yes.

I

had suddenly remembered the

my

left

I

life

hybrids.

and most of my

others;

had

program. Can you

my

me your perceptions." still giving me relaxation

suggestions;

I

was

back, relaxed, but not yet fully hypnotized.

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

52

Then an alien being sprang up, removing itself from my body like a layer from an onion. Until that moment, it never occurred to body."

hesitated

I

me

that an alien

and inhaled

cations of having an alien in

might be

deeply.

"What

living in

my

are the impli-

my body?"

"That's a very important question. If an alien being living in

your body, are you

is

your

totally responsible for

thoughts and actions?" "Its

influence could have been positive or negative. Since

my life

most of

has been positive and productive,

have been helpful; but

it

it

may

could have had negative influ-

ences, too."

knew from

I

the wrenching feeling in

my

were discussing something very significant. not interpreting this correctly!" But

I

—assuming

I

said, "I

alities

that

it

had invaded

"We're

said,

and

I felt

victim-

my body.

wonder about people who have multiple person-

or schizophrenia. Could they be hosting aliens?

to shake

we

could only perceive

the alien as an external being or force, ized

I

gut that

I'd like

some of them and see what leaves their bodies!"

Barbara

moved on to

"Remember when

the next topic.

I

asked you what the aliens were going to do with your

semen? You said that you were interdimensionally mated with a

human woman. Have you

ever thought about any-

thing like this before now?" "I

never thought about contributing. ..."

Barbara completed

my

sentence. "You never thought

you would be a sperm donor, did you?" "No.

I

never thought of it."

"Yet the information sion.

"I don't

now

came out

clearly

during the regres-

Why was this revealed to you?" know.

I

tried to avoid the topic, but

that alien scientists used

me

to create

I

believe

life.

They

"

The Day After 53

my semen

extracted

But the two of us I

don't

ical I

ing.

and used

it

to impregnate a

woman.

may not have been the only contributors.

know if they altered

the embryo, or

if

other biolog-

or etheric ingredients were combined with

it.

wandered into memories of the interdimensional mat-

The

took

aliens

my interdimensional body to a strange

bedroom, and surrounded body.

A man

was

He

large bed. asleep, too,

I

me as I floated over her sleeping

asleep, snoring,

on the other

move. Although the

didn't

side of the

woman was

could see her alien body floating above her

human body. "Barbara, how could the union

of two interdimensional

bodies result in the creation of

life?"

answer, however,

I

Before she could

reminded myself that "human

logic

does not prevail in such matters."

Barbara replied, intelligence or their

In the

my mind's eye, I was standing on the bed, straddling My interdimensional senses were alert; could I

and

sensually.

preparing I

either the aliens'

human-engineering technology."

woman.

see, hear,

me

comprehend

"I can't

feel. I

Alien hands began to touch me, stroking

tried to resist, because

I

knew

they were

me to penetrate her.

heard a voice

say, "She's

ready to receive you now."

Although the thought of violating a strange woman's body disturbed

toward

my

me

her.

greatly,

As

I

couldn't stop myself from drifting

my body approached

anxiety increased, but

bodies became entwined, "Jim, I

had

I

I

was helpless

to resist.

As our

lost consciousness.

what do you know about drifted away,

hers in slow motion,

this?

What's going on?"

and hadn't heard Barbara ask about a

new topic. "Can you be more

specific?"

"The underground laboratory

in Kansas."

54 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

me

Her question pulled attitude

was

human

faces.

smocks.

clinical.

Everyone was dressed in white, knee-length

may be

It

back into the interview. "The

My first memories were of alien and

a

sperm-bank operation.

the examination table didn't allow

was

"I

perceived I

produced

much.

Also,

I

lighting blinded

tried to look up."

I

"Why was the oratory.

My view from

see

and the bright overhead

restrained,

me whenever

me to

it

think

developed?"

facility

human-engineering

as a high-tech

many kinds

lab-

of human-alien hybrids are

there." Piercing pains shot

"I'm not under hypnosis now,

am

my

through

head.

I?"

"Are you getting interference?" "Penetrating pains in regression... I

my

head, just like

during

felt

I

cant concentrate. What were we talking

about?"

"The white smocks. Did you

see insignias or

emblems

on them?" "No, but somewhere in the flag." I

facility

I

saw an American

started to laugh. "Do you know of a military base in

Southeast Kansas?"

Barbara said she was aware of a large military base in Kansas. "But

it

may be

farther north than the area

you

described." I

was now sure that a military operation was located

near the subterranean

my head

as

I

facility.

Stabbing pains again struck

struggled to say, "The civilians think they're

learning about

human

diseases."

I

grasped

both hands and tried to confine the pain. talking for several minutes,

but

I

just can't talk

affect

I

head with

had

to stop

and finally said, "I'm trying,

about the underground

"How does the pain

my

you?"

facility."

The Day After 55 I

responded slowly and

ence,

and

the alien

I

facility.

tell you much more about The humans think they're in a disease- con-

—but the

trol center

which

deliberately. "It creates interfer-

may not be allowed to

alien scientists

they're not sharing with the

have other objectives,

humans."

Barbara asked about the "other" objectives, and

"Human

engineering

the primary

is

objective.

The

who

are creating various kinds of hybrid beings,

I

said,

aliens

are part

and part human." The pain returned again. After recovering my ability to speak, I said, "I cant focus on this topic. We shouldn't talk alien

about the underground

facility."

But Barbara responded, are conducting

"I

demand

to

know why

human-engineering research!

harvesting sperm from thousands of people?

aliens

Why are they

What

are they

doing with the embryos?"

"Do you you

really

really

want

to

me

want

to

answer your question?

Do

know what they do with the embryos?" I

asked, close to tears.

You say it, Jim. I already know." I began to cry. Words formed, but they remained stuck in my vocal cords. I couldn't say them. "You never knew about "Yes!

this, I

did you?" Barbara asked, wiping a tear from her cheek.

shook

my head. I couldn't answer her. I just knew that

some human embryos might be used as nourishment for aliens. I wondered where and when I had acquired this idea. Finally I said, "I must have seen or heard something in the

underground

"It is

about

this."

Jim? I'm sorry that you had to Before our session last night, did you ever think

happening,

face this.

facility isn't

that alien beings might

it,

consume human

flesh?"

"No, and I'm angry with myself for being so damned stupid."

56 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

Barbara assured surgery, you don't scalpel.

You cant

me

that

feel

shouldn't feel stupid. "In

I

the insertion of the surgeon's

feel

your appendix being removed from

your body, because you

are anesthetized

—and during the

encounters the aliens also anesthetized you. Until

last

you didn't know much of what has happened

night,

in

Don t blame yourself for not knowing." your "But I may have fed them." life.

"What?"

"My sperm may have been used to produce food for them. I don't know how to deal with this." I cried for several minutes.

"Will the atrocities ever end?" again.

I

asked, trying to speak

My perception of life was bleak. "Why do we have to Why cant humans and aliens share this

live like this?

planet peacefully?"

"Of course we could. But then we wouldn't produce babies for their nourishment." "You're right. the aliens' needs; for

Humans would it

never willingly submit to

would be incompatible with our

respect

human life."

Neither of us wanted to speak about this topic; silently, as

tion,"

I

our

tears dried

finally said.

"The

on our

aliens

learn to coexist with us."

cheeks. "Life

is

we

sat

evolu-

should be able to adapt and

Then

I

remembered

my

earlier

statement about the Earth as an experimental farm.

Barbara asked, "Jim, this?

Why

why were you

allowed to see

all

did the aliens permit you to remember and

divulge this information?

Why?"

had no plausible explanation. Although sad and disturbed, I also felt empathy for them. I wanted to find a way to justify their behavior. "Was their homeland destroyed? Are they doing what's necessary for "I

don't

know."

I

The Day After 57 their survival?"

our planet

how to

I

searched

my mind for understanding. "Is

Did the

at risk?

aliens

come

here to

show us

save our planet?"

The interview had been helpful, but tiring. I felt overburdened, and confessed, "Barbara, I don't know whether these

new thoughts

are

my own,

or whether they're from

the alien voice."

me back by saying, "You've done a wonderful again." We were less than four feet apart, but her reas-

She pulled job

—

suring voice could have been emanating from a distant

mountain peak.

I

was submerged

unfathomable

in

thoughts of alien intruders. I

heard her

say,

person produces

"You know,

pieces

form

develop

doesn't matter

intelligent

patterns;

one

but knowledge

—

it

and educated people, the

and the patterns can be used

new knowledge. I would like

itive patterns;

if just

kind of information. But when

this

comes from so many

it

to discover

to

more pos-

positive or negative

—

is

our

only source of power."

As an afterthought, she added, "The

aliens

seem

to be

orchestrating your awakening." "Yes. They're revealing

sion

and

their

information about their dimen-

agenda to me. Sometimes

I

wonder

if

they're

simply trying to perpetuate their species; other times, I think they're just trying to understand human life. I'm caught between these two

possibilities,

and

I

don't under-

stand why. Oddly, I'm never truly angry with them."

"They must have reasons

for allowing

much about them." "You may be right. For one Trust

is

you

thing, they

the foundation of effective

to learn so

may

trust

me.

communication — and

may be grooming me for something that we don't know about yet." I wasn't sure I liked what I had just said, they

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

58

and quickly countered with: "Or, maybe I'm simply an alien -abduction survivor."

"Are you here to build bridges between us?" Barbara

why you re being awakened?" shrugged. "I don't know yet."

asked. "Is this I

We could have gone on for hours, but the morning had The weekend was ending

already faded into afternoon.

much

too quickly;

one thing,

I felt

she believed in

I

wasn't ready to say goodbye yet. For

safe in Barbara's

home

for another,

my alien- abduction experiences.

The post-regression interview was

My

—and

sense of being victimized

had a new perspective on

helpful in

became

my

less intense,

experiences.

whether there was another part of

many ways.

me

I

and

I

wondered

residing in

some

me

other dimension, and whether the conscious part of

ever visits that dimension. But these thoughts were ahead

of schedule.

As we exchanged our goodbye hugs, beginning to think that part of another dimension. That's encounters with aliens. harsh reality of the

.

.1

why

me

I

is

said, "Barbara,

more

at

I'm so disturbed after

just don't

human world."

want

I'm

home

in

my

to return to the

WW Will

I

through

ever be able to convince people that an alien walked

my bedroom door?"

I

wondered aloud,

as

I

turned

at

the end of Barbara's street and headed toward the highway.

The sound of

my

voice

felt foolish,

but talking to myself

my mind. My mind stop my consciousness

calmed the turbulence in

and

gear,

I

couldn't

was

in high

from being

flooded with thoughts and images of alien encounters. The three-hour drive passed in a blur. Later,

stopped I

at

I

would wonder

at

had

red lights and obeyed the highway laws.

parked the car in the shade of a large maple

gazed

if

my house, the

tree

and

many disturbing encounmuch more about aliens than

scene of so

ters. I was exhausted. I knew so when I left two days ago and I must have replayed it all in my mind on the drive home. I wondered what my life would be like now. Would it be different?

—

I

sat in the car for a while, staring at the

bolized

all

my feelings

house that sym-

of insecurity and victimization. "The

said aloud, trying to muster

aliens are real!"

I

was determined

to survive,

and reclaim

59

my courage.

I

my life. Finally, I took

60 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

a

deep breath, got out of the car and unlocked the front

door.

I

reminded myself that "we

fear

what we don't under-

With Barbaras help, I was learning to understand the aliens; perhaps I would learn that my contacts with them weren't totally negative. Then the door closed behind stand."

me, and

I

reentered

my life.

The following months were particularly difficult. Less than a week after I returned, my best friend died unexpectedly.

The day before he

a large ball of light

hospital said.

had

room the previous

"Did anyone

visited his

released

night. "It

He

else see it?"

room

from the

me and his doctor that

died, he told

had hovered outside the window of his

several times.

was an

also told

alien craft,"

me

As he was waiting

to

hospital, his heart suddenly failed.

confidence crashed;

I

he

that aliens

be

My

expected to be next.

Rather than building

my strength, I turned inward and

became very insular. The

aliens

had

me to themselves. Bar-

on the telephone once or twice a week, and I made frequent trips to see her. But physical and emotional fatigue was consuming the joy of my life. Another friend died exactly six months after my first

bara and

I

talked

with Barbara. His mysterious death

visit

been related to alien that a large craft

months

earlier.

home many

visitations.

had landed

may

also have

His wife confided in

in front of their

me

house a few

She was sure that aliens had entered their

times

—and she had had abduction

experi-

ences similar to mine. I

couldn't understand

why two

of

my best friends had

been taken so abruptly. Both were healthy, happy young

men. Their deaths plunged sion.

aliens

Night

me deep into

after sleepless night,

by planning

my own

I

fear

and depres-

escaped thoughts of

suicide. In retrospect,

my

Writing

solitude simply assured the aliens that

I

It

All

Down

would be

61

readily

available for their visits.

During the second week of February 1993, ted to the hospital, where for nearly a week.

No

I

lay in a feverish,

one expected

1

was admit-

comatose

state

me to live.

Barbara, Jane, and other friends visited me, and prayed

my survival. The doctors speculated that the fever had damaged my brain, but Jane's psychic intuitions didn't for

agree. "He'll live fact,

vital again,"

she assured Barbara. In

she predicted that afterward

larger

and psychically

leaving

and

and be

stronger.

said, "Jim's

As Jane and Barbara were

his body."

physicians conducted several medical

sive diagnosis

chart,

physically

been taken down by the aliens for repro-

ing a spinal tap, but

sided,

would be

my room one morning, Jane touched Barbara's arm

gramming. They're restructuring

The

I

of

none of their

my

illness.

tests

When

tests,

includ-

produced a conclu-

the fever finally sub-

my family physician wrote "viremia" on my medical and said to my mother, "Jim must've had some

unusual influenza virus." I

didn't

tell

the doctors or

my

family about the alien

who had entered my bedroom just before I got sick. They projected a beam of light into my body, just below

beings

the navel, and the feverish

immediately afterward. ness until they gie,

I'm very

left.

I

Then

sick." After

and her husband rushed

symptoms had manifested

struggled to maintain consciousI

called a neighbor, saying,

"Mag-

seeing me, she called the doctor,

me

to the

emergency room.

My

temperature was 106.

When I regained consciousness, one of the nurses was at my side. I was surprised to still be alive and in my body. I began to

My

long sleep ended as abruptly as

it

began.

62 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

cry, telling

made me I

her that

did not want to

I

and surrounded

sick,

"Alien beings

live.

my bed while I was asleep,"

sobbed.

She squeezed

my hand

supportively,

and

similar experience a few years ago. I'm glad

when

you returned.

The happy

I

was with you

I

and Jane gave me

sight of Barbara

Barbara couldn't wait to

tell

me

knew that I was going

strength.

Jane's predictions.

going to write a book." Although I

a

believe you."

responded, "You're right. Not only will

clouded,

had

said, "I

survive

I

my mind

was

still

my

book about

to write a

I

—I'm

encounters with aliens.

A crippling snowstorm devastated the area, and the hoshad

pital

result,

My

some

patients were discharged early, including me.

friends Janet

their

emergency generator power. As a

to switch to

and Peter offered

four-wheel-drive

beneath deep snow; the

vehicle. streets

practically disappeared.

my

thought,

I

my

friends,

neighbors' guest

was too weak to care

my

being alone in

my

Physically,

my

how to

question or

for myself,

and

I

for nearly a

couldn't face

I

had

to

become

recovery only took two weeks, but

fake

much

longer.

When

I

my

returned to

my office was unfamiliar. I quickly my way through conversations, and I

documents and

make

—and

my entire world.

work, everything in

to re-read

of

cavernous old house. Like family and

mental recovery took learned

bedroom

house seemed unfamiliar.

reacquainted with

his

How fitting! Most

my own hometown.

couldn't even recognize

stayed in

week.

had

and many of the houses had

conscious memories had vanished in the fever

now I I

I

in

was hidden

city

As Peter cautiously guided

my house,

vehicle toward

me home

to take

The

a decision.

files

before

I

could answer a

Only Barbara knew about

my

Writing

memory

loss.

Everyone

just acting strange

because of my

and

returned

it

had

When

weeks

into spirit

that he

was

months, and

and buy larger shoes prediction was definitely

my

I

psychic

abilities.

My

was released from the hospi-

he died, he was hospitalized in Arkansas, and

was traveling

moments

after

I

63

to go out

She was also right about

father died a few

Down

illness.

for nearly nine

clothing. This part of Jane's

true.

tal.

I

All

probably thought that

else

My memory didn't return by the time

It

in Texas.

life,

I

had just

moment that he crossed

At the exact

heard him

later the

"That was easy!"

say,

phone rang

—

died. This verified

I

was

it

my

Just

sister saying

my ability to communi-

cate with the other side.

After

my

recovery, Barbara

—

I

didn't

want

my

Barbara met

formed an

I

to relive

my alien

friend Kyle in the

alliance,

book

discussed

months. She encouraged, and

for several

nated

and

procrasti-

I

encounters.

summer

ideas

When

of 1993, they

and he began the tedious process of

transcribing the regression videos and telephone tapes.

"Barbara and

I

will help,

and the three of us can produce a

book!" he assured me.

The

aliens

seemed anxious

for

me

to write about

interdimensional experiences. For nearly a year after first

abduction,

I

was haunted by

my memories of the tele-

pathic voice and the trip to the subterranean

sometimes

felt like

facility. I

a radio tuned a distant station.

the aliens, preparing

me

my my

Were

my

experiences

my life

from a new

to write about

with them? I

began to see

wondered about their motives for prodding accept their existence and seek to understand their

perspective.

me

to

link with ful.

their intrusions into

I

humans. Kyle and Barbara continued

to be help-

During one of our conversations about the book, Kyle

64 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

said,

"Your story

will

who

be helpful to people

gling to understand their

own

are strug-

alien abductions."

For the first year and a half, I was hesitant to discuss my alien encounters. As I studied Kyle's growing mound of tape transcripts, however, I began to think that the aliens

—or even programmed—me

might have selected

a larger audience of their existence.

I

spent

to inform

many

solitary

hours wondering how to tell my story.

During the

opened

my

hypnotic regression, Barbara had

first

subconscious, and gradually,

information had worked

Thoughts about

my role as

way

its

a

more

into

my

repressed

awareness.

communicator worked

my fear and confusion. Eventually, I dedicated

way through

myself to the dissolution of the

veil

between humans and

nearly three years of thinking about aliens,

aliens. After

with the help of Kyle and Barbara, a book about odyssey began to form in In

their

December

large binder.

1994,

When

it

1

my mind.

organized

was done,

cold winter evening and

my alien

I

my transcripts

all

sat

by the

thumbed through

fireplace it. I

in a

one

realized

how overwhelming the material was. I couldn't just write that "Humans are sharing Earth with alien beings of superior intelligence and technology." write the story

from beginning

reminded myself that writing lectual process

—the

I

to end, but

is

would have to how to do it? I

the final step in the intel-

last step, after collecting, processing,

and analyzing information. However,

human logic to analyze

that?"

hend

I

I

soon found that

this advice

—which doesn't apply

to aliens.

is

based on

When I tried

my experiences, asking "Why or how did they do

found

it

to

be a waste of time.

their motives or

methods.

I

Human

couldn't compre-

thought

is

so far

Writing

removed from

alien intelligence that

logic to analyze

transform

It

All

Down

we simply

can't use

our encounters with them. Before

my ideas

into words,

I

had

65

to overhaul

I

could

my way

of thinking.

The

traditional research

model

that

had learned

I

in

graduate school also turned out to be inadequate for the task.

I

could define the problem, collect descriptive infor-

mation, analyze

it,

and develop

interesting theories. But

I

couldn't produce any empirical data or evidence to support

my claims. Seeking proof of the existence of alien beings, put off writing the book for another

book about

aliens wouldn't have

year.

much

I

assumed

I

that a

credibility unless

it

could provide concrete evidence of their existence. Apparently, aliens can transcend time, transform matter,

and manipulate human thought and behavior. They can also create distracting illusions to satisfy the needs of our

simple

human

minds. As

far as

I

know, they have never

verifiable evidence of their visits to

left

our dimension, or of

human

visits to their

futility

of waiting for verifiable evidence, and decided to

write about I

dimension. Eventually

I

my experiences anyway.

had survived hundreds of

thousands of

memory

alien contacts,

greatest challenge

me

into

my

My

notes. Also, Bar-

bara had carefully researched and documented available to guide

and had

fragments to piece together.

binder was bulging with transcripts and

was

realized the

my life, and

subconscious. So the

was deciding what

to leave out.

I

finally

started writing in January 1995.

Barbara encouraged assured

me

that

my

me

to have faith in myself,

and

information would be valuable to

other people. She encouraged

me to

accept that

some peo-

ple wouldn't believe or understand me. "Jim, your accounts

66 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

of interdimensional journeys will become others report similar experiences, tions

you ve

more

relevant as

and ask the same ques-

asked."

Beginning the book initiated a long process of organiz-

my thoughts. I became increasingly convinced that aliens had prepared me and others to bring ing and clarifying

—

our respective worlds closer together.

—

As

I

commented

to

Barbara in one of our sessions, "Our questions about aliens will eventually

My that

I

open our minds

to other dimensions."

book evolved during the four years write. First I had wanted to warn others

ideas for the

waited to

about the atrocities of alien abductions. But as

my victim consciousness, I unsuccessful mately,

I

—quest

started a

overcame

positive

—

albeit

to prove the existence of aliens. Ulti-

realized that

we must

each alien encounter. Therefore,

encourage

more

I

learn

what we can from

my purpose

is

simply to

human questioning about aliens, and their rela-

tionship with us.

My understanding of alien beings is still evolving. Each new encounter

initiates

chapters present

about the

my

aliens, as

I

more

questions.

thoughts, theories,

perceive

them

The remaining and experiences

currently.

Part Two

mm When MY

alien abductors first said,

think you are, and you must accept

what else

it

meant.

could

The

I

could only relate

I

be?"

"You are not who you

this,"

it

to

I

didn't understand

my human

life.

"Who

asked naively.

I

idea that aliens might be producing human-alien

hybrids never occurred to hypnosis, and

I

saw

me

until Barbara

guided

me

into

my embryo in a glass cylinder. As I my life by alien scientists, I under-

observed the creation of

stood that thousands of years of alien experimentation had

culminated in extensive

human

hybridization programs,

ranging from intellectual creativity to maniacal behaviors.

my embryo in the glass cylinder, the proverbial light bulb flashed in my mind. I was told that an extraterAs

I

recognized

restrial race

period.

had colonized

this planet

The interdimensional

during

alien beings

came

its

pristine

to harvest

employ its primitive human population, and harness its energies. The intelligent beings who descended to Earth used early humans as laborers and energy Earth's natural resources,

sources. Just as

human

scientists

69

have developed animals for

70 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

nourishment, labor, and entertainment purposes, alien entists

have improved

humans

for the

same reasons

sci-

—and

possibly others.

As

I

at the startling

looked

tant voice discussed

my

image of my embryo, a

creation. "Your mother,

dis-

and her

mother, and her mother were created this way," the voice

"Human hybrids have been

explained.

used successively to

produce more advanced hybrid beings." alien scientists

human "Did in

I

understood that

have used hybrids to gradually increase

intelligence. I

receive special benefits because

I

was incubated

my mother's hybrid womb?" "You are an improved variation of her After the voice spoke to me,

I

strain."

my broth-

thought about

ers and sisters. I wondered if two of my sisters and my brothers might also be human hybrids.

Occasionally,

will recognize

I

another person, which causes

one of

an indefinable essence in

me to wonder if they are also

a hybrid. This inexplicable sense of recognition

is

beyond

my feelings, psychic intuitions, or knowledge of their life; it is

not a response to their physical appearance or personal

characteristics. It

was a few days

a bus, that athletic

I first

men

after the

1992 election, as

recognized a fellow

human

I

was riding

hybrid. Five

were jogging toward the slow, ambling bus.

One man was

in the center, while the other four

protective square

around him. The

man

formed

a

in the center

made riveting eye contact with me. I recoghandsome face. He had just been elected to a

looked up and nized his

high government position. For an instant our eyes connected, and another world. Inwardly,

one of them. You

re

a

I

I

glimpsed

exclaimed, J recognize you! You re

human

hybrid.

The

fleeting

encounter

Human Hybrids was over

in three or four seconds but

found learning experience. As the joggers pass,

ming human

I

had

I

had been

it

a pro-

my seat to watch

turned in

to ask myself,

71

Are the

aliens program-

hybrids to assume control of the world?

IVe had several similar encounters with strangers, in

which

and

have a deep inner sense of recognition of someone,

I

my mind transcends the boundaries of our world.

If

I'm typical, most hybrids don't have any conscious

knowledge of their interdimensional creation or

gramming,

at least until they're

In addition to their general

hypnotized, as

life

I

alien pro-

was.

orientation, each

human

hybrid also receives more specialized programming. The aliens explained

me

to

view

my

my service orientation to creation

me, and allowed

from the biological and

components of the three

corpses.

I

ethereal

realized that these

donors had contributed specialized ingredients for I

don't

know what

that the I

the two

contributed, but I'm sure

woman supplied enhanced psychic sensitivity.

don't have a clear image of her, other than gray hair.

But we are

still

cated with

me

share the

mentally connected, and she has communitelepathically.

received

Her

same mind, although

before your creation."

I

men

my life.

I

first

message was: "We

my human body

interpreted this to

expired

mean

that

I

my psychic abilities from her.

used to think that everyone has latent psychic

that they can learn to develop. But

now

I

abilities

think that only

some hybrids are psychic. I also wonder if some psychics have alien programming devices implanted in their physical or interdimensional bodies. I

assume that alien

scientists

have improved their

engineering technologies over the past forty or

human

fifty years,

new human hybrids may be far more advanced than my contemporaries

just as

technology has advanced.

If so, their

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

72

and

I.

me feel old

This idea makes

—

an antique model

like

of a hybrid. Alien scientists seem able to determine teristics

and

ity,

activate

—including our

all

personality, intelligence, creativ-

physical features. In addition, they

our programming

at a specific

have developed a charismatic

programmed

this

seem

able to

time and to propel

us into predetermined events. For example, scientists

our charac-

what

if alien

human hybrid and

person to become the president of the

United States in 2008?

Human other

by

hybrids are

programmed

to interface with

human hybrids at the time and place predetermined when human-hybrid embryos

alien scientists. In fact,

are created

and programmed,

relationships

ships

all

their interactions

and

may also be planned. Our romantic relationassociations, for example, may be

and professional

programmed

in

our embryos. Alien

locate hybrids in

scientists strategically

communities around the globe

—and

some communities or nations may be occupied by more hybrids. I

believe that aliens

must examine

cally to evaluate their progress,

aliens are escalating,

sion

more

their hybrids periodi-

and that human contacts with

because aliens are entering our dimen-

frequently to monitor us.

They can

also use

our

implant devices to adjust our life-orientation programming.

During one of

my visits

with Barbara, she asked

watch the video of a delightful nine years old.

little girl,

me

to

about eight or

A friend of the girl's family had asked Bar-

bara to investigate a report of a mass alien abduction. The girl's

clear

conscious memories of the encounter were very

—she calmly explained

to Barbara

how

alien beings

had taken her and many of her neighbors onto an spaceship.

alien

Human Hybrids

73

According to the information that Barbara collected

from the invaded

and her neighbors,

girl

many homes

took people of

all

a troop of alien beings

neighborhood

in the

and

at night

ages to a central location, which they

perceived as a spaceship. Barbara was particularly interested in the case because

many members

of the neighbor-

hood had conscious memories of being taken onto the alien spacecraft. In addition, she

calm explanation of the Southern accent, she that night.

From time entire

my

never seen alien beings until

never thought about being on a spaceship

I

until the aliens arrived at

ask for

girPs

of the abduction. In a heavy

details

said, "I'd

was impressed by the

to time,

my house and took me to theirs."

Barbara would stop the video and

reaction to the

girl's story.

neighborhood be invaded by

"Why would an and why

alien beings,

would groups of people be taken aboard

a spaceship?" she

wondered. I I

responded, "After listening to the

little girl's

observations,

think the abductees were being reminded of their interdi-

mensional origins.

didn't understand either

I

contact with aliens until

hybrid and accepted

"Do

the aliens

I

discovered that

I

my life

or

my

was a human

my interdimensional connections."

want

certain people to

know that they are

human hybrids?" "I

think

so.

The spaceship may have been

real,

or

it

may

have been an alien-manipulated illusion that the abductees'

human minds could

accept. In

my opinion, the purpose of

the mass abduction was to introduce the

girl

and her neigh-

bors to their interdimensional origins."

"This was a daring operation by the abductors." "Yes,

and we should expect more mass abductions. The

aliens are

encouraging us to

start accepting ourselves as

hybrid humans." Feeling confident about

my

theory,

I

74 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

added, "The abductees were probably examined and given

checkups

—and

installed, as

programming implants may have been well. The roundup was an orientation, examisocialization process

nation,

and

human

hybrids to meet their

"Your theory

"Are "All

the

all

for the

own kind."

very interesting."

is

"In a way, a mass abduction

human hybrids

—an opportunity

is

like a

reunion, in which

are reunited with their alien creators."

the abductees hybrids?"

of them!"

I

said confidently. "Although they live in

same neighborhood, they probably don't know each

other as

humans

—but they must share

a

common interdi-

mensional heritage."

how

"If so,

will their lives

be affected by the mass

abduction?" "After

meeting in the alien dimension,

they'll

begin to

recognize something familiar in each other as they interact in the

human world, which may create bonds among them."

For example, tually play

I

assume that fellow abductees

important roles in the

little

will even-

girPs future.

might be her future teachers, business partners, or reiterated,

"Those who

They

lovers.

I

shared the mass abduction were

brought together to gain understanding of themselves and their I

own kind." had a new theory: "These people may be the subof a single specialized experiment. The aliens may

also

jects

have strategically positioned them in one neighborhood

more easily collect them and guide their common purpose. They might share some programming that would cause them to think alike or flock together for some purpose." so they could

The little girl's account of her abduction was also of interest to

me because

it

closely paralleled

my own

experiences.

Human Hybrids

75

She spoke emphatically of being on "an uncomfortable bench" and described the "suction-cup fingers" on the

hands

—both of which

aliens'

had experienced. She then raised

I

her hand to the side of her head, grimaced and said, "Something busted in

my head." To me, this was a sure sign that a

programming device had been implanted

in her head.

Unlike me, however, she didn't appear to be emotionally

traumatized by the experience.

Barbara remarked, "This child has almost complete conscious recall of her experience in the other dimension.

When I interviewed her, I information about alien "Yes,"

seemed

I

felt I

was recording very valuable

activities."

agreed. "I listened carefully to her account,

to validate almost everything

I

said in

and

my

it

first

regression."

As tion

I

listened to the calm, sincere

came

to

little girl,

another ques-

mind. Could she be an example of a new,

improved human hybrid? After

all, I

was

forty-five before

alien-abduction memories

by them. The cheerful

little girl

had

I

my first conscious

—and was deeply traumatized

was eight or nine, and seemed quite

and accepting. She spoke

freely

of being taken

from her home, and wasn't disturbed about being on the spaceship. To support her account, she calmly drew pictures of the aliens I

felt old.

and

their ship.

"My awakening was

so

much more

than hers. I'm barely forty years older, and

difficult

she's so

much

further advanced." "Yes,"

Barbara

said.

"The hybrids of

"She

my

may be

a

new model."

generation have been emotionally

crippled by their alien contacts, but younger people don't

seem

to experience that kind of emotional trauma. If this

little girl

represents a

new generation, we can conclude that

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the

new models

don't fear alien beings. Their interdimen-

sional connections

may be more refined than ours, or more new hybrids seem to know

natural to them. Moreover, the

themselves better. This

toward

alien beings

"You may be

girl

has both a positive attitude

and a healthy sense of self-acceptance."

right.

The younger human hybrids may be

more capable of bridging the gap between the dimensions." Although our alien encounters were similar, the girl was able to consciously report her abduction; I had to be hyp-

When

notized to retrieve the details. abductors, she

defended the

showed no

aliens, saying,

she described her

stress; I cried for

months. She

"They would be mean

for only

one reason. People have never been nice to them." I

asked Barbara, "In the beginning, did

I

ever defend

aliens?"

Barbara shook her head and pursed her

both thinking that the ators

little girl

We

lips.

much better than I had. who are the hybrids, and why

So,

have alien

scientists

devoted thousands of years to developing them?

I

would

love to provide factual answers to these questions. ever,

were

understood our alien cre-

How-

our only sources of information are the fragments

that have surfaced in the little girl.

minds of people

Nevertheless, a few individuals

have dedicated their

lives to

like

—

me and the

like

Barbara

documenting and piecing

together the fragments of the alien-abduction puzzle "the big

game board," as she

calls

it.

It's logical to want to explain human hybrids and determine who they might be, but it's difficult to discuss a theory that most peopie have never considered. Most of my

ideas about hybrids sions, so

At

first I

I

wanted

came from

my own

to use information

couldn't think of any, but then

hypnotic regres-

from other I

sources.

realized that

I

had

Human Hybrids another key resource

—Barbara. When

asked her

I

11

if

we

could get together to exchange ideas, she agreed enthusiastically.

we met at her so many of our

Kyle decided to participate, too, and

house on a Saturday afternoon.

It

was

other meetings, except that this time,

like I

would be guiding

the interview. I

started the conversation

ond

about

my

with the

little girl.

But

How

human hybrids?" She replied, "My

my first and sec-

a great deal of information

and we've discussed your interview

creation,

other sources.

by saying, "In

we recorded

regressions,

I'd like to

supplement

this

with

did you acquire your ideas about

my

information began with

standing of myself... the basic understanding of

under-

how

I'm

from the human crowd."

different

"Have you discovered anything about human hybrids that sets

them

apart from other

human beings?"

Barbara responded, "Based on the hundreds of abduction cases I've

some

qualities

documented and analyzed, and patterns of

I

do recognize

experience that set

life

abductees apart from other people. But, according to theory, everyone I'd

on Earth

is

a potential contactee."

never considered that possibility before. "If

correct,

we

shouldn't assume that everyone

tacted or abducted by alien beings

"And," Kyle said, "those

beings and After

all,

abducted

UFOs may

who

is

is

con-

a hybrid."

are fascinated by alien

not necessarily be hybrids,

—

yet

now he believes identify

either.

he's a hybrid."

human

'batch-consignment theory,'" Barbara

that

who

that's

Jim didn't have any interest in aliens until he was

"Maybe we could with

my

this idea in

your

first

regression,

some hybrids may come

into

life

hybrids with the

said.

"You came up

when you

suggested

in batches."

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78

Kyle looked puzzled, and Barbara explained, "In his regression,

Jim mentioned the increasing number of

dren with a propensity for lence.

I

lack of conscience,

evil,

and vio-

mean that aliens have developed altered children, programmed with

interpreted this to

batches of genetically

certain criminal behavior. Right

ing—

first

chil-

now, gangs are

are these children being 'batched' into

life

She continued, "Jim, on the other hand,

proliferat-

by aliens?" is

from the

'intuitive' batch."

"That means," Kyle reasoned, "that anyone could be a hybrid,

and we don't have enough information

to second-

guess the aliens' motives for creating such a wide spectrum

of human behavior." "Yes,"

Barbara

said.

"The question

is,

'Who's here to do

what?'" I

agreed

tainty.

—we

"Human

can't yet identify

hybrids must discover themselves and

learn to recognize I

believe that

grammed by

human hybrids with cer-

one another."

human

hybrids are experimentally pro-

alien scientists to exhibit specific behaviors,

or facilitate predetermined events. In other words, alien scientists are

human

experimenting with every possible aspect of

intelligence, behavior,

and emotion. Therefore,

anyone from a national leader to a violent gang member could be a hybrid.

Then Barbara described her "Hatfield & McCoy Polarity Game" theory: "According to this theory, the aliens program human hybrids into polarized groups and manipulate them into opposing

one another. For example,

I've

hypnotized

many abductees who've had disturbing dreams about Nazis. Some dreamt about being a Nazi; others dreamt of being victimized by Nazis. But

information about past

all

of them could recall specific

lives in

Nazi Germany."

Human Hybrids I

wondered, "Were the Nazi leaders a

human

79

hybrid

control group, with alien-programmed objectives?

Were

they an alien-directed experimental group developed to

oppose other

"We

human

groups?

If so, for

what purpose?"

can't outguess the aliens' motives," Kyle

me. "But

if

your theories are correct, alien

reminded

scientists

may be

many world events through their manipulations of human hybrids." I agreed. "Yes. This may be one reason why we're not allowed to readily identify human hybrids. We'll be asking, 'Who are the hybrids?' until the aliens are ready for us to know, and to understand how they're changing our world." orchestrating

—

Wife

8

Human but

I

TH

HYBRIDS on Earth

are part

human and part alien

believe that alien scientists are also creating another

group of hybrids, which

I

human

"interdimensionals." Like sionals have

both

"interdimensional hybrids," or

call

human and

hybrids, the interdimen-

alien qualities; the difference

that they live in other dimensions.

When I was

is

preparing to

write about hybrids, Kyle offered to brainstorm ideas with

My tongue slipped as we were talking, and called them "huliens." The new word lingered in my thoughts, and I

me.

I

finally

decided that huliens

human-alien hybrids

who

is

a distinctive designation for the

reside in the alien dimension.

and scope of interdimensional beyond our comprehension. However, this book would be incomplete if I didn't at least offer what I It's

true that the technology

alien research

is

know about this subject.

My awareness of interdimensionals is based on my perceptions of those I've ability to

met

—they seem

transcend dimensions.

to share their creators'

My first visit with an interdi-

mensional hybrid occurred over a year

81

after

I

was mated

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82

interdimensionally.

I

was home alone on a Saturday

noon, resting in bed on a handmade senses were heightened

and

colors, fibers,

—

I

became

quilt.

Suddenly

afterall

my

acutely aware of the

stitching in the quilt.

I

didn't understand

what was happening, but everything around me seemed intensified and magnified. I curled up in a fetal position,

my head at the foot of the bed, when the interdimensional woman entered my bedroom.

with

don't recall seeing her pass through a door or wall, like

I

the alien with the red eye. She just materialized in the middle of the

room, near the foot of the bed. Her

was

face

humanlike, but her features were rather distorted, and her skin

was pale and transparent. She had

hair that

fell

a seamless,

that

thick, coarse

straight to her shoulders, like a

diaphanous

draped

silvery

blonde

mop. She wore

garment with long

sleeves

her wrists. She extended her arms, as

at

if

Then I saw that she was holding a little boy and as I watched, she gently laid him on the bed beside me. Then she stepped back and assumed a vigilant reaching out to me.

—

position in the middle of the room.

He was

also

blonde and

pale,

and looked about

six

months old. He crawled onto me immediately, as if he knew me and had played with me before. I felt like a proud parent. He looked like a normal six-month-old child except for one unusual feature. His teeth were fully devel-

oped, and he also had narrow teeth in the back of his

mouth, extending down from the roof of his mouth. thought about sible

many times, but

this

explanation for

While the watched, as

if

I

the

did not answer or

played happily, the

woman

Time seemed to stand still. I woman, "Where do you live?" She move a muscle. She was stone-faced,

standing guard.

remember asking

can't offer a plau-

it.)

boy and

little

still

(I've

Who Are the Huliens? expressionless, as if she nication.

was a robot incapable of commu-

Her only emotional gesture was her tender

ery of the child to me. For several days afterward, lingering

feeling

When was

fully conscious.

so

I

don't

deliv-

had the

couldn't retrieve them.

she arrived, and while

played with the child,

I

But within thirty minutes or so

became very drowsy, and left,

I

I

had telepathically placed

she

that

my mind, but

thoughts in

83

I

remember

I

I

consciousness before they

lost

their departure. Perhaps the

woman used her superior mental power to induce anesthesia in me. When I awoke, I felt an overwhelming sense of loneliness.

him to

I

leave

Feeling as days.

I

wanted me.

if I'd lost

a child,

I

I

wasn't ready for

know more about him.

to

was despondent

for several

longed for some kind of contact or communication

with the child's

As

my son;

to be with

And I needed

usual, she

described

human

mother. Instead,

was there when

my visitors,

I

I

called Barbara.

needed her

I

—and

as

I

could hear the excitement in her

voice. "You're reporting very

important new information,"

she said. In response to her questions,

every possible intuition. The

mother;

like

woman

is

other interdimensional children, he lives in a

had acquired these thoughts. Did explain this to

However,

one point, real!

I

for

the child's surrogate

protected interdimensional environment.

woman

my mind

pressed

I

I

I

wondered how

I

the interdimensional

me?

couldn't answer

all

of Barbara's questions. At

was so frustrated that

They entered my conscious

I

shouted, "They were

reality!

They were

in

my

bedroom!" Because of

my intense

paternal feelings,

the child was the product of

and

I

my

struggled to understand

I

felt

sure that

interdimensional union,

how

such a beautiful child

84 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

could have resulted from such a disturbing experience.

had assumed that we had produced an embryo, which was then removed from her body. Then I saw scenes First

I

of the child developing in a glass cylinder. Then

won-

I

dered whether the woman's interdimensional body could have given birth to him.

I

even wondered

if

his

embryo had

been implanted into the interdimensional woman. However,

couldn't

I

boy's existence.

come up with

My

only

good explanation

a

relief

was to share

for the

his visit with

Barbara.

For days, thoughts of him questions, but received

filled

my mind. I asked many

no convincing answers. I loved him,

and wanted to be with him.

I

tried to imagine the interdi-

how many other interdihad been created. I kept asking, "Why

mensional nursery and wondered

mensional children

was

this child created?"

thought that Several

I

and was

terribly disturbed

by the

might never see him again.

months

passed,

could never erase the

and

my

ually lost

hope of ever seeing him

warning,

I

was taken

pain began to fade.

memory of holding him, but I

I

grad-

again. Then, without

any

to him.

The journey began at night. I was asleep when two alien beings removed me from my bed, without disturbing my sleep.

I

next

remember standing

in front of a

wide door-

way, like an elevator entrance; the large, dark door was closed. life, I

I

stared at the door, as

if

entranced.

and asked, "What's on the other looked to

aliens

my

left

and

right.

I

Then

I

came

to

side of these doors?"

wasn't alone; two gray

were escorting me, one on either

side.

Their eyes

weren't glowing, but otherwise they were like the aliens I'd

met

before, only a bit shorter; their heads didn't quite

reach

my shoulders.

Who Are the Huliens? The door opened

me

and they gestured

in the middle,

to step forward.

my feet came to

As

into place just below.

down

again,

went.

I

ranean

The

and

rest

on

it,

all

of

another platform moved

followed their instructions to step

I

yet another platform

realized that

for

stepped through the doorway and

I

onto a shiny semi-circular platform, large enough for us.

85

—and

emerged

we were descending

so

it

into a subter-

facility.

took

last step

rian-style parlor. lighting,

I

me

As soon

into a lavishly decorated Victoas

my eyes adjusted to the bright

noticed beautiful red walls.

man, dressed

in clothing that

hundred years

ago.

Then

I

saw an old

humans might have worn

As he extended

his

a

hand and ushered

me into the parlor, the two gray beings vanished. As he welcomed me, "ring"

on one of

thought. But as

I

I

was attracted

What a

his fingers.

gazed into

its

magnificent ruby,

I

mesmerizing glow, a famil-

thought arose from deep in

iar

to a large, brilliant

my

mind: Oh!

I recognize

you. You re one of them.

The old man had the same mensional

woman who had visited

human, but

it

gestures were pleasant;

to

me. His face appeared

was scarred and contorted. He seemed more than the woman. His welcoming

solid, less transparent,

He

facial features as the interdi-

I felt

didn't speak, but his

at ease

with him immediately.

movements

directed

my attention

my left.

The interdimensional woman was sitting on a Victorian settee, and I recognized her at once. Although her face was frozen and unsmiling, I sensed that she was glad to see me. She looked downward, and my eyes followed her gaze. The little boy was standing on wobbly legs. His back was to me, and he was holding onto her leg for support.

86 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

He turned around, and our

me

recognize

He was

him.

same

in the

heartfelt

I

I

him

my

to

nearly white skin

recognized

I

our hands met.

as

My

sat quietly

she trusted

As we played with one another, the

me

and watched

—she knew

know how

don't

and embraced him. His pale, and smooth, but was much

chest

felt soft

cooler than mine.

I

that

thought.

lifted

woman

way

to

learning to walk, and took an unsteady step

toward me, recovering his balance child!

He seemed

eyes met.

long

that I

us.

sensed that this time

wouldn't

I

was

I

there.

harm him.

My memory of our

time in the parlor fades into a feeling of holding

him quietly.

As before, I must have been anesthetized when

it

was time to

had no memory of being returned

to bed. But

leave,

and

when

I

I

awoke, the ornate Victorian parlor was

still

vivid in

my mind's eye. The interdimensional man and woman had seemed out of place

in

wondered

it. I

if

the aliens

had

cre-

ated the Victorian setting to comfort me, or so that the boy

and I could play together I

tossed

and turned the

longing overpowered

with

in a

my

human environment. of the night.

rest

need

for sleep

—

I

My

parental

wanted

to be

my child. Why did the aliens let me experience the play-

ful affection

of a

little

boy who

lives in a

me? Why did they encourage me to

world apart from

feel like a

loving parent?

These questions, and others, kept racing through

These interdimensional

visits

stumped me;

any theories to account for them. At aliens

wanted the boy

sibly to

absorb

human

sibilities, as well. I

reactions

qualities

human

—but

my mind.

didn't have

thought the

affection, pos-

there were other pos-

asked Barbara, "Could he be a prototype

for interdimensionals

were the alien

to experience

first I

I

who

scientists

and parental

can

feel

human

simply studying

instincts?"

emotions? Or

my

emotional

Who Are the Huliens? I'm

still filled

sons future.

and what

wonder where

I

he'll

sometimes

with questions about

when he grows

up,

have no answers, but

I

Once I thought, He may be livHe may have been placed in a Our visits may have been socialhim adjust. Maybe we've enjoyed

get an insight.

I

ing somewhere on Earth.

human

my interdimensional

he'll live

be or do. Usually,

87

body, as a walk-in.

ization experienceSy to help

other times together, which I cant remember. Another time, I

wondered

hybrid

life.

if

alien scientists

One

produced a duplicate of each

counterpart might

while the other one

live in

lives in theirs

could be interchangeable. These ideas ful

thinking

on

our dimension,

—and the

duplicates

may have been wish-

my part, fueling the hope that would meet I

my son someday. But I could see how an interdimensional could be installed in a

human body when a human hybrid's

essence was taken to the alien dimension for adjustment.

Such questions about helped

me

my

interdimensional son actually

to discover the distinction

between

human

hybrids and interdimensionals. Also, while thinking of him

one evening,

I

suddenly began to have frightful thoughts

about the humans tory

I

had seen

in the

—and another piece of the puzzle

Except for his teeth,

underground laborafell

into place.

my son looked very human. During

my first regression, I thought that the humans

I

had seen

in

the laboratory were volunteers, working cooperatively with

Under the bright overhead lights, they looked human; and at the time, I didn't know about hybrids yet. aliens.

But

now I wondered whether they were human hybrids

interdimensionals

—and

this question

opened up vast

or

new

possibilities.

people believe that our government has made agreements with aliens and allowed them to develop an

Many

extensive network of subterranean bases.

I

started to think

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

88

who

about those

could have executed such agreements.

Could some of our top government

officials

be

human

hybrids or interdimensional walk-ins? Could they have been

programmed by

to

aliens

master plan for

their

fulfill

humanity? And could some hybrids live in both dimensions?

When I met the old man with the glowing red "ruby" on I recalled the humans in the underground facilwho had glowing red control devices under their finger-

his finger, ity

Now

nails.

I

wondered

same technology abductor. the

I

concluded that

underground

these devices could be the

if all

my

glowing red eye of

as the

facility

first alien

some of the humans

at least

in

must have been human hybrids

or interdimensionals. I

can only offer

my

because they haven't tence.

However,

son

real

is

On

theories about interdimensionals,

left verifiable

my friend

evidence of their exis-

Tina believes that

—because she saw him!

February

9,

1997, at least three years after

the Victorian parlor, he appeared in

and saw him watching me. At

first I

recognize him. He'd grown! His

a

of a

five-

human

was

was

looked up

and

didn't

or six-year-old child. His head was larger than

head, and his face looked like a teenager's. His

blonde hair was thick and coarse,

I

I

startled

I

body was stocky and the

like a

brows were bushy. He was dressed in but

my trip to

my living room.

doing stretching exercises on the floor when

size

my "hulien"

sensed his need for

me to

mop, and

red.

He

his eye-

didn't speak,

recognize him. Just as

I

was

about to speak, the telephone rang, and he vanished.

Two

days

later,

Tina called and asked

for a visit with a friend

if

she could stop by

from out of town. While they were

getting settled in the living

room,

I

offered to

make a pot of

Tina is wellknown for her ability to "see" psychically and has provided psychic counseling for many people.

tea.

Who Are the Huliens?

89

When I returned to the living room, Tina was entranced. I

was surprised, because she'd never gone into a trance

before.

Then she

spoke, describing

my son

and saying

that

he was in the room. She pointed to three areas of the room

where he had appeared

to her. She called

One." "He's concerned," she

said.

him

the "Dear

"He thinks you don't

like

his hair." I

was stunned. When he appeared two days before, I had

in fact

had

there was

critical

thoughts about his unruly hair

no way Tina could have known

that.

—but

Her unex-

pected message was a confirmation of my interdimensional

sons existence.

come

I

think of him often, and hope that he will

for other visits. I'd like

interdimensionals.

him

to teach

me more about

iSifo OBSESSIONS

When ple

I

cant

discuss

my theories about hybrid beings, most peo-

resist asking,

"Am

I

a

human

hybrid?" I'm hesitant to

my

perceptions might be

answer such questions, because wrong. Instead,

I

encourage people to ask their

own

questions

own opinions about aliens and hybrid humans. Some hybrids may never become aware of their alien origin; but I believe that an increasing number of people will

and form

their

soon be hearing

alien

alien heritage. I've

based on

wake-up

calls,

and asked

developed the following

to accept their

list

of questions

my own experiences. Perhaps other hybrids who are

programmed to

discover their alien connections will find that

they will answer "yes" to most of them:

When you were a child, did you feel presences or see beings?

Were you

sexually molested as a child?

Have you dreamt of being

in

underground

facilities?

Have you dreamt of medical examinations? Have you dreamt of being taken onto spaceships?

91

92 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

Have you ever experienced

significant

memory losses

or lost-time episodes?

Have you ever

felt as if

information has been forced

into your brain?

Have you seen or encountered UFOs? Have you every had psychic or paranormal experiences?

Have you ever been involved

in unrequited, obsessive

love relationships? It

may come

but

as a surprise,

found that traumatic

I've

may be one of the strongest clues that a human hybrid. I also believe that many people

love obsessions

person

who

is

a

are trapped in unfulfilled love obsessions are actually

starring in alien-directed dramas.

my life, and I

Love obsessions have played a major role in believe that a

book about

aliens

would be incomplete with-

out some consideration of them. But ability to explain the relationship

initially I

doubted

human

between

my

love

obsessions and alien manipulation of humans. So one hot

summer day, I met with Kyle and Barbara to share our ideas about love obsessions.

We

patio, in the shade of a large

seated ourselves

cottonwood

on Barbara's

tree,

overlooking

the ducks in her backyard pond. All the drakes were in pursuit

of one elegantly feathered, demure water ballerina.

humorous comments about for

Our

the drakes' antics set the stage

our discussion about alien-manipulated love obsessions.

Telling other people about one's

most intimate love

obsessions feels like stripping one's clothes off in front of

them. But the ducks inspired

us,

and soon we were speak-

ing candidly about our love obsessions, and wondering

why

so

many

love affairs.

people were preoccupied with unrequited

Love Obsessions

93

Barbara volunteered to share some of her ideas about love obsessions.

"The

alien intelligence," she began,

how every part of our body works. to

all

intimately attuned

our mental and physical functions. The

program

all

can

aliens

our emotional responses to produce misery,

jealousy, passion, or love.

ence, as well as

many

It is

"knows

I

know from my personal experi-

my research,

program

that alien scientists

people for love obsessions

—and can even program

us to search for specific companions or mates."

Kyle and

agreed. "I've suffered from several long,

I

painful love obsessions," tional whirlwinds,

I

confessed.

and they

"Some were emo-

lasted for years. In college,

was obsessed with a graduate student who arrived cafeteria at the first sight, I

same time every morning.

I fell

I

in the

in love at

my life. My heart ached, because my

and those obsessive emotions consumed

was miserable

for

two

years.

love wasn't returned, or even noticed!"

"You watched for

this

person eat breakfast every morning

two years?" Kyle asked. "What were you thinking?"

"Mostly sexual

fantasies,"

I

admitted. "And they sur-

passed any physical possibilities!"

Love obsessions can be crippling. They can sap our strength ships

and destroy our

and cause us

before

I

to

understood

Nordic lover

who

adolescence.

I

life.

do

my

first

believe

They can wreck our

irrational things.

I

was

relation-

forty-five

obsessive life-long search for a

appeared in

now

that

my alien

fantasies during

pro-

scientists

but grammed that image in my mind when I was we didn't meet until I'd endured nearly thirty-five years of a child,

debilitating love obsessions

and sexual

always fallen hopelessly in love with love

had never been returned.

tall

fantasies.

blondes

I

had

—but my

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When

I

my fantasy lover (whom I'll my world stood still. A friend

did meet

finally

refer to as Lee) in real

life,

working.

down for dinner in a restaurant where Lee was He walked toward me and said, "What can I get

for you?"

and

and

I

sat

all I

could think was "a lifetime together!"

This was four years before abduction.

I

knew nothing

interdimensional

lives.

As

my

yet about aliens, hybrids, or

far as

I

knew,

were just there to have a nice dinner. But like that. Lee's

—

ing

my

it

my mind,

were suddenly

real.

and I work out

friend

didn't

presence triggered thrilling

thoughts in

fantasies

conscious alien

first

—but confus-

my heart to race. My My friend tapped me on the

causing

shoulder and said, "You're staring!" I

was preoccupied.

My head was filled with confusion at

my powerful emotional reaction to this stranger. I knew we were well acquainted and that we had loved each other for a long time. Yet,

We

we wouldn't meet

were both alone, and

—

again for nearly a year.

—although

I

didn't

tell

anyone

how I felt some mutual friends offered to introduce us. One friend told me, "You two have so much in common." I

declined their offers, thinking that

we would

get

together eventually.

On a brisk October day, a year after our first encounter, Lee accepted an invitation to join me for lunch at a quaint little restaurant. I felt very nervous about having my first conversation with the person I'd loved for most of my life. I knew that my previous love obsessions had just been warm-ups compared

to this one!

That day, we talked openly, and our friendship blossomed.

We were close and caring at times, but avoided any

sexual intimacy or talk of a relationship.

town and was gone

for nearly a year.

Then Lee

left

We kept in touch with

Love Obsessions

and phone

letters

while he was away. After returning,

calls

and our friendship conanother year. During this time, my

he stopped by for occasional tinued like this for

95

visits,

obsessive feelings diminished the quality of

my

life;

I

couldn't reconcile the vast differences between friendship

and love obsession. ual fantasies,

I

was depressed, preoccupied with

and disturbed by the

sex-

possibility of never ful-

them.

filling

Then, during years after

I

had

my second hypnotic regression, nearly five first

met

Lee, Barbara suddenly asked

me,

"Why do you love Lee?"

My

response was, 'Tve never loved anyone as

first

deeply," but

ing to say, obsessive

"My

this myself.

feelings are different in

some

I

was

way.

I

tryfeel

and have a deep inner knowledge of Lee."

me

Barbara gave

a hypnotic suggestion to visualize

down twenty steps, while

walking each

understand

really didn't

I

step.

As

I

descended,

I

felt

growing within me. Suddenly, taken to create Lee! created from

I

I

thinking about Lee with

great emotional pressure

exclaimed, "Part of me was

was very young, nine or ten

—Lee was

my flesh."

"Are you speaking literally?" "Yes,"

I

said,

and began

Barbara asked

to cry.

me to explain, but I couldn't. I was numb.

In response to her questions,

thoughts rushed through words.

I

stammered,

pling.. .a piece

"It

I

tried to talk, but the

my mind faster than I could form was done through

tissue

of my flesh was removed... I have a

sam-

scar."

The

my flesh to use in creating Lee. I sat up, removed my sock, and looked at the scar on my

aliens

had taken

left leg just

from

a sample of

above the ankle. "They took a tissue sample

my leg!" I said.

96 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

I

had

evening

first

when I was nine

the size of It

noticed the open or ten.

wound on It

through which

a nickel,

didn't bleed or hurt; the flesh

a hot

was a deep

summer

crater about

my leg bone was visible.

had simply vanished.

My

mother took me to a doctor, but I could never explain how had disappeared. This experience had always

the flesh

troubled me. I'd always

pened, but

that tissue sample,"

Barbara asked flesh

felt

that something significant hap-

had no memory of

I

from your

it.

"Lee was created from

said slowly, trying to convince myself.

I

me to explain further. "Who removed the

leg?"

my first glimpse of Lee in the restaurant. I was thinking of my initial feelings of recognition and my inability to explain my immediate, overwhelming love. Still

in shock,

I

couldn't answer.

I

was focused on

Barbara repeated her question more firmly.

my leg

I

responded,

"Alien beings took the flesh

from

love connection between us.

My love didn't come from my

human

side. Aliens

programmed my

why

know how

understand first. Is

"In ble of

I

didn't

and created the

feelings.

to express

Now,

my love

I

at

this possible?"

my opinion," Barbara said, "aliens are perfectly caparemoving

flesh

from your body and using the

tissue

to create another person." Then, she asked, "What's the age

difference

between you?"

"Nine or ten

years."

"The timing would be question

me

about

my

correct, then."

She continued to

obsession for Lee and

my

sexual

fantasies.

"My fantasies

of making love with Lee were more

fying than any other sexual experiences

imagine,"

I

confessed.

I

satis-

have had, or can

However, idea.

my

I

I

didn't

cells to

Love Obsessions

97

continued to have difficulty accepting

this

want

to believe that alien scientists

develop Lee's embryo.

aliens

when

when

the flesh was

tell

was nine or

I

ten,

removed from

didn't recall seeing

I

and

had used

didn't

I

my

know

exactly

However,

leg.

did

I

Barbara about a haunting lost-time episode.

On

the day the crater appeared

on

my

leg,

I

had been

walking beside the house. "The east side of the house was

shaded in the afternoon. day, but

I

"Look

can't

I

was there

for a long time that

remember why."

again."

"The shady

air

was cooler around that corner of the

house, and the grass was greener."

I

tion of stepping onto the cool,

remembered the

damp

sensa-

"Maybe

grass.

I

stepped through an alien doorway and walked into their dimension."

"Could the

aliens

my mind when

have programmed the image of Lee in

they removed the flesh?"

wondered.

I

both knew the answer. Alien intelligence

is

We

capable of

accomplishing anything that our minds can conceive.

Barbara asked

if I

could remember any other details of

this encounter,

which might

"Oh, yes! Right

after the crater

and discovered masturbation. appeared when

became

I

relate to

my

appeared,

I

love obsession.

entered puberty

Also, the Nordic fantasy

I my It was my primary

discovered the pleasure of

increasingly obsessive about

it.

first

masturbation fantasy...but could the aliens

really

penis.

have pro-

grammed us to meet thirty-five years later?" "They may be quite capable of that." After receiving this information,

ever that Lee and didn't

tell

I

I

was more certain than

were involved in a love relationship.

him about my

I

regression, however. Barbara didn't

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want

me

to influence his thinking about alien contacts;

with

me when I went to see

this time,

I

did invite Lee to come Barbara a few months later. By

didn't want to appear crazy. But

I

own

he had mentioned his

alien encounters

and

Barbara was anxious to explore them. Lee accepted Barbara's suggestions in a

trance—

He spoke

talking

and acting

and was soon

of getting out of bed at night, going to an open

window, and looking into a bright entered

easily,

like a three-year-old child.

it,

light outside.

When he

that light turned out to be a beautiful play-

ground in bright sunshine, where other kids and big people

were playing.

Suddenly, Lee giggled, and said, "Jim

"You knew him

at the

"He's a nice guy.

long time

I

is

my friend!"

playground?"

knew him when I was

ago... before

really young.. .a

now."

me about Jim," Barbara pressed.

"Tell

With uninhibited innocence and joy, Lee explained, "We were best friends; we held hands and laughed.

naked a

lot; it

We

were

was funny."

Barbara asked where

this was.

Lee replied, "In the same place"

—the playground

in

the light.

"You met Jim in the sunny, green playground?" "Yes! It

had swings, and we used

skipped, and held hands.

no one

else

who

We

ran,

There was

cared."

Barbara persisted, "Where was "It's

to swing.

We had so much fun!

a beautiful playground.

this place?"

You know where

it is. It's

the secret place where special things happen. Big people

and boys and

girls

play there."

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99

Jim your best friend?"

"Is

"Of course he

is!

He's

Then, abruptly,

friend!

my best friend!

my best

He's just

looked very sad.

Lee's face

"What happened?" "Jim went away one day, and I

would never

see

him

again.

I

I

was

got

really sad.

I

was

afraid

mad and started to cry."

Barbara allowed Lee to cry for several minutes. Then he

He seems older now and doesn't He looks different bigger than me." "Jim's older now. Where do you see

continued, "I miss Jim.

have his dog anymore.

Barbara suggested,

—

him?" "I

can only see his head, but

okay, but he can't talk to me.

It

he's smiling.

must be

He must be

right for

all

me

to

talk to him."

was there during the regression, but

I

because

my voice

of Lee.

was glad to be

I

I

didn't speak,

could interfere with Barbara's direction

and

there; Lee's childish voice

tures were quite convincing.

I

could also remember haunt-

my con-

ing dreams of such a playground, which crept into

sciousness

when

I

was twenty or twenty-one.

teenager by the time Lee was four or five and

seemed older

to him. His

a loving family thirteen

dog?

I

when I was

fourteen or

hundred miles apart.

How

I

fifteen.

did he

and

dimension

—

was a

interest-

gave

Duke

to

We grew up

know about my

thought to myself. The session convinced

that Lee

I

I

would've

mention of my dog was

Because of school and part-time work,

ing.

ges-

me further

knew each other from another time and that we loved each other long before we met I

in the restaurant.

Barbara asked Lee, "When did you see Jim again left

the playground?"

after

he

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"A long time.

I

didn't expect to see

him

again.

missed

I

him. Did he miss me?"

was innocent, unaware of what I'd said in second regression. As Barbara brought Lee out of hyp-

The

my

nosis,

child Lee

I

scribbled

down

implant Lee's image in tissue cally

the following notes: "Did aliens

my mind when

my leg?

sample from

they removed the

As children, were we periodi-

taken to an interdimensional playground to become

acquainted?

Is this

why

I

recognized Lee? Were

we

ized with other hybrids?

Did we share

which

Were we programmed

I

haven't recalled?

thirty- five years later?" (Lee

knowing why,

just before

had moved

social-

later abductions,

meet

to

to town, without

our meeting in the restaurant.)

And, would the knowledge of our interdimensional tionship heal After

and

I

I

rela-

my love obsession? my obsession with Lee, Barbara, Kyle,

recounted

many

continued to discuss love obsessions. After so

years of alien- abduction research, Barbara

knows

that an

abductee's profile will also include love obsessions

—and

follow-up interviews with the abductees she has regressed reveal a surprising pattern.

Most of them report

significant

changes in their relationships soon after they become

aware of their interdimensional connections.

Some

of them divorce and abruptly remarry; others are

widowed and quickly

find

new

partners.

Those who are

single before their abduction usually find partners

soon

afterward. These patterns suggest that abductions

may

more than just checkups. Love- relationship programming may be altered or activated, and abductees may be programmed to find the mates created or selected by include

alien scientists. In fact, alien scientists appear to

be

fasci-

nated with the emotional aspects of our consciousness.

Love Obsessions

Kyle asked, "Are aliens emotionless beings

who

find our

emodo they perhaps harvest energy

emotions a curiosity? Are they attempting to tions in their hybrids? Or,

101

instill

or nourishment from our emotions?"

Love obsessions create highly charged emotions; there

may be

humans,"

I

human

love obsessions. "Let's think about

said, "as resources for aliens.

nourishment

tions provide fuel or

"Consider late the

human

a link between the aliens' fascination with

emotions and

this," I

for

What

if

our emo-

them?

continued. "Engineers routinely regu-

generation of electricity at hydroelectric plants by

controlling the flow of water through turbines. Likewise, aliens could control the

energies,

production of human emotions, or

by manipulating variables

like love obsessions. If

our emotions nourish or energize them in some way, they could turn us on by activating our fantasies about unobtainable lovers."

"Your idea people

who

is

interesting, but

do not find

how do you

explain the

fulfilling love relationships?"

Bar-

bara asked.

"Some hybrids may be They could work

created just for this purpose.

for the aliens

most of their

lives,

without

finding a fulfilling love relationship." "That's interesting

donor

—how does your

sperm

relate to this?"

"Human

hybrid breeders

may be prime

alien-manipulated love obsessions. gled in a love obsession

with a

role as a

is less

candidates for

A person who's entan-

likely to

be sexually involved

human partner."

"Good point," Barbara said.

"My obsessive feelings for Lee were most intense while I was being used

as

an interdimensional sperm donor. The

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102

aliens

may

have manipulated

my

obsession to facilitate

would have assured them

their experiment. It

wouldn't be sexually involved in the

me

and would have kept

in

human

that

I

dimension,

an emotionally charged

state

of readiness."

During

my

first

abduction, the aliens had extracted a

semen sample, and other samples may have been taken as well. Barbara's research seems to indicate that semen extractions are a routine part of alien examination procedures.

What do

they do with

all

the samples?

They may

have purposes other than the creation of hybrid embryos.

Or perhaps they analyze

the samples to prepare for an

interdimensional mating. I

suspect that

human

human sperm

is

used to impregnate both

hybrid and interdimensional women. Barbaras

research indicates that

short-term

human women may serve

incubators

embryos, and aliens

or

may

full-term

hosts

as either

for

hybrid

use love obsessions to control

both male and female participants in their hybridization programs. After a

moment's

silence,

I

said,

"Making love

in a

human body is not as satisfying as making love in an interdimensional body." Barbara and Kyle looked surprised. Barbara asked

me to

explain myself. "Let's create a hypothetical situation,"

I

said. "Barbara,

you've developed a sexual fantasy about a handsome, virile

man. He knows masterfully. in

You

all

your sexual desires and

don't

know

fulfills

them

that aliens planted his image

your mind and charged your emotions. Your fantasy

and expands the bound-

lover

becomes very

aries

of your sexual gratification. You're consumed by a

desire to

real to you,

be with him."

— Love Obsessions

"Is

he

really

and handsome?"

dark,

tall,

man

"He's perfect! He's the

of your dreams,

the next phase, the aliens invade your sleeping, to

meet

and take you

"Ouch! "Yes.

I

where

Your most

this

is

your body."

in

headed."

lover.

Now

know is that you want to be with your

know

you're

no longer

you

fantasy lover."

interested in

your interdimensional interlude, and

may

make love to him. You long for to

you experienced

the perfect sexual gratification that

advances. You

that. All

next?" Kyle asked.

"Now, Barbara, your husband wants

—but

by

you're pregnant, but

your conscious mind and body never

you

while you're

thrilling sexual fantasies are fulfilled

your interdimensional

"What happens

In

of sexual perfection. They plan

human-alien embryo see

home

literally.

—or your interdimensional body

this manifestation

to develop a

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reject

in

your husband's

have retained some fleeting memories

of your other lover, but you can't really explain your lack of interest in

your husband. One thing leads to another, and

before you

know it, you're divorced. You have no

memory

of being pregnant, and the aliens remove the

embryo from your womb while "That scenario says a

"Does

this really

"Yes,

think

I

conscious

so.

you're sleeping."

lot."

happen?" Kyle asked.

How

could a person be

satisfied

with a

human partner after their sexual fantasies have been fulfilled by an interdimensional lover? Human bodies are cumbersome compared to sex in the interdimensional body. "I wonder if our sexual fantasies are being facilitated by our sexual pleasure? Can they absorb sexual energy from us? Could this be another reason that aliens manipulate our love obsessions? interdimensional beings.

Do

they

feel

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"People need to understand that

and perpetuating these obsessions manipulating our emotions, we sibility,

or

guilt, for

them. This

we may not be

creating

ourselves. If aliens are

can't

assume

total

may be the key to

respon-

unlocking

our love bondage."

"Knowledge

is

power," Barbara said. "Perhaps this will

help others free themselves from unfulfilled love, or at least

diminish their pain."

"When

I

think about love obsessions,"

I

added, "I see an

alien operating

an old-fashioned telephone switchboard.

The operator

connecting and disconnecting cords, the

is

way the operator used

to switch calls. But these cords con-

nect people to people obsession,

The

—each

connection creates a love

and each disconnection destroys a

alien operator

is

in control, manipulating

relationship.

human lives

at will."

Although light note,

want

this

analogy enabled us to end the session on a

we were

still

to manipulate

believed that people

manipulation

if

in the dark about

human

why aliens would we all

emotions. However,

would be

they understood

less susceptible to this

more about the

subject.

10

From

siAH'iv

EARLY childhood,

forms of science

fiction,

I

and

For more than forty years, or aliens, and restrials.

always had a strong aversion to

I

I

never questioned these feelings.

never read anything about

a friend talked

seeing Close Encounters of the Third Kind I

just

thought of it as a

During the 1970s,

like so

many

silly

—but

religious beliefs with ideas

emerged, and

spirits. I

At the same time,

God. For more than twenty years, nor

my

life.

had no

movie.

my

I

Christian

such as reincarnation, psychic phe-

acknowledged them

understanding of

it

me into

other young people,

explored Eastern metaphysics, and supplanted

nomena, and

UFOs

even avoided popular movies about extrater-

I

The only exception was when

impact on me;

all

I

But neither

my

as the

psychic abilities

gift

of a benevolent

was comfortable with

my

this

Christian upbringing

metaphysical training prepared

me

for

my

first

encounter with an interdimensional being.

During that

first

encounter,

my first

reaction was that the

being must be an extraterrestrial from outer space. I figured that its spaceship was parked behind my house, and hoped

105

106

my

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

neighbors, Peter and Maggie, would see

when

the being carried

would be

My

able to report

me

it

—so

that

off to another planet, they

what had happened

to

me.

understanding of aliens evolved slowly. At

first, I

was the only person who had ever been contacted by them, and for some time, I continued to think

assumed

that

I

of them as interplanetary invaders. year later that

was probably about a

It

them

started to think of

I

as interdimen-

sional Earth beings, rather than astronauts planet.

and It

That year

I

visited the alien

my understanding of them evolved rapidly. was nearly two years

occurred to

me

that

after that first

encounter before

about the link between humans and

discovery

—my search

During this period,

I

aliens,

for corroboration

tried to read

which might be

didn't find

sure,"

I

I

UFO

forced myself to watch

much. "One persons trash

told myself

Compared

to

one

day, as

I

was discouraged by their

of

aliens,

and

sightings

I

and

Communion. But is

another's trea-

put a popular book aside.

well-known

devoted a lifetime to the search,

my process

and information.

books about

thumbed through magazines about alien abductions.

it

might have important information

I

helpful to others. This awareness triggered

I

from another

dimension many times,

investigators

who had

was a new student. But

I

I

inability to provide helpful infor-

mation, or even to agree on the most basic questions. The writings of the scientifically oriented researchers bored me. I

needed practical help with

felt as if

my

experiences,

and

it

often

they were just planting theoretical seeds and hop-

ing that something

would grow.

I

found that the most

and convincing information came from those who had actually witnessed sightings, or expe-

helpful, compelling,

rienced contacts with alien beings.

— Over

Let's Start

I'm not an alien-abduction researcher, and to

become one

don't plan

I

—I'm simply an individual who was forced

into investigating interdimensional reality. But

my

cluded that

107

experiential information

I

have con-

may be

as valu-

able as the research of the prominent investigators

who

UFO sightings and human-alien contacts. My abduction experiences and my search for answers have liberated me from my old belief systems. now study

I

human scientists will eventually prove the exis-

believe that

on other

tence of life tary travel.

I

planets

and

participate in interplane-

believe that the Earth has

been

visited

by

life

forms from other planets, and that humans have been contacted

by

planet

is

extraterrestrial beings.

life

on

that their intelligence

behind

I

also believe that this

inhabited by interdimensional beings

studying and altering

and

But

human

technical

this planet, just as

may be

and

who we

are

are

the real driving force

scientific progress.

Countless investigators have tried to solve the mystery of

UFOs and

alien abductions.

Some

apply the

scientific

method; others question its relevance to these phenomena. Some attribute alien sightings and contacts to demons and spirits;

others deny the existence of such beings.

Some

use

hypnosis as a tool for accessing memories of alien encounters;

others say that these states encourage a sense of hyste-

ria.

Some

believe that the

government

information about alien beings; others say

is

withholding

it's

simply try-

its own ignorance on the subject. Thus, the public hears only confusion: contradictory

ing to cover

claims and counterclaims.

tence of alien beings

How can people accept the exis-

when even

the

most prominent

investigators can't reach a consensus? At times, the cover-

age of

UFOs and

alien abductions actually feels like a dis-

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108

information campaign. As

far as

I

know, no investigator

able to provide verifiable evidence of the exis-

has been

tence of alien beings. Considering the wide diversity of

among our

opinion it's

alien-abduction researchers,

I

think

by

their

start over.

time to

Well-meaning researchers

may be

frustrated

inability to solve the mystery of aliens, but they're pres-

sured to write and speak, to hold their position in the spotlight.

Perhaps

why most

that's

discussions about aliens

remain focused on dramatic sightings of alien spaceships or UFOs. But perhaps our researchers aren't looking in the right place, or asking the right questions

found that

from our

Most

far

more

—because

interesting information

is

I've

coming

direct interactions with alien beings.

UFO

and

alien- abduction researchers

polarized into one of two major camps. scientific

methods; others

insights, or other

rely

seem

to be

Some prefer to

use

on hypnosis, psychic

paranormal techniques. But what

if

our

researchers are trying to investigate superior researchers? If

we

really are

experimental subjects, our brains

may simply

not be capable of understanding the scope and purpose of

humans. But

alien interactions with

important information

may be

it's

possible that

accessible to us, stored in

our body or our subconscious mind.

The

first

question

we must

address seems to be: Are

we

trying to investigate extraterrestrial beings, interdimensional beings, or both? Extraterrestrial travelers

our planet

one thing,

—but

as far as

I

know,

I

haven't

may visit

met one yet. For

my neighbors would have complained about the on my lawn. Further, the distance

frequent landings

between Earth and other potential planetary systems

makes

this unrealistic, in light

of the

number of

alleged

Let's Start

alien abductions.

I

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suspect that extraterrestrial visitations

are rare.

On the other hand, I've had many contacts with interdiwho seem to be quite well established on They've taken me to their subterranean facili-

mensional beings

our planet. ties

me

and allowed

these experiences,

I

to glimpse their world. Because of

believe that interdimensional beings

maintain a complex web of relationships with humans.

Whether

these beings are extraterrestrial or interdimen-

sional, very

little, if

produced very

human

any, physical evidence of their visita-

been found, and the evidence that does

tions has

On

information.

little

exist

has

the other hand,

encounters with alien beings seem to be recorded

in the bodies

This would

and subconscious minds of the

mean

that

contactees.

hypnotherapy and paranormal tech-

niques could be quite effective ways to retrieve information

about alien contacts.

Another important question

method

to

scientific

is:

Can we use

produce valid information about

method

may not be an

aliens'

we

The

aliens?

a systematic pursuit of knowledge,

is

based on the application of human logic

the scientific

effective

logic.

However,

human

way of understanding

superior intelligence and technology.

the

And how can

who can transcend time, matter, and summon them to appear and communi-

analyze beings

reality?

We

can't

cate with us.

We can't conduct controlled experiments with may

them. Occasionally they

our bodies, but

as far as

I

leave

marks or wounds on

know, they never leave physical

objects in our dimension.

Another problem

on the

is

that the scientific approach

researcher's ability to control

routinely distract

all

is

based

variables. Yet aliens

and deceive us by creating

illusions,

such

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110

as spaceships

and emotions

tions, us,

—and they can control our thoughts, percep-

we

in irresistible ways.

When they contact

what they want us to perceive, and what only they want us to believe. Since alien-

perceive only

believe

abduction researchers are controlled, rather than in control,

the scientific approach

is

unlikely to ever produce sig-

nificant information. Interdimensional beings

who

can

transcend time and transform matter can easily evade such

an approach. Despite their inability to reach a consensus, alien-abduction researchers have

made one important

They've led us to ask the question: that this

is

"Who

contribution.

are we?"

I

believe

the question that will eventually produce the

right answers for future researchers. Rather than attempting to investigate aliens efforts

whom we

cant control, our research

should be focused on ourselves, on exploring the

evidence held in our bodies and subconscious minds.

Some

alien-abduction investigators have stressed that

hypnosis

is

not a reliable research method. Their major

objection

is

that the information

sis is

produced under hypno-

not factual, and shouldn't be taken

at face value.

I

disagree with them. In the hands of an honest, capable,

and knowledgeable hypnotherapist, hypnosis can be a powerful method for discovering information stored in the subconscious mind.

My scious

which

regressions have convinced

mind all

a

is

me

tremendous repository of information,

my memories

it is

information

about

abductions

requires us to

first

and

alien

in

of alien contacts are readily avail-

able for retrieval. However,

ories

that the subcon-

alien

work through

programming.

true that retrieving valid

under hypnosis

layers of repressed

mem-

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was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of it but Barbara encouraged me to think of hypnotic

At all,

first, I

exploration as a light, shallow-trance learning experience. "You'll have to go into progressively deeper states of

hypnosis to fully explore your alien encounters," she explained. Although sion,

I

I

learned a lot from

can understand

why some

my first

regres-

researchers maintain

might not contribute much

that a single regression

our knowledge of alien beings.

How can

to

a person relive

the significant events of a lifetime in a few hours?

memory fragments of contactees can also be valuable. Those who retain fragmented memories of their Conscious

encounters with aliens, whether positive or negative, are

probably in their awakening phase. That are

prompting them

In fact,

I

is,

alien scientists

to understand their hybrid identity.

cant think of any other reason people would be

allowed to retain conscious memories of their alien encounters. Studies of such cases are

duce valid and long-term

likely to pro-

relationships

investigative

with

once are

and adjustments.

Studies of these contactees should include far

the documentation

and

all

the contactee's

more than

analysis of their hypnotic regres-

To substantiate these

ument

abductees.

alien beings

have multiple encounters, and will probably con-

tinue to receive checkups

sions.

develop

reliable findings if researchers

Those who have been contacted by likely to

more

cases, researchers

life

ered, this information can

experiences

—and, once gath-

be compared to a control group.

Barbara s research reveals significant contactees. For example,

need to doc-

life

patterns

among

most of the abductees she has

interviewed were sexually molested before puberty.

need to

We

discover other patterns, document them, and learn

from them.

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Dreams may also be important sources of information. The documentation and analysis of dreams may lead us to important clues about aliens. Most of my abductions occurred while I was asleep, but I usually retained enough conscious

memory

of the dreamlike episodes to

that aliens

had been

present. Often

my body when

on

I

tell

me

found unusual marks

awoke, including straight lines

I

arranged in patterns, triangular marks formed with dots,

and

circular or oval-shaped

Another resource

phenomena and productive

burn marks.

the paranormal approach; psychic

is

may be more about aliens. Some

trance channeling, for example,

ways to learn

researchers have

denounced these methods, and ques-

tioned the credibility of information produced by paranor-

mal methods. However,

since the "paranormal"

ition that

which

that such

methods could ever be validated

can't

be explained by science,

tion of a trained scientist. Based ence, however,

I

on

my

by definunlikely

to the satisfac-

personal experi-

more than denouncing them

would encourage people

about paranormal methods, rather

is

it's

to learn

out of hand.

On

this

topic,

interesting

it's

to

note that

many

abductees demonstrate heightened psychic sensitivity after their alien encounters.

are "psychic," as

we

I

believe that

define

it,

most human hybrids

because of the communica-

tion devices that have been implanted in their bodies. If this

is

true, psychic ability

may simply be an

alien technol-

ogy, rather than a mysterious supernatural force.

It's

also

possible that hybrids retain interdimensional connections that facilitate

an expanded

state

of consciousness.

Trance channeling should also be evaluated objectively. suspect that

it

may be

a

I

normal function of the human-

hybrid brain, rather than a "paranormal" phenomenon.

If

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daydreaming

is

113

considered a light state of self-hypnosis,

may simply be a deeper state of self-hypnosis. Channelers may retrieve information from implants or from the subconscious mind or they may be commutrance channeling

—

nicating with their interdimensional bodies. These theories

diminish the mystique of "trance channeling" and redefine it

as a

human-hybrid function

our awareness to

that involves transporting

past, future, or interdimensional events.

Sensory perception in such a deep

and

if

the channeler

fails

communi-

self,

they

may associate

it

entity.

true that aliens could release either deceptive or

It's

truthful information

—or

both

—through

channeler, and their objectives are fore,

can be very vivid,

to grasp their ability to

cate with their interdimensional

with an external

state

I

unknown

a psychic or to us. There-

dont recommend unquestioned belief in everything

produced by psychics and channelers. But

as the public

becomes more accepting of paranormal phenomena, psyand trance channelers

chics

are

becoming more

prevalent.

human hybrids? Are their brains unique in some way? Are they programmed with special communication abilities? If so, we need to learn more about their

Are they advanced

potential to retrieve information about alien beings. I

also have ideas of

how some

people are attracted to

UFO and alien-abduction research in the first place. Some may be human hybrids who are struggling to their human shells. Either innate or programmed

of them crack

them to disinterdimensional connections and complete

knowledge of cover their their

their alien heritage

is

driving

alien-programmed missions.

Most of the researchers I've met claim to have had some form of contact with alien intelligence, and Tve wondered if they share a common programming. Were

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114

they created and

programmed

Do

about alien beings?

they

to educate the rest of us

the "batch consignment

fit

theory?" Whether researchers agree or disagree themselves, their studies force us to think

among

about the

exis-

tence of other beings, and seem to be facilitating our

gradual acceptance of aliens.

Of course,

aliens

may be

orchestrating this process

feeding information to researchers

on

their

own

and

schedule,

me to my mind. Therefore, I assume that they want me to present my not ours. For example,

write this book,

I

and fed

believe that aliens directed

certain thoughts

information and theories to the public

and

ideas into

at this time.

remember one evening when Barbara and I sat in front of her fireplace and she reflected on her work as an alienI

abduction researcher.

I

why she was doing all this don t know. I don't know of any

asked her

research. She replied, "I

other investigator who's compiled a comparable volume of

information about alien abductions.

wonder why they allow me

to

do

this

And sometimes

work.

I

want

I

to help

people gain their freedom, instead of thinking that they are controlled by aliens." I

said, "Barbara, the old infrastructure

edge

of our knowl-

crumbling. Your alien-abduction research

is

con-

is

and helping to create new The aliens haven't stopped they must approve of your efforts, and maybe

tributing to that deterioration,

information about

you

—

human

life.

they're even guiding you."

Barbara gazed into the flickering

know,

I

activist,

fire

sometimes think of myself rather than a researcher.

I

and

as a

replied,

human

"You

rights

devoted myself to learn-

more than ten years ago, but my real commitment has been to people. I've spent all these years ing about alien beings

trying to figure out

how to protect our human

rights."

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Over

115

my heart. She of my life I was

Barbara's desire to be of service touched

had

certainly helped

happy,

free,

me

—

regain control

and productive

again.

I

said,

countless people recover their freedom.

you helped

heal until heritage."

I

me

discover

"YouVe helped

my

didn't start to

I

interdimensional

had a momentary image of Barbara

nurse, quietly

and gently awakening people

as a caring

to a

new and

unfamiliar world. "But do the aliens understand our concept of

human

human

rights, or

is

this just

more of our

frail

logic?"

"They seem

to

relationship with

"You may be

human

be controlling

them seems

to

right, Barbara.

current relationship between

evolution,

and our

be evolving."

You know,

I

humans and

wonder aliens

if

the

may be

analogous to the abolition of the slavery in America. Free-

dom

arises

when people

accept others, rather than being

We may be learn-

afraid of them, or trying to control them.

ing to accept a technologically advanced interdimensional race,

and the

aliens

may be

trying to transform us into

compatible neighbors. Perhaps humans and aliens will become more alike as time passes, and our two dimensions become increasingly integrated. "The aliens want you to continue your research, and they've provided

They seem ening.

to be orchestrating a

We need to

and begin

most of the information strip

my

book.

away our old thinking about them

to look for answers within

for answers turned into

for

worldwide human awak-

—

just as

my

search

an inner journey."

"Most of your information about

aliens

was recorded

in

own brain," Barbara said. "Yes, and we absorb even more information about alien beings during each of our contacts. Our journeys to their dimension are recorded within us, and they are now

your

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allowing us to discover this information. aliens are getting ready to reveal

they're helping us discover

who

I

believe that the

they

who we are."

are.

But

first,

Part Three

11

Documenting information a tightrope without a net.

positions

One must be

the relationship between

feel

I

mention

my

I

express a

humans and

walking

place myself in a

new theory about

aliens.

interdimensional journeys,

I

always

how people will react. However,

apprehensive and wonder

the aliens have taught

I

like

is

able to swiftly change

and viewpoints. Like an acrobat,

precarious situation each time

When

about aliens

me that the remainder of my life is likely

to be a series of uncertain, unsteady steps. I'm never certain

about anything about aliens insights, they

However,

I

when

I

do have

clear

simply inspire more unanswerable questions.

started writing with a strong sense that the aliens

had deposited "The book will Aliens

—and

all

the information

evolve,"

I

I

would need

assured myself as

may be programming human

learn through self-discovery

and

I

in

my mind.

began the process.

hybrids like myself to

self- acceptance,

and we

are

more about them as we discover ourselves. Important information about them may be archived in our

likely to learn

minds or implanted

in

our bodies. To

119

retrieve the information,

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we must learn to express the interdimensional aspects of our being. In other words, we must integrate our human and interdimensional selves, and learn to function in both worlds.

believe this

I

how we will eventually establish two-

is

way communication with our alien creators, and learn to exist

co-

with them.

The idea of integrating with an may seem far-fetched, but it appears

invisible alien

world

that alien beings have

already initiated the process. In recent years, reports of alien contacts

and abductions have increased

and each human contact with

we

bit closer together, if

these contacts.

aliens

significantly,

can bring our worlds a

and study the records of

retrieve

Our subconscious minds may be our ports

of entry into an interdimensional

reality.

My understanding of all this began about a year and a my first alien visitation. was agitated and having

half after

I

my will to live. It felt as if part of me was in another dimension, and the rest of me wanted to be there, too. On my next visit to Barbara, I said, "I have to difficulty

maintaining

find the source of these troubling feelings. I'm having dis-

turbing dreams and thoughts, and I'm preoccupied with a desire to

be in the alien dimension, instead of here."

My desire to escape physical life disturbed Barbara. She suggested, "Let's put

you

into hypnosis

and take

a look at

your recent contacts and journeys."

Once I was resting comfortably, Barbara suggested, "Go back in time. Go back to discover the source of your frustrations." I

immediately became distressed, and Barbara asked

me what I was my response.

experiencing.

"I don't live in

pause,

I

We

were both surprised by

the physical world

all

of the time." After a

continued, "I just saw myself walking in an arid,

My Alien Emerges, Feet First

121

on sand and and surrounded by large boul-

uninviting, unfamiliar place. I'm walking

rocks the color of red ders of the

same

Barbara asked not.

image.

At

of

I

me if I could identify the area, but I could

not near home."

"It's

planet.

clay,

color."

this point,

I

wondered

I

if it

said, "I've traveled to this place

me knows

below the

exactly where

surface.

I'll

be safe

am. But

I

need

my

I

sion halfway between the Earth

and somewhere

"I'm

are

you

like a

to go

physical body.

uncomfortable and frightened.

"What

seemed

my

young bird

just kicked

destination while part of

dinary was happening, and

mind could handle

I

out of

me

anxiety.

is

My felt

else.

its

nest.

Something

I'm

able to

conscious."

wasn't sure that

My

extraor-

my conscious

the experience.

Barbara was trying to control hypnosis, but she had left

I

feeling?" Barbara asked.

body was now throbbing with

had

deep

dimen-

to be in a

somewhere between dimensions and may not be get to

a part

Barbara's control.

left

from

far distant

many times; I

this

clearer

there."

With those words, part of me thoughts were

was even on

went deeper and received a

no

my

experience through

influence over the part of me that

my body. I was distressed; my body was trembling. I

had never experienced the interdimensional place sciously',

and was

like

an astronaut

newly discovered planet.

I

'con-

on who didn't know what to expect. just arrived

Barbara began to speak, and

I

tried to focus

a

on the

"You saw yourself walking in an arid place. Please stop what you are doing and look at yourself as you appear there. Describe your appearance to me.

sound of her

"I rest

voice.

can only see

of my body."

my feet and legs.

I

don't want to see the

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122

"Why and

are

you reacting so strongly

your

feet

legs?"

"I don't

want to look! I'm

"Please relax

be

to seeing

afraid to look at

and be calm. You

are

them

what you

again!"

are.

Don't

afraid." I

was

still

trembling in terror, and refused to accept Bar-

my body. Although in numb and couldn't speak. I did significance of looking at my feet and

bara's repeated suggestions to describe

a deep hypnotic

state, I felt

not understand the

but

legs,

my

reaction

was so strong that nearly two years

would pass before I could view that "Let's talk

reestablish I

our

must go below. I

image again.

about the rocky place," Barbara link.

I

surface."

now, I'm on the surface; but

I

cannot tolerate being above ground very

won't be able to breathe

underground

said, trying to

"You were walking on the

said slowly, "Yes. Right

long.

startling

if I

don't get to the safe

area."

"Inhale deeply.

Draw air into your lungs. You will be safe."

An unfamiliar voice exclaimed, "I

don't use lungs!"

Barbara was surprised by

sharp response, and

this

understood that she was no longer speaking to me. But she continued to maintain our communication link.

"How

do you breathe?"

My right hand moved to the side of my neck; and, in the deep, strange-sounding voice,

I

said, "Air passes

these small openings. They're like

There was a long pause. thinking, but

I

I

don't

through

gills."

know what Barbara was

suspect she needed

some time

to recover

her composure. She had to be wondering who, or what,

was speaking to

her.

The voice was

so different from

mine, and had an angry, unfriendly tone. Eventually interrupted the silence.

it

My Alien Emerges, Feet First "We do not need to

discuss

1 23

my appearance."

"Are you feeling uncomfortable?"

"A part of

me

very anxious to get below, where

My

But

there, with you.

is

I

this part

of

me

is

can breathe comfortably."

physical distress was obvious to Barbara; she was

becoming concerned about ject yourself

you need

to

down? Are

do

others, like you, nearby? If so,

be with them?"

"Oh! Help me!"

had returned, but "Tell

my well-being. "Can you pro-

me, Jim,

I

I

screamed in agony.

was gasping

for

My normal voice

air.

how do you feel?" Barbara asked, speaking

my name. c

Tm confused, divided. My physical body

but I'm also in another body, and

where

I

need to

"Can you be "I

am

right

I

is

with you,

can't get to the place

be."

in

two places simultaneously?"

now! I'm

different dimensions!"

I

in

two

two

different bodies. I'm in

was shouting

at her.

Barbara maintained her self-control, and instructed to breathe deeply

and

relax. "If

you become too uncom-

fortable in your interdimensional form,

your physical body. But

if

you can return

you can continue

to

to function in

both worlds, we have an excellent opportunity

to learn

more about your total being." I focused on her words, imagining them as hands reaching out to rescue me, and tried to calm "While you're in your

me

helpful myself.

other body, I'd like to ask

you

some questions. Can you answer me?" Her voice was my lifeline; I wanted her to keep talking. "If youre a human hybrid being, why are you in

human

form?"

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human life by choice. I was forced to participate in the reproductive program. That's why I've been in a human body." "Why are aliens populating this planet with human "I'm not in

hybrid beings?" "This

a very small planet.

is

main

Its

attractions are

water and vegetation, which produce valuable energies and resources.

My ancestors arrived here at least ten thousand

years ago,

and

their race

my

ment. Also,

is still

more

environ-

its

The

ancestors weren't very beautiful.

hybridization of humans with a

adapting to

my ancestral race is creating

beautiful species, or race;

and

facilitating

it's

our

adaptation to the Earth's atmosphere." "Will others of your ancestral species be able to live here like

you do?"

Although both of my bodies were functioning in two dimensions.

of Barbara's voice, but old

—

if I

expected to

and

I

fast

didn't reach the die.

My

was gasping

was clinging

approaching

was

I

to the

my panic

still

sound

thresh-

underground destination soon,

lungs

for

I

distressed,

air. I

I

felt as if

they were collapsing,

shouted,

"Somebody has

me in. Please, let me in!" Barbara told me to project

my

myself to

to let

destination.

"Follow your usual way of entering the underground area. You've traveled back and forth before, haven't you?" Yes,

to

do

while

how

I

had traveled here

this at will," I

was

I

before. "But

said. "I've

I

don't

never tried to travel here

active in the conscious world.

to maintain

know how

my human body

I

have to

know

while I'm in this

dimension." "Are you usually assisted by alien beings to this dimension?"

when you travel

My Alien Emerges, Feet First "Yes.

about

I

think

before."

it

so."

Then

The

aliens

I

hesitated. "I've never

had always

ment between dimensions, and

my

125

thought

my move-

facilitated

mind had

conscious

never questioned their methods.

"Focus on your previous journeys, and maybe you'll slide through." I

tried to follow her suggestion, but

me

She asked

respond.

how

to find out

dimension. But

I

was

nothing happened.

The stress was too

great. Instead,

figures approaching. They're not

me

conveyed

aliens

feeling claustrophobic I

to their

and couldn't

exclaimed, "I see

human!" Abruptly,

my

human body stopped trembling, and my breathing returned to normal.

Did an body?

I

alien rescue

don't

team send

at Barbara.

said, "I

underground

She asked dimension.

I

me

facility,

my

the answer, but

pointed.

I

entrance.

my

eyes

and

and I was

I

was trying

I

want

to go."

thoughts about the other

me had

traveled to

why

I

wasn't

Some part of me must have

my conscious mind was stymied.

permitted to enter.

had gone It

where

couldn't understand

allowed to enter the safe place.

"I wasn't

opened

travel interdimensionally.

to share

I

burst completely

a beautiful sight,

was sure that part of

another world, but

known

I

I

office.

need to learn to

to enter the

was

face

be back in her

thrilled to I

Her

my human

back to

know what happened, but

out of the deep hypnotic trance.

looked

me

I

didn't get in."

I

was disap-

to the right location, but hadn't gained

seemed that

couldn't enter the alien facility

I

while conscious. "Maybe

I

couldn't have tolerated a pro-

longed simultaneous awareness of two dimensions.' I

closed

tired

my eyes, and Barbara allowed me to

and needed

to rest.

I

assumed

drift. I

was

that the session

was

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and was thinking how wonderful

over,

there in Barbaras office.

"You just glimpsed the

I

it

watching a

movie

screen,

at

say,

Now you'll be able now

it

as if you're

and you'll understand more."

was back under hypnosis again, but instead of follow-

ing her suggestion, signal."

I felt

I

said,

"I'm controlled by some kind of

such a desperate need to speak that

shouting again. "I need to say something!

from take

just to lie

heard her soft voice

rocky place.

without anxiety. Look

to look at

I

Then

arid,

was

it

aliens

through their

signals.

The

I

I

started

receive messages

signals are used to

me places. I've done most of my work for the aliens as

a result of receiving messages through their signals."

The

aliens

have

me many times. I when they signal me while I'm

called, or signalled,

know what happens asleep. My conscious mind may deny these calls and treat them as dreams; but when I wake up after these calls, I have memory fragments, emotional residue, or physical discomdon't

fort. I

These are clues that the

aliens

remember more about

my

signal or transport

resist,

when they

me while I'm conscious. If I hear signals become very drowsy,

as if drugged. Sev-

messages have instructed

me to lie down. If I

while I'm active, eral times, the

have been present.

alien contacts

I

the drowsiness and the messages intensify until

no longer function.

A

few times

I

can

I've received signals at

work, and have had to leave the office and go home.

heard the same signals the afternoon that

I

I

had

developed the

high fever and had to be hospitalized.

Barbara guided

about the "I can't

thetize

me

deeper and asked

me to

learn

more

signals.

avoid them. They overpower

my brain and anes-

my mind."

"How are they used to transport you?"

My Alien Emerges, Feet First "When thoughts

drift into the signal,

surroundings. tion

my physical

I'm transported without

and

I

Then my other body

from which the

signal

Wondering how the

is

127

my of my

body,

lose awareness

arrives at the destina-

projected."

signals function,

I

imagined an

alien operator in front of a gigantic control panel.

As

col-

ored lights blinked, the alien transmitted signal beams to

human

hybrids around the world. The beams delivered

instructions to the implants in their bodies, relayed instructions to their brain

respond

which

in turn

—and the hybrids would

like robots.

"Business as usual,"

I

thought aloud.

"What?" "Imagine a caveman walking into his cave and finding a

TV set, tuned to Star Trek. He would be as puzzled as I am, trying to explain the alien signal system."

"You're doing a great job. Please organize your thoughts

and share them with me." Although

I

had received

alien signals so

didn't understand the technology well it.

I

could describe

have taken essence.

my

enough

times,

I

to describe

perceptions. "At times the aliens

my human body and my my other body when the abduc-

entire being,

But they only take

tions are initiated

by a

signal."

asked you to look at a movie screen before. Please

"I

look

my

many

at

it

now."

On the screen when

the alien

my early abductions. The first time, removed me from my bed and transported I

saw

me to the underground laboratory, I remembered feeling as had two bodies. "One was physical, and it remained on the bed. The body on the examining table had all my human senses, but no physical properties. The alien entered if I

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

128

my bedroom tion.

I

couldn't

my

body for the abducbe transported while my body was at its

to prepare

physical

normal temperature." Barbara encouraged going to say didn't

me to say more, but what I was seem plausible. "Before transforming my

molecular structure, the alien reduced

my body

tempera-

ture. I think my physical body was just about frozen before my other body was conveyed to the alien laboratory." "How was this abduction different from any before?" I

wondered out loud. The inner voice promptly replied, "You was a learning experience.

participated! This abduction

When

the teacher chilled and prepared your

human body

for the transportation of your interdimensional body,

you

were conscious. Your limited awareness perceived the teacher as an enemy, but

it

was simply teaching you how to

human body." What a totally new perspective. I

disengage from your

never suspected that

was a willing student of interdimensional travel that

I

first

night.

Barbara asked as

many

me to replay the movie. "Watch the movie

times as necessary. Gain as

much

understanding

of this experience as possible."

As

I

replayed the scenes,

awkward, and of my being.

I

my human body felt heavy and

began to think of it

as a

temporary aspect

"My other body, the one the alien delivered to

my permanent body." "That's a very important idea. Tell me about your other

the examination table,

must be

body." I

didn't

first.

in

want

to say

it. I

had

to pause

and inhale deeply

"My permanent body looks like the aliens, and it lives

both dimensions!"

With

these words,

issue that

I

finally

penetrated to the core of the

had been haunting me.

I

was so busy processing

My Alien Emerges, Feet First this

thought that

ued,

of Barbara s voice.

29

contin-

I

my permanent body, and it will live beyond my When my human life ends, my alien body

"It's

human

lost track

I

1

lifetime.

will return to the other dimension."

When Barbara snapped her fingers at the count of three to

end the regression,

did.

The

ing;

I

didn't feel refreshed, as

idea of my interdimensional

wanted

regression.

gone too

I

I

body felt overwhelm-

deny everything that had happened

to

told myself that this time

far. I

usually

I

couldn't share

it

in the

my imagination had

with Barbara, but

felt

I

deep

disappointment with myself.

As

turned out of her driveway,

I

loneliness.

me.

Vm

No

alone in the world.

all

human body and

overdone world?

my

it

I

longed to escape

my

made

the

I

How

My imagination

could you journey

had

really

another

to

experience two dimensions simulta-

demanded.

During mensional

this disturbing self

ened to look

at

emerged,

hypnotic session,

feet first

—but

I

my

and bony

conscious

mind

legs

were a shocking

who had

left

fright-

scaly rep-

sight,

wasn't ready to see the rest of

like the slender alien

interdi-

was too

my interdimensional body. The

tilian feet

nothing

one will believe

highway on autopilot, completely

surroundings.

this time.

How could you

neously?

No

dwell in the other world.

familiar turn onto the

unaware of

I

was overcome by

I

one will understand me.

my

and

it.

It

was

my human

body during the first regression. Nearly two years passed before I read the transcript of this regression, and even then I had difficulty with some of it. ical

into

It

wasn't until

order that

I

I

read

finally

all

the transcripts in chronolog-

understood

my self-discovery process

alien heritage.

and

how

my

this session

acceptance of

fit

my

130 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

The

me

sight of

my

interdimensional feet and legs forced

to take another important step toward integrating the

my hybrid being. After this, I could finally ask myself, "Was the 'alien' who left my body during the first regression simply one of my interdimeninterdimensional aspects of

sional forms?"

12

Hi, BARBARA. Something important It

was a year and

a half after

my

is

happening!"

interdimensional regres-

knew I'd been traveling interdimensionally in my sleep, but I didn't know if I was being escorted by alien beings, or if sion.

I

I

was traveling on

me

aliens to take

their

my

own. For weeks,

I'd

been asking the

back to the underground lab and show

complete operation. Each night before

would

my request out loud. verify my theories, and

state

dence to

specific areas of their

describe

When

them I

in this

I

felt

were willing to

was

I

wanted them

I

searching for evito

show me

engineering facilities so

I

could

book.

my routine

of asking to be taken to their confident that I could accept whatever they

started

dimension,

human

falling asleep,

I

still

me

reveal.

By

this time,

I

was well into the writ-

wanted concrete evidence of their existence. But after a few weeks of this, I began to feel tired and confused. Fragmented memories of alien contacts were piling up in my conscious mind, and I couldn't piece ing and feeling confident.

them

I

just

together.

131

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

132

My opening remark was enough to send Barbara scrambling for her tape recorder. "Please hold your thoughts

while

get set up.

I

seemed

to

must record

I

this."

know when I was about

esting alien contacts.

to

tell

Barbara always her about inter-

heard her mutter, "Jim Walden, Tele-

I

phone Conversations," as she inserted a familiar tape. Then I heard excerpts of my voice, from previous conversations, as she searched for the

My

end of the

thoughts drifted, and

inventory of the

memory

I

tape.

make

started to

fragments that

cuss with her. There were several, but

I

a mental

wanted

to dis-

one stood out;

it

involved an interdimensional journey to a small farm. I

was very familiar with the

lived

My grandparents had

scene.

and worked on the farm

for nearly sixty years,

and

many of my favorite childhood memories took place there. I

was always

parents,

thrilled to

be allowed to stay with

and more than

willing to

do chores,

my grand-

like

feeding

the animals or pulling weeds in their bountiful garden.

The farm was rest

peaceful, quiet,

of the world. To me,

forests

it

and insulated from the

was an enchanted

surrounded the farmhouse, the crop

place.

fields,

Deep

and the

hay meadows, providing an endless playground for me.

When I went into

the

woods alone

sometimes looked over glimpse of the the

grown-ups

"little

talk

my

to pick huckleberries,

I

shoulders and strained for a

people."

Now

and then

about them, and

I

wanted

I

had heard

to

meet the

elusive beings.

My grandfather passed away in 1979, and two years later my grandmother sold the farm. I was sorry to see it leave the family, but I was busy with graduate school and my career

farm

—and George, the new owner, seemed

as

much as I

did.

to love the

He had lived his entire life in Detroit,

Something's Happening, Barbara!

133

Michigan, and had dreamed of living on a small farm in the Ozarks, growing fresh food and beautiful flowers.

But George never moved to the farm.

buying

it

out for a few years, hoped that

he became

ill;

his health

would improve, and

he rented

Just after

it

when he

visited

could.

However, neither George's health nor the farm improved.

As

rental property, the old

house and the

fields deterio-

rated rapidly. I

give

called in May 1986 and He proposed a trade. "I'll exchange for your new log home on

was surprised when George

asked,

"Would you

like the

you the farm

in

farm?"

Table Rock Lake. I'd like to spend

my

watching the lake from your front porch."

dream of living on

a farm,

and he

remaining days I

said he

asked about his

would never be

strong enough to grow a garden. "The farm needs you," he said. "You're the

By

that

fall,

who will care for it as lovingly as Of course, I accepted his offer.

only one

your grandparents

did."

the house was fully restored, and the fields

were cleared, mowed, and occupied by beautiful horses. often thought that

for restoring the farm's dignity. For the next five years

spent

my

become

weekends and summers

lost in

many people

at the farm.

time there. Other people loved

consulted

me

I

it,

I

I

would

too,

and

there for psychic readings and

attended group healing sessions, which Five years later,

I

my grandfather would be proud of me

sold the farm to a

facilitated.

I

happy young

family.

My new job as a city administrator consumed most of my time and energy, and

I

could no longer maintain the large

The family fell in love with the house, the fields, and the woods on their first visit. They talked about cows, chickens, and living there for garden and keep the farm looking

the rest of their

lives. I

was glad

pretty.

to sell

it

to them.

134 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"Okay." Barbara's voice interrupted state the date.

I

want

"Sunday, March

my reverie. "Please

to be sure we're recording."

5,

1995."

"Okay, we're recording. What's happening, Jim?" "I don't

only remember isolated segments. But

I

am

all

experiencing

with

I

of the familiar side effects of contacts

aliens.

Barbara

knew that by "side

effects"

I

meant I was

feeling

confused, and frustrated.

tired,

been asking the

"I've

ground I

of my recent dream encoun-

know where some

ters begin or end.

aliens to take

me

to their under-

facilities."

knew

this

would

surprise

kept talking. "I want to

processing operations before ing one of

my

and alarm

her, so

I

quickly

know the truth about their human I

finish the manuscript.

abductions they showed

me

Dur-

decapitated

bodies and severed limbs, and I've never understood why. I've

had

several encounters during the past

two or three

weeks, and I'm emotionally exhausted."

Before

this,

Barbara and

I

had never discussed the

human "processing facilities," as I called them. However, I that many abductees had reported frightening trips

knew

to subterranean facilities, sights of

where they had seen gruesome

dismembered human bodies. Some abductees

were convinced that aliens consume humans as nourishment. I

I

just

wanted to know the

truth.

could hear the concern in Barbara's voice as she asked

me

"What do you remember about your encounters?" don't seem to have a lot of clear information. I seem

to go on. "I

to

be collecting some important information, but

you'll

have to extract

it

from

my subconscious."

I

think

Something's Happening, Barbara!

135

Barbara understood. "You mean you'll have to go into

understand what's been happening and

hypnosis to

you want." She asked

retrieve the information

her

more about

me

to tell

my dream encounters.

"Friday night or early Saturday,

I

dreamt of the farm

don't remember why I was there, or remember what happened. standing in front of the house and looking toward a large pond on the opposite ridge. A narrow valley separates the house and the pond. Near the pond I saw something unusual; it looked like a

where

I

used to

live. I I

huge

television."

"Can you describe "It cles,

looked

in

it

more

detail?"

like a gigantic television screen

or antennae, attached to

it. I

don't

with tenta-

know if I went

into

remember looking at it from a distance, but when I try to see it more closely, the memory fades. I couldn't figure out why such a strange-looking object would be sitting in it. I

a pasture."

"Can you remember anything "Yes,

I

had

a conversation with

else?"

someone. They explained

that aliens are attracted to the area because of the spring water."

I

was

referring to the local springs that

had been

giv-

ing water since the land had been settled. "It seems that aliens require a supply of

"You may be "I've never

thought about

what they needed water "Yes,"

Barbara

mented over nection ponds."

is,

pure water."

right."

lakes

but

said.

it

I

said,

wondering

for.

"Many

and ponds.

many

before,"

sightings have been docuI

don't

know what

the con-

farmers have seen crafts over their

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

136

"I still

distance, facility.

have a mental image of this large thing. I

wondered

could be the doorway to an alien

if it

But when I looked

Barbara asked

was just

that

a

directly at

it, it

just

looked

like a

television screen."

huge

It

From

it

if I

knew why it was

had landed

there,

yesterday, I'm not sure. invisible to

human

underground

My alien taught

in the pasture. "No.

near the pond. At

sitting there,

but

after thinking

may be there

It

eyes.

Could

it

all

assumed

first, I

about

it all

day

of the time, but

be the portal to an

facility?"

contacts and interdimensional journeys have

me to question everything. Things may not be what

they seem to be. "It didn't look like a spaceship, but for

some

reason, this image caused

me to wonder if aliens had

been established in the area for a long time."

"Did you have any contacts with

aliens while

you

lived

on the farm?" "No. tacts

I

don t have any conscious memories of alien con-

while

I

lived there.

until the year after

"Was the object "It

was near the

clearing

on the

bered that cramps;

I

I

I

never even thought about aliens

sold the farm."

on the

in the water or

side of the

pond.

It

ridge, next to the pond."

had awoken from

told Barbara

pond?"

just sitting in a

Suddenly I remem-

dream with painful

leg

muscles in the back of

my

this

how the

side of the

was

had turned into hard, painful knots.

legs

"All

sore

day Saturday,

I felt

from the cramps.

I

out knowing why, and house. So

We

I

went

I

out of

and

my legs

were

was emotionally disturbed, withI

wanted

went out of town

to

sorts,

to get

for the

an outlet mall, where

I

disturbed thoughts for a few hours."

away from

day with some

was able

my

friends.

to escape

my

Something's Happening, Barbara!

Barbara asked

if I felt

better after leaving

"The drowsiness and the by late evening, I had

abandoned

at ten,

home. and

signals intensified all day;

difficulty staying awake.

my

137

resistance,

I

went

and asked the

to

bed

aliens to

me underground." "How do you feel this morning?"

take

"Almost helpless.

noon;

I

couldn't get out of bed until after

I

think something major must have happened dur-

ing the night."

"Did you

feel

drugged?"

"Definitely. I'm ing,

and

in a stupor.

still

can't control

I

My mind isn't function-

my psychomotor skills."

"Do you remember any dreams from last "Yes.

I

was naked, and

Barbara asked

I

night?"

was very embarrassed about

why I was

naked, but

I

didn't

it."

know. Then

she asked, "Where were you?" "I

was

in a tank, or a

gealed blue liquid.

It

pond,

filled

looked and

had some type of hose

in

with a slightly con-

felt like half-set gelatin.

my mouth, but

I

don't

This encounter must be very significant."

I

I

know why.

remembered

blowing through the hose, rather than breathing through it.

"I don't

"What "At

understand any of this."

position were

first I

into the blue liquid.

happened

you

moved around I

in

—

vertical or horizontal?"

the tank, but eventually,

have no idea where

I

size

It

sank

went, or what

after that."

"How big was the tank? Could you swim in "No.

I

it?"

wasn't large enough for swimming.

of a very large stock tank; and

it

seemed

It

was the

to be oval-

shaped."

"Now, ries

try to

remember

of this experience?"

—do you have any other memo-

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138

Her question suddenly brought more fragments to the surface. "I do. Later, I was near some muddy, flowing water, and I walked into a narrow valley surrounded by "Yes!"

steep

hills. I

looked ahead and sensed that people had lived

in the valley a long time ago.

into the valley. I

wanted

I

didn't

want

to go farther

to leave immediately."

"What did you do?" "I turned around and started to leave; but as I turned, two

men came toward me.

my hand

extended

Their faces looked human, so

to greet them.

I

But they couldn't shake

we do; their fingers were curled and they couldn't straighten them out."

hands

like

"Were

their fingers curled under?"

"Curled under? Yes, and their skin was rough. Their

hands had a rough

texture."

"Please, Jim, continue

ument I

all

could

your description.

We need to doc-

possible information about these beings."

now remember it all clearly. One of them looked

old; the other

was younger. "They were wearing

they looked like

"They looked

hill

disguises;

people."

like scruffy hill

people?"

They looked shabby. One of them asked me if I was related to my father, who's dead. I told them I was, and we started talking about him. That's my last clear memory "Yes.

of the encounter."

"Your the two

last

memory involves

discussing your father with

men?"

"I can't recall

anything

else.

But our

talk has restored

my

My mind is clearing." "What does your inner voice say about these memories? Have you acquired any new information about the aliens consciousness.

or their facilities?"

Something's Happening, Barbara!

139

me their facilities I know I am assuming some

"IVe been asking the aliens to show

and

reveal

risks. If

of

my

more information.

I'm taken underground,

But

safety.

I

I

don't have any guarantee

thought that the aliens wanted

me

to

finish the book and that they wanted me to find some more information to include in the book." Barbara didn't respond, and I hoped she was agreeing

with me.

been used

"I feel as if I've

like a

fisherman's net.

swept through these encounters and loaded up with

I've

information.

My brain is full, and

I

can't

my bal-

maintain

ance with this information overload."

"What should we do?" "I guess I should come

to see

you and

let

you empty the

net."

Barbara agreed.

The fragments of might be able alien beings

I

needed another hypnotic regression.

my

recent encounters indicated that

to retrieve

and

some new information about

their facilities.

We

I

the

decided to meet at her

house the following weekend. Before hanging up, Barbara added, "Leg cramps

an abduction aftereffect

clue.

According to

my

may be

research, they are an

of alien contacts. Leg cramps result from tempo-

rary potassium depletion, which occurs during interdi-

mensional encounters. After

I

documented

I've

promised to

eat

it

many times."

more bananas, she added,

"Please monitor your blood pressure after an encounter, too.

Blood pressure fluctuations are another side

effect

of

alien interference."

After talking with Barbara, excited about the weekend,

conscious and explore the

uncanny

and

my

feeling that

I

I

felt

much

anxious to

better.

unload

recent encounters. Also,

would discover

interdimensional self this time.

I

was

my subI

more about

had

my

140 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

While shaving the next morning,

I

looked

at

my

mus-

tache and thought aloud, "I'm tired of trimming you."

and my mustache fell into the my pale upper lip for the first time in more

razor seemed to take over, toilet.

As

I

saw

The

than twenty-five years,

I felt

naked.

» °%ffl*W

Kyle AND just as the

the office early Friday afternoon, and arrived sky.

Hugs and warm

from Barbara and Tim, her husband, made the long

greetings trip feel

I left

sun slipped below the western

worthwhile. "You look happy and healthy," Barbara said.

"Yes, I'm feeling well.

wouldn't be

alive

Barbara and

Tim was

today

And I'm happy to

if

see you.

Jane hadn't given

Tim were

I

probably

me your name."

enjoying happy, productive years.

writing a novel; Barbara's research was fascinating,

and her enthusiasm

inspiring.

I

settled into a

comfortable chair

wood stove, and recalled my first visit, three years ear"When I sat in this chair the first time, my eyes were red

near the lier.

and swollen from be

killed

by

aliens

crying.

any

I

day.

was a victim then, and expecting

Now my eyes

are

my portals

interdimensional world that few humans have glimpsed this time,

When

to

to

an

—and

I'm here to learn more about that world."

Barbara has something disturbing on her mind, she

develops certain nervous mannerisms: she smiles and repeatedly swallows and clears her throat; she wrings her hands and

paces the room, pretending to look for something. She started

141

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

142

doing

She

all

that now,

said, "I

might

and

asked her what was on her mind.

I

had an encounter

as well tell you. Jane

Wednesday night, and she thinks you were with the

come

This didn't

accounts

similar

complete surprise; we'd heard

before.

An Iowa woman who was

abducted from a farmhouse in 1992 was the seeing

me

she said, a

me and detail,

first

to report

during an abduction. In addition to the

aliens,

human man, matching my description, was pre-

when

sent

aliens."

as a

When the woman described my house in convincing

she was abducted.

the interior features of

Barbara became alarmed. She prepared a video

lineup of male faces, and asked the

woman to

identify the

one who'd been with the aliens during her abduction. The

woman selected my image immediately. Next, a man in Louisiana reported a similar Over the next few months, the tinued to grow. face

I

list

encounter.

of "Jim" sightings con-

had no idea why people were seeing

my

during their abductions. The aliens seemed to be using

my image, and I was deeply concerned and confused by it. Barbara continued,

nervous. "There's more.

still

when you

noticed something different tache "I

is

arrived.

I

Your mus-

gone."

shaved

would upset

it

off last week,"

I

said,

wondering why that

her.

when did you shave it off?" "Monday morning. I don't know why. "Exactly

and impulsively decided to cut it

every morning. I've had

Barbara encounter.

said, "Jane's It's

surrounded by

it off. I

was

looked

sick every

it,

you know."

morning

since her

sickness.

During

table, covered,

She saw you standing

the table, from the waist up;

at

tired of trimming

form of morning

was restrained on a

light.

just

for twenty-five years,

been

a peculiar

this encounter, she

it

I

and

at the foot

and you were naked!"

of

Old Big Head Shows Up

"What happened?" «T> I

143

asked, embarrassed.

I

»

m not sure.

"If

man

he had a mustache, the naked

couldn't have

been me." Just as

I

phone

said this, the

rang.

When

Barbara

said,

"Hi, Jane," the rest of us exchanged surprised glances.

After a pause, Barbara said, "Jane, Jim's sitting right here. Please repeat to

handed the phone

to

him what you

just said to me."

She

me.

"What's up, Jane?"

"The man you.

at the foot

He looked just

of the table couldn't have been

you, but he was clean-shaven.

like

added that the

didn't have a mustache." She glasses,

new

while

I

usually wear contacts.

pair of glasses, Jane,

this week."

We

and

were both

I

haven't

silent.

I

I

man wore have a

replied, "I

worn

didn't

tell

He

my

contacts

her that

I'd

my mustache two days before her encounter. When I got off the phone, I said, "Jane's report must be

shaved

an omen; I'm supposed to be here. The

summoned me for this regression.

I

aliens

seem

to have

bet we'll discover

some

important information tomorrow."

We stayed up talking for another hour or two. We marveled at Jane's ability to

but we were to sleep

all

wondering

abductions, or

if

if

Is

I

was truly participating

the aliens were just using

The next morning from Jane?

remember such accurate

details

rather unnerved by the whole thing.

I

my

I

went

in alien

image.

asked Barbara, "Have you heard

she feeling better?"

Jane had already called to report that she was feeling

much better.

Barbara added, "If she's up to

it,

she'd like to

meet with us tomorrow."

Now that my concern about Jane was relieved, I was anxious to explore my interdimensional visit to the old farm. I

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

144

with a casual attitude

this regression

approached

—

all

my

traumatic experiences with aliens seemed to be in the distant past. Barbara asked Kyle if he'd like to observe,

eagerly accepted her invitation.

We

and he

didn't anticipate that

anything unusual would happen. The video and recording

equipment was

set

up

in Barbara's

"summer

tled into a pallet of cushions,

and entered

notic cloud. Within minutes,

I

"Please begin "I

seem

when you

"I

move

nes-

in hypnosis.

comfortable, Jim."

feel

filled

spoke slowly. intelligence.

in that void,

and when you're

forward."

want to discuss

mind was

I

to be lost."

"Become comfortable ready,

was

parlor."

my familiar hyp-

my recent experiences at the farm." My

with unfamiliar thoughts and images, and

"I see

something

at the

farm;

it's

a

I

form of

A radar screen comes to mind—I can't think of

a better analogy.

It's

a large object,

which

is

actually

under

the ground."

"Study the object

it

in

and

and

carefully,

my dream, but then looked

it

appears

much

like a

it

me about it."

mind, but

huge television screen. Also,

larger than in

my dream. The

It's

it

now

about sixteen

object was clear in

my

difficult to describe.

Barbara asked

me to continue.

round and

"It's

saw

I

appeared to be above ground,

to eighteen feet in diameter."

Earth.

tell

a large circular object, deep within the Earth.

"It's

flat

on

top,

and anchored deep

On the bottom, it tapers to

may have been

in the Earth for a

in the

a point, like a toy top.

It

thousand years or more.

been modified or changed in some way during the

But

it's

last

hundred

years. Similar objects are planted in the Earth

Old Big Head Shows Up

around the

in other strategic locations. They're located

globe, like

benchmarks

—they

facilitate

145

the aliens'

commu-

nications somehow."

With

my left

that last ear.

As

comment, the

usual,

it felt

familiar pain struck

as if

behind

someone was kicking

the

my head with a booted foot. couldn't speak. Barbara let me rest, and the pain slowly subsided. When we resumed, explained, "I was getting too side of

I

I

close

—

there's

something I'm not supposed to divulge

about those objects." I

couldn't

struck, but

remember what could

I

still

I'd

been saying when the pain

see the strange images.

"The

use these things to survey surrounding areas and

communication. They're processing,

—

facilitate

receiving,

and transmitting information. They're

underground

"They

like gigantic brains

aliens

like

satellites.

facilitate

aliens travel, they

interdimensional travel, too.

When

maintain their bearings and find their

destination with the help of these buried objects, which are

located in an intricate network around the globe." to

seemed

be struggling to retrieve information buried deep in

brain. to

I

It

was

like seeing a person's face

remember

their

and not being able

name.

"There's a numerical system involved. face

is

The

Earth's sur-

divided into grids. Energies flow along the grid lines,

and each grid visualize grid

is

designated by a number. To travel, aliens

numbers

—and

their bodies are transported

to the destination that correlates with those

Sometimes, people see objects in the

my voice fell silent. I my vocal cords were frozen.

words, tence;

my

sky...."

numbers.

With those

couldn't complete the sen-

146 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

Barbara instructed event. Although we

knew she'd return

me

to

move

to the next significant

couldn't safely pursue this topic now,

to

I

it later.

"I'm looking at the Earth from a distance, from outer space,

and

tions about

a

I

can see that

our world." With

complex network of

planet

we have some

inaccurate assump-

my interdimensional eyes, I saw

alien technology criss-crossing the

—multi-colored, flowing

energies covering the entire

globe. "I'm seeing the Earth's nervous system. This planet

more than a large ball of matter.

It's

an

intelligent

is

communi-

cations system." felt

I

an inner

my human

conflict, as

brain tried to

now flowing into my awareness. Somehow Barbara knew that part of me had left my human body. "You're viewing the planet through your process the interdimensional images

interdimensional eyes, aren't you? Please use those eyes to

Which body are you

look at yourself.

in?"

My voice, gestures, and mannerisms changed abruptly. "My favorite one, of course." "What do you mean?" body often, so I'm really enjoying myself. This is my natural body and being in it is like stripping off all my masks and costumes. It's the way an "I don't get to

be in

this

—

actor feels after he leaves the stage,

and makeup. In

this

body, I'm

and removes

his

wig

free."

me what you look like." The words seemed to come into my consciousness from "Look at your form.

a far distant

Tell

—and long, too — mind

this time,

I

wasn't afraid to see

my interdimensional body. "My feet are long and slender.

My

toes are

than toes

my human I

they're at least six inches longer

toes. They're

usually wear. They're

not

more

like

those ugly

pointy,

human

and have more

Old Big Head Shows Up joints

—ten or

twelve.

I

don't use

them much, but

147

they're

really fun."

"Please continue."

"In this body,

I

limber and loose.

have a very I

flexible skeletal structure.

can move about

freely.

I

I'm

like to stretch

out and be comfortable."

"What

is

the

most comfortable position

"I really prefer to

be upright.

It's

for you?"

the easiest

way to move

around."

"What does your

Could you describe

face look like?

your head?"

"My head is larger than most," I said proudly. The size of

my head seemed to make me special. "Why is "It's

it

larger?"

larger because I'm old.

So

many young ones

being produced now. But I'm really old. for thousands of years." ate the significance

many new know that."

"Can you

tell

long ago? Please

really

been around

wanted Barbara

to appreci-

of my age. "We're changing things and

producing others to

I

I've

are

me tell

hybrid strains. But I'm

old. I'd like

about your culture and your species

me what

it

was

like

when you were

young."

"When

I

was young, we controlled everything here on

We were the ultimate authority, and were never rebuked. Now our control has been diminished we no

Earth.

—

longer have absolute power. We've diluted our authority by hybridizing our species.

"I'm one of the few who can trace their existence back to a pristine time

Now

when humans were

a very

low

life-form.

we're gradually passing the responsibility for

taining

and preserving

this planet

on

to

main-

humans. Contrary

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148

what many of you

to

believe, we're actually relinquishing

control of this planet. This

human

is

hybridization process.

the ultimate result of the

I

truly dislike that term, but

one you can grasp and understand. Personally,

it's

the crossbreeding of my species with a lower

life

resent

I

form."

was seething with anger, but Barbara wanted to keep

I

me

"Did your species decide

talking.

to crossbreed with

humans?"

"We should

rest.

I'm very angry, and

I

prefer to avoid

violence."

Barbara asked gently, "Please

Td

understand your

like to

"Fll give

you an example. In the

races won't exist;

This

means

me why you're

tell

future, separate

one blended race

human

will inhabit the Earth.

that interracial relationships are part of human

—but some humans would

evolution 'purity'

angry.

feelings."

still

like to protect the

of their race.

"I'm speaking as an individual, not as a spokesperson for

my

My

species.

species has

been diluted by crossbreeding

with humans. We're creating an intelligent hybrid race,

which will be capable of perpetuating and preserving life on this planet.

I

understand the process

individual,

I

must mourn the

loss

theoretically,

of

my

species.

but as an

Can you

understand?" "Yes.

I

understand your concerns. But why are you

relin-

quishing control of this planet?"

"Colonization was our original purpose. But

now that it

has been accomplished, the old ones, like myself, are no longer needed. We've shared our intelligence during the

development of the hybrids." "Tell

me how you

feel

about the hybrids. Are you con-

cerned that they won't be able to handle their responsibilities?

Do you see a loss of integrity in them?"

Old Big Head Shows Up

149

"Here you must understand the sense of supremacy that

my being. I'm superior because of my intelligence

governs

and cumulative experience; the hybrids

will never

be as

capable.

When you mix

a color with a clear liquid, the

color

diluted. That's

how

is

diluted

ble to the intelligence of

"Then why to

I

about humans

feel

—

as

forms, their intelligence will never be compara-

life

are

my ancestors."

you relinquishing control of the planet

them?" "A

specific

answer to your question

is

impossible.

We are

discussing an evolutionary process begun thousands of

The master intelligence of my species is still tryperfect hybrid humans, and prepare them to assume

years ago.

ing to

responsibility for this planet."

As

I

spoke these words,

Suddenly,

was

I

I

began to show signs of distress.

burst out of hypnosis.

in shock, trembling,

My eyes were

staring;

and making strange sounds,

I

as if

in pain.

Barbara reacted quickly. "Jim, inhale deeply and

your lungs with fresh

and

relax.

Move

to

air.

Listen to

your cloud and

me

—

fill

close

your eyes

rest there."

When my

me

rest for a

breathing was finally regular again, she

let

few minutes.

My mind was scattered like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. I

was struggling

integrated being has

body

is

what had happened.

to figure out

to talk; speaking helped

a dead end;

me

many

organize

layers,

my

I

needed

"My My human

thoughts.

or forms.

the lowest, least significant, form of

it's

my being. "I

seem

to exist simultaneously in at least three different

forms and dimensions. ical

I

started the regression in

body, and then perceived the body

alien.

That gray

layer

is

just

my phys-

of the slender gray

beyond the physical body

— 150 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

and

that's

who

sion. Next,

I

my body

saw leaving

I

in the first regres-

saw several developmental, or evolutionary,

stages of my being. "I don't

know how many layers there are between the gray

and the entity who just spoke to you. But

alien

that this last

and

he's

one

still

is

out there somewhere,

"You mean Old Big Head I

continued

you

but his

toes aren't graduated; they're

and

reptile."

We all

my description.

his feet are similar to ours,

structure,

tell

a reptile?" Kyle asked.

is

"He's between eight and twelve feet

bone

can

viable. Also... he

still

seems to be some kind of interdimensional

laughed, and

I

apparently the original form of my being

tall.

The

heels of

feet are elongated.

The

of the same length and

all

their multiple joints

make

extremely pliable. His legs aren't like ours.

He

his feet

has knee

but his lower leg bone only has a thin covering of

joints,

muscles and skin."

These were the extremities

I'd

and although they still

before,

glimpsed nearly two years

felt

disturbing,

I

now under-

stood that this was simply an unfamiliar form of my being.

web between his torso and arms, like a bat which can sometimes make him look as if he has wings. "There's a

"His head

is

the shape of a watermelon, large, and elon-

gated horizontally.

rougher than

Most of

his

skin

is

greenish,

and

human skin. His face is reddish, and his body

has hues of red, green, yellow, and orange. His torso looks

humanoid, but

his

and.

I

. .

although

"On is

back has a large

didn't see a

tail, I

finlike

could

feel

appendage,

it.

the larger areas of his body, like his back, the skin

rougher than other areas,

like the insides

of the arms.

His torso has patterns of pointy skin protuberances.

On

and

less

his arms, legs,

pronounced.

and

face, the patterns are smaller

Old Big Head Shows Up

"By the way, did nate

I

mention that

151

this species didn't origi-

on Earth?" Barbara replied.

"Yes,"

"When they arrived, did they take

control of the Earth?"

"Oh,

They demanded absolute supremacy. few of them were present in the earliest

definitely.

However, only a

days here. Only a few interdimensional reptilian astronauts colonized the Earth, and they had difficulty repro-

ducing on

this planet."

"Do you know how

Or what

they lived here?

their

dwellings were like?"

"They lived

in subterranean shelters.

The conditions

in

the Earth's atmosphere threatened their survival, because

they couldn't maintain a constant body temperature."

"Was the

light

uncomfortable for their eyes?"

"Yes, their eyes

were sensitive to

light

but they were

more concerned about temperature shifts. Temperature changes traumatize them more than light." I wondered what technology they had brought with them and how they had adapted mind, Barbara asked,

"Is the

the large top-like objects? "Yes. They're

it

buried

to this planet.

if

reading

my

whole planet networked with

Did the

all

As

aliens install

them?"

over the planet, and they've been

operating for a long time. They function like underground

—

satellites

they're used for guidance

think they're

and communication.

I

some form of energy."

"Perhaps the aliens used this technology to transport you

from your house

to the farm," Barbara said,

and reminded

me of my comments about the numeric grid system. "Yes,

it's all

based on a system of numbers.

interdimensional being

who wanted

location, I'd visualize the

and

in the blink of

an

be

at

were an

to travel to a distant

number of the

eye, I'd

If I

nearest anchor

my destination."

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152

"Perhaps

it's

a transportation system that functions

waves or currents," Barbara

on

said.

"And transforms time and matter," Kyle added. "Yes. It seems to do all those things." Barbara recalled alien signals. "This

may

This

my

description of being abducted by

may be the explanation of those signals.

be the technology they use to transport people

between dimensions." Suddenly, Barbara asked,

now?

means

'Alien

"What should we

call

them

'foreign, strange, or extraterrestriaP

and that doesn't seem appropriate anymore."

We

searched for a better word.

search for a

more appropriate term required us

our ideas about

sider all

wasn't easy, and the

It

to recon-

"aliens."

"Maybe we should

Finally, Kyle suggested,

call

them

IDBs. .for 'interdimensional beings.'" .

We

laughed, and agreed

come up

was the best term we could

with.

Barbara

through

it

said, "Jim,

all

I

was

really

worried when you went

those changes. Your transformation to Old Big

Head seemed quite traumatic." "I don't remember that part of the I

regression at

do have one lingering impression of

was

like

all.

But

this experience. It

walking to a window, opening the blinds, and

looking through the open window. the interdimensional world

—but

I

I

just

had

already

a glimpse of

know it better."

"We've been assuming that superior beings were trying to take over the planet," Kyle said, "but, according to

Big Head, the opposite

is

really

happening. Could superior

beings really be trying to guide us into a

human I

hybrids will

replied,

manage

Old

new age, in which

the planet?"

"The hybridization process must have

started

long ago. Reptilian astronauts must have experimented

Old Big Head Shows Up

153

human bodies and improving human now they may be approaching the conclusion human program. Consider the rapid advances in

with modifying

But

brains.

of their

our technology, and the increasing number of their contacts

with humans. These

may be

signs that they're relin-

quishing their control."

As

I

said these words, piercing pain stabbed

again. Barbara

head.

and Kyle

sat silently

while

I

my

head

gripped

my

When I was able to speak, I said, "This regression was

a breakthrough. I've learned so

express yet.

scared

me

Now I know who's

so

afraid to look

learn.

And

today that

I

can't

connected to the legs that

much, almost two and

much

years ago. I'm

eventually,

I

no longer

may be

able to

contact the intelligence of other layers of my being, too."

oBWUli

"

When

Kyle and

I

arrived at Barbaras the next morning,

"Good news. Her morning sickness has ended," Barbara said as we came in. "And we have lots to talk about today." As we got settled on the sofa, she said, "Jim, Jane was already

I'd like

there.

you and Jane

to

view you together." As recording equipment,

I

next to each other, so

sit

watched Barbara

I

Finally she

Jim;

fuss with her

to share. Jane, Kyle,

and

I

waited

school children for their teacher's instructions.

was ready to

start.

"Five people reported blue liquid or blue in their

can inter-

recognized the familiar clues that she

had something important like attentive

I

dreams or encounters

you reported being

this

powder episodes

week. You were the

first,

in a pool of blue liquid. What's the

connection?" I

was stunned.

I

couldn't think clearly.

the other four people were

—and

I

asked Barbara

who

saw by Jane's reaction that

she must have been one of them.

Barbara generally maintains

know why I thought

strict confidentiality,

so

I

don't

she would reveal the other names. But in

155

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

156

this case,

I

knew the

and had discussed

others

encounters with them, so she was willing to

heard the names,

tell

me. When

I

understood why Barbara was so excited.

I

All four of these people

during an encounter

had reported seeing

—and

my image

of these encounters had

all

included sexual experiences with

my

had occurred before

these encounters

their earlier

son involved. "What's the connection.

image. Yet most of

I'd .

even met the per-

." I

repeated.

"Go ahead, Jim." The idea of related,

five

people having similar, and possibly

interdimensional experiences in one week

speechless.

One

my earlier comments

of

back to haunt me. In a

"Okay, sure

I

it's

was

showtime!"

feeling.

jector, trying to I

didn't have

I

came

said, "If

can provide the answers."

break the pres-

said, trying to

I

me

My mind felt like a broken movie pro-

rewind and

one

to Barbara

moment of confidence, I'd

you can ask the right questions,

left

clear

fast

forward

same time.

at the

image or thought.

I

looked

bara and said, "Perhaps you should hypnotize

me

at Bar-

before

asking this question."

"Great idea.

I'll

put you into hypnosis and we'll look

your experience in the blue

Our sion.

I

interview

now

liquid."

turned into another hypnosis

ses-

positioned myself on the familiar cloud of cushions,

stretched

my toes and fingers, and began to relax. Jane and

Kyle settled in to observe. As regression of the weekend,

Head

at

we prepared

for

our second

none of us mentioned Old Big

—but I'm sure we were

all

wondering

if

he'd

make

another appearance. Except for a gentle breeze that occasionally ruffled the curtains, the

wafted to

room was

still

and

quiet. Barbara's soft voice

me on waves of fresh spring air. I was feeling light

Return of Old Big Head

and

free

when

I

heard her

share your thoughts with

"The blue

liquids

say,

157

"You're there now. Please

us."

and powders are

for ceremonial pur-

poses, but the ceremonies aren't occurring in the present

time. These recent reports are the

memories of ancient

cer-

emonial events, which these individuals shared thousands of years ago."

deep

My voice trailed off, as if

sleep. In a feeble voice

I

said,

I

were

falling into a

"Memories of ancient

ceremonies are resurfacing in the conscious minds of certain people.

We are now gathering certain individuals who

participated in these ceremonies in ancient times."

know more about this," Barbara said. full circle," I said weakly. "We are assembling people who share certain beliefs about human beings, who understand the evolution of human life. Certain people "I'd like to

"We

are

coming

are being brought together,

ing

and the purpose of this gather-

to reenact, or complete, a process they started a long

is

Now my

time ago. The preparations are almost complete."

voice returned to full volume. "But two or three of the participants are not prepared yet.

them

into our circle before

Then something to be floating scattered. elusive.

I

we can begin the reenactment."

shifted,

and

I

couldn't speak.

and gliding through

to

human

life

profound experiences,

I

and

I

I

seemed

my thoughts were

are preparing to participate

Then my thoughts soon caught up with

thought.

darted away again, and although

them,

space;

I tried to gather and hold them, but they were had impressions of ancient Egypt. These people

have returned in

We must find them and bring

I

could see that they were leading

conscious world.

I

me away from

the

reached out and grabbed another

thought: These people are making conscious connections with

Barbara and interdimensional connections with me.

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158

"Can we back up? I'm

lost in space.

I

don't

know where

to start."

"Please collect your thoughts," Barbara said. "You're

doing a good job. You're working with a very interesting thought wave." I

started to

tell

Barbara what

I'd

seen

—images of ancient

Egypt and the faces of a few familiar Egyptians. through a long, hieroglyphics.

read them.

I

As

narrow I

"I

passed

corridor, with walls covered in

moved through the passageway, I tried to

traveled through an ancient passageway that

leads to the ethereal world.

Do you know what I mean?"

"Yes."

"I've left the

human

dimension.

traveled through the

I

passageway very quickly and couldn't read I'd

all

the scripts.

not seen them for a long time, but they're

among my

memories of early human passage rituals.

I

how

They're prescriptions for

needed to see them again and refresh the

memories of my learning ber

lives.

in previous lives.

to pass through the corridor of

Now I remem-

human

life

and

enter the ethereal world.

"These people lived during the height, or just past the height, of Egyptian strength

and dominance." As

I

said this,

my voice and my mannerisms changed abruptly. Barbara, Jane, and Kyle all observed my rapid transformation. Later, Kyle told me, right away,

With a

"We

recognized Old Big

and knew he was making

regal voice

a comeback."

and demeanor he

said,

"The essence

of my being has inhabited the bodies of many sons.

My

eyes have witnessed

Head

much

human

per-

of the evolution of

humankind, and I've played significant roles in the development of human civilization. As I told you, I can trace my origins to the arrival of intelligence

on

this planet.

Return of Old Big Head

cannot

"I

relate all

moment, however,

I

of the

am

life

in a

cycles of

tomb

159

my being. At the

that represents

one of

my lifetimes. For your benefit, am assimilating the knowlI

human life."

edge of this

we need to know." name of a crane bird

"Please take your time. Tell us what

"During

this lifetime,

and integrated

its

I

took the

stamina and delicacy into

image was preserved

my being. My

in beautiful artifacts. Objects

my image,

were

my honor. Most of these objects have been removed from my tomb and dispersed. I carved and cast in

in

enjoy visiting them, however.

"The remains of a human body also is

but unaccommodating, because

familiar,

passed from

it

glorious lifetime.

ready to

tell

to be recalling fond

to accelerate

missions.

my

essence

memories of a

Then he moved to another topic. "Now I you something about yourselves. I am

sharing this information to confirm your

and

The body

so long ago."

Old Big Head seemed

am

still exist.

own

thoughts

your acceptance of yourselves and your

You share

the intelligence of the master race.

Your ancestors created

human civilizations on this human hybrids?"

planet."

"Are you saying that we're

"Correct. Descendants of the original intelligence pass

human gatherings, and you are living duran important time. Many beings who have lived in

through ing

cyclical

grand moments of your history are reconvening. By grand moments,'

I

mean

times

wealth, enjoyed prestige

when you amassed

material

and power, and experienced

intel-

and technological growth. "The impending gathering will not be like earlier times of dominance and opulence, however. The beings who are

lectual

convening

at this

time will not create monuments, establish

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160

develop

dynasties,

or

together to

make

about

They

civilizations.

decisions.

their true heritage,

They will

which

will

coming

are

discover information

be the basis for deci-

sions about the future of your planet."

Barbara asked for more

"These statements

specifics.

may seem vague. You may not under-

stand them immediately. Please allow

Old Big Head spoke jects.

like a

"A nucleus of people

is

worldwide web, in which each the history of

information will

human

is

me to explain."

monarch addressing

his sub-

joining together, forming a is

a link. These people carry

evolution through time.

Now

this

entering their conscious minds, and they

disseminate

it

to the populace. This will have tremen-

dous impact on the future of humanity. "Within reordered. the

fifty years,

the thinking of

will

be

government of their world. They will accept responsibil-

ity for

the maintenance

"Human

and the preservation of this

hybrids will

recall,

tion about the evolution of will

humankind

Humans will have a great awakening concerning planet.

and disseminate, informa-

human

beings. This message

prepare the general populace for the time

humans will be

when

responsible for the planet."

"How will this be accomplished?" "Like most human changes! As they adjust

their think-

ing, humans will experience conflict. Presently, only a few human minds consciously acknowledge the existence of the master intelligence that developed human intelligence and established human civilization. And before the transference is complete, destructive conflicts may occur among

humans

as they are forced to release old beliefs.

that will represent the last gasp of

human

acceptance of their true progenitors."

However,

resistance to the

Return of Old Big Head

"I

would

restate it?"

like to

understand

this

more

clearly.

161

Can you

Barbara asked.

"In other words,

humans should not

live in fear

of the

return of angry mythological gods. Rather, they must accept the master intelligence of our ancestors, and under-

We When

stand their ancient dependence on that intelligence. are preparing

humans

humans

for

great awakening.

a

accept the truth of their evolution, a

new age

will

begin on Earth."

"What This

is

else

can you

tell

us?

learn

from you.

a rare opportunity for us."

"The interdimensional race trol.

We want to

Our

intelligence

is

human populace, so no

is

no longer

in absolute con-

being dispersed throughout the

leader, or

group of leaders,

will

be

The human hybrid beings, who share the blood of humans and the intelligence of the species, will eventually manage the able to seize control of the entire planet.

planet, without guidance

from

my species

...

I

am

tired.

I

cannot complete more thoughts." "Please, rest. Don't attempt to speak."

Old Big Head

rested for a few minutes, but he

was

still

with us. Kyle passed a note to Barbara, asking, "What's

your name?" Realizing that the session had gone

beyond a normal hypnotic

him

to go

far

regression, Barbara signaled

ahead and ask the question.

Old Big Head responded, "I have many names! I have been known as Tutankhamen. I have been known as Reston. I have been known as Joshua. I have been known as Ali Bar. I have been known as Shi Su. I have been known by many human names.

I

have spoken to your time using

"Could we use these names future?" Kyle asked.

my former names."

to contact you in the

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"You are applying

human

logic.

I

now

can speak to you

from the perspective of any of my embodiments. My former names are just footprints in time, as is your current name. Once

name

my

essence leaves a

human

body,

has no

it

or anchor. For the purposes of this discussion,

located the remains of one lifetime in order to speak to

from that particular perspective. "Yes.

Is this

I

you

clear?"

Thank you. Very clear."

Barbara asked, "Would you clarify something, please?

You

said that certain people will convene

sions about the future of the planet.

and make

deci-

Should we assume

any specific duties? Will we participate in important events?

Are we to inform people of an enemy? Are we

fac-

ing a dangerous entity?"

"Your enemy individuals,

you

is

ignorance! Regarding the gathering of

will recognize

them. They will come and

express their need to communicate.

beyond physical consciousness; some selves

in

conversation; and

some

Some

will perceive

will express will

them-

commit

their

thoughts to paper. You will recognize their need for expression.

They will acquire important information durand feel com-

ing contacts with the master intelligence, pelled to report their experiences. a

They will

participate in

worldwide communications movement, and

passes, their desire to

awaken the populace

will

as

time

become

an obsession."

"Would you like

to

make any other comments?"

"When I spoke of a gathering, I was not implying that you would gather in a room and discuss specific topics. I meant that people would seek your advice, and that you should encourage them to become acquainted with one another. To complete their missions, they

must accept

Return of Old Big Head

and recognize

common

their

lineage.

worked together during other

These people have

and they are

lives,

163

pating in the continuation of a mission.

I

partici-

shall bring forth

within each one of them conscious memories of their interdimensional beings."

"Thank you. Barbara

That's very helpful."

said, "Jane is here today,

know more about

her being.

and she would

Can you

tell

like to

who

her

she

really is?"

"Before

we begin, please

Jane said, mystery.

hybrid?

"My

Am

Or am

identity seems hidden; the real

of pure

I I

clarify the question."

human

Am

I

a

me is a human

a highly evolved contact guide?"

Old Big Head's voice sounded open your mind

stock?

to a

particularly regal.

"May

I

memory?"

Jane nodded, and he continued. "I have referred to the

Egyptian

civilization. In this time,

to certain individuals

They were the the

who were honored above

earlier times.

archives to preserve the

colonized the planet

am

entrusted knowledge all

others.

repositories of the integrity, the purity,

memories of

"I

we

humbled,

those pure ones.

I

—

and

Their brains were used as

knowledge of the masters who had

the original intelligence.

am

overwhelmed, by the greatness of

They were

isolated

from

others,

and

dwelled in temples where there was only order, purity, and

—and thus they preserved the

beauty

or intelligence, of our beings.

original knowledge,

We were interacting with the

and understood how human life could diminish our ancient memories. We wanted the human

physical world,

experience, but

we

we did not want to

lose

our

intelligence.

deposited our memories in the temples, while

rienced the physical and emotional joys of

we

So

expe-

human

life,

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among

including sexual pleasure. You, Jane, were

who were set aside from

those

society in this way.

"Today, computers could accomplish this purpose. In those times,

we used

those

who exhibited the

tures,

and

qualities

embodiment of beauty. Only most beautiful physical forms, fea-

the

were selected for

this

honor. You were

selected at a youthful age, before puberty, to enter isolation

and embody the

intelligence of our beings."

"Thank you. I'm happy to know this." Old Big Head cracked,

and he

respond to

tried to said, "I

shudder and grimace.

It

must go back now."

was a turbulent

ered for several minutes.

but

her,

As

I

my

began to I

shiv-

said,

"The

transition;

my body relaxed,

I

voice

blue pool was in the center of a temple; there were beautiful

stone columns on either side of

it.

Only the privileged

were allowed to bathe there. Only certain privileged beings even

knew of it."

"Jim," Barbara said, "please relax.

You re reentering

this

dimension now." "I feel

the pain,"

I

said,

grasping

my left ear.

"Relax and release the pressure. Your fluffy white cloud is

approaching."

On Barbaras count of three, I opened my eyes and looked around the room. thought.

I

didn't

regression, but

why

I

Ym

back in the

human

dimension,

remember what had happened during had something

people have seen

me

to say.

in their

"Now I

I

the

understand

dreams and encounters.

We've been locating and preparing certain people to come forward. We're helping sional heritage I

them remember

and mission.

It's

their interdimen-

not as bad as

I

thought."

was relieved to know that the interdimensional

self

other people had seen was not doing evil things to them. I'd

been worried about

this ever since

one person described

Return of Old Big Head

me as the commander who controlled humans by gray alien beings. Although

wanted message

to

still

tell

in pain,

I

for

65

the abductions of

turned to Jane and

you about yourself

1

some

said, "I've

time.

Did the

feel right?"

yes. I heard everything he said in my own mind And when he left our presence, he returned you to your own frequency. That transition is what causes the

"Oh,

first.

pain in your

left ear.

Our frequency here

is

too low for him,

so he could not remain attached to you any longer. As

were speaking,

and

I

got the

I

I

aries

I

had

of

I

ahead of you,

a severe case of interdimensional jet

was happy to be back. As

much, but

steps

same messages."

Even though lag,

was about two or three

you

usual,

I

didn't

remember

sensed that we'd gone far beyond the bound-

human

thinking. "There's

more

to

life

than we've

imagined." In this second performance, to study. This time, he'd

and friendly than

Old Big Head gave us

been more

before,

helpful, understanding,

and I wondered

a higher level of his form.

a lot

if

we'd contacted

mm

15

Barbara suggested

that

Head's second appearance.

I

we all watch the video of Old

Big

remained lounging on the cush-

my mind and body still didn't feel fully integrated; a few threads of my being were still clinging to

ions.

Even when

it

was

the other dimension. I

wanted

forced I'd

to

I

over,

didn't feel ready to be

human yet.

be alone for a few minutes, so

stood up and

I

my wobbly legs to move toward the bathroom. Although

been there so many times before, Barbara's house seemed

my face with cold water, I thought,

unfamiliar.

As I doused

must be

one mind and one body.

in

while the water dripped from

The

aloud.

not

I

looked into the mirror,

my face. "Who are you?" I asked

tired-looking face also looked unfamiliar. "You're

who you think you are, and you must accept this!" I said.

After three years,

I

was

finally

beginning to understand the

significance of this message. But as

the mirror,

"who I

You

I

I

wondered whether

I

I

stared at

would

my

image in

ever understand

am."

returned to hear Barbara

versation."

I

sat

down next to

say,

"We should

tape this con-

Jane and looked into the camera

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lens.

I

really just

wanted

to go

home, but

I

understood the

importance of discussing the video of Old Big Head. "Let's talk freely,"

Barbara began. "Don't worry about

other people's reactions. This session gave us several insights,

Jim,

and we should learn

now

that you've

much

as

as

new

we can from

it.

watched the video, what are your

thoughts?"

spoken before about

"Well, we've test

tube and

programmed

sense that the aliens ing this video, I'm as a

had other

wondering

communications

of thought;

how I was an

to be

created in a

intuitionist.

now

I

objectives as well. After see-

if

they developed

vehicle...."

me to serve

lost

my train

creation,"

Barbara

Suddenly

I

my mind went blank.

"You were talking about your prompted.

The

"Right.

aliens

may

other ways, as well. Could device?

Could

I

how

I

me

to serve in

be an alien communications

have been programmed to discover

ian intelligence? Based

stand

have developed

important

on

it is

my own

experiences,

I

reptil-

under-

for us to integrate the interdi-

mensional aspects of our being into our

human selves.

"Old Big Head has inspired us to stretch our mental comfort zones and explore new thoughts about existence.

I

want

to understand

why my image

human

has been

present during alien encounters. Until now, I've theorized that

my

past-life

saw

And

me I

image was part of memories. in

I

their alien

an abduction before

wondered

programming or

was especially puzzled

if I'd really

I'd

done

when people

met them

all

in real

life.

the things that they

reported to Barbara."

"Old Big Head gave us some new insights into Kyle noted.

this,"

Thinking

"Yes. It

"Wake

identity. fulfill

seems that

up,

human

169

my image is being used to tell people,

time to discover your reptilian heritage and

It's

this

make

sense?"

next idea was something about a relationship

between

alien intelligence

and human

not process the thought. "I've again,"

Through

hybrids! Accept your interdimensional

your mission. Does

My

It

I

lost

sexuality,

my

but

I

could

train of thought

said apologetically.

"Please continue," Barbara said, "and don't

your thoughts making sense. Our goal information as possible. lives trying to

We

is

worry about

to gain as

could spend the

understand what we've heard

rest

this

much of our

weekend."

many abductees report sexual interactions with their abductors. I wonder why this occurs so frequently?" "That's an important question," Barbara said. "Do you have any ideas about why the aliens might be so sexually I

said,

"So

oriented?"

"Perhaps there's a link between the vibration, or quency, of

human

intelligence. This

ceive aliens

and

sexual energy and the energy of alien

could explain

why

people so often per-

their messengers in sexual roles.

abductees report having sexual experiences. In ity is a

fre-

common theme

of

all

So many

fact, sexual-

alien abduction experiences.

Could sexual stimulation be part of the methodology of alien intelligence?"

"You may be on "This

all

to something," Barbara said. seems to have to do with the frequency or

intensity of energy."

"I'm very interested in

this,"

Jane said. "Can you

why I have so many interdimensional

tell

me

sex dreams?"

not really about Her question triggered a response. sex. Your interdimensional sexual experiences represent "It's

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your struggles to receive information from, and about, alien intelligence.

They were

all

me to elaborate

waiting for

further,

but

I

couldn' t. "I just know, somehow, that the energy of reptilian intelligence

human

similar to

is

sexual energy.

It feels

the same."

another important topic," Barbara sug-

"Let's explore

now thinking of aliens as reptilian beings, like Head. In addition, I've talked to many abductees

gested. "We're

Old Big

who've described traumatic dreams of flesh- eating reptilian aliens. I've

ground

documented many

reports of visits to under-

where human bodies appeared to be

facilities,

processed and stored. Although the abductees didn't actually see aliens

consuming human

impression. So the question

flesh,

is,

'Do

they were

same concern," tion

I

said.

Big Head,

I

So

reptiles!

I

want

nourishment aliens to

weekend with the

the most troublesome ques-

—and he

to

know the

centers.

show me

says I'm linked to the

truth about these supposed

As you know,

their

head

I've

been asking the

complete operations, including any

where human bodies might be processed."

I fell

silent, reflecting

on

my own

experience. After

regression, I'd cried for weeks, because

aliens

also

is

on

this question?"

now visualize one form of my interdimensional

self as a large lizard

first

arrived this

"This

this

have about aliens and encounters. After meeting Old

I

areas

I

with

reptilian aliens feast

humans?' Have we gained any insight into

"You know, Barbara,

left

were developing

I

my

thought

human embryos as a food source. I my friends who had died. Two

thought about one of

or three

months

after his death,

I

had

a very disturbing

I was never sure whether it was a dream or an encounter. In it, I passed through a long, nar-

experience, although

row, dimly

lit

corridor. Its dark stone walls were covered

Thinking

with hieroglyphics, but I

arrived in a cool,

Earth.

The

I

moved

It

Through

1

7

too quickly to read them.

damp room, apparently deep within the

ceiling, the floor,

dingy concrete. Suddenly,

I

and walls

all

appeared to be

saw a disjoined

human

leg

hanging on a wall hook, and became physically and emotionally

ill.

I

recognized the leg immediately;

friend's.

As

I

turned to avoid seeing

decapitated and disemboweled

from

was

my

saw many other

human

bodies hanging

large hooks.

When mind

this occurred,

been a pallbearer

that his remains his

I

why my

my friend's funeral, so knew I

had been buried.

wondered: "Do

humans have alien

at

couldn't understand

I

body could have ended up in an alien

the time,

"It

couldn't understand

I

or the aliens would want to create such a grotesque

scene. I'd

how

it

it, I

aliens clone

facility.

At

human bodies? Do

multiple bodies?"

seems that the more we search

for answers

about

consumption of human bodies, the more we end up

pursuing other directions,"

from the truth?

Why do

so

said. "Are we being distracted many people have such fright-

I

ening experiences? This really troubles me."

"The answer the time

is

is

right,

when

within you," Jane said calmly, "and it

will

come. They

may be

able to clone

our bodies, or duplicate them in other dimensions, but don't believe they can duplicate our souls.

been scaly creatures during previous

endowed with

a

human

spirit, a

eras;

human

We may but

now

intellect,

I

have we're

and a

human soul. In my opinion, the aliens do not have souls. They may be trying to duplicate ours, but they can't." These thoughts were comforting. there

was some part of

my

I

liked the idea that

being that the aliens couldn't

invade, but the basic question remained unanswered.

couldn't understand

why

interdimensional beings

I

who

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transcend time and matter would need to take solid nour-

ishment from our bodies. As a reminder to myself and others, I said, "Things are rarely what they seem to be during encounters. The aliens show us what they want us to see, although a totally different experience

may actually

be occurring. Perhaps we should ask instead what the aliens are

gruesome

doing or revealing when they show us such scenes."

"Can you be more

"We know one

specific?"

Barbara asked.

thing for sure,"

I

"Every abductee

said.

who's been taken to an alien nourishment center has been deeply traumatized by the sight of severed parts. In

my own

case,

human body

was afraid to be alone

I

for several

days after that horrifying experience. Fear was the primary

byproduct of the experience. or to end

up

I

didn't

want

to be tortured

in that place. Perhaps the aliens

fear to control or guide

were using

me. Or maybe they were charging

my emotional energies." "Interesting observation," Barbara said.

"But in retrospect,"

gruesome

facility

human body in been showing to experience ties ies,

I

continued,

forced

me

"my perceptions of the

to see the uselessness of

my

may have discard my human body

the alien dimension.

The

aliens

me that I'd have to my interdimensional self. Maybe these facili-

are interdimensional salvage areas for discarded bod-

rather than alien food banks. After

to their dimension,

we

all,

when we journey

don't need a physical body."

"As Jane suggested," Barbara reasoned, "we

ready to understand the

human

processing

may not be

facilities yet.

But we should continue to try to learn about them." Then she introduced another important topic. "As you tioned, Jim, aliens

seem

men-

to have used fear to control

you

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1

73

during the early stages of your awakening. Can you share

more about this?"

my

"According to

current thinking,"

before

human

primitive

civilization developed.

humans of the The

tion experiments.

must have caused

and

among

few

on Earth long

They conquered

initiated

reptilians

great fear

may

the reptilians

and

time,

said, "a

I

extraterrestrial reptilian astronauts arrived

human

the

evolu-

their technology

early

humans

—and

have quickly discovered that this fear

could be manipulated and become an effective means of controlling us.

"Their early experiments probably resulted in a large leap in our intelligence, leading to the development of civilization. Eventually,

and

humans began

establish formal religions

who were these

credited with

to deify certain beings,

around mythological

superhuman powers.

myths were probably based on

aliens,

and

stories

that extraterrestrial astronauts

dants have been using fear to control

I

figures,

think that

of the reptilian

and

their descen-

humans

for thou-

sands of years. "As you well know, Barbara, after the experience

March

1992,

for years.

ence,

1

was

terrified for

But eventually,

and discover

my

I

I

had

in

my life, and I lived in despair

began to accept the

aliens' pres-

interdimensional being. Eventually,

concluded that the aliens weren't going to

kill

I

me."

"You survived those unpleasant times." "Yes,

I

did,

but

I

didn't begin to see anything positive

I discovered my own interdimensional Now I'm beginning to feel some respect for them. This may simply be another phase of my learning process, but my thinking has changed dramatically. Three years ago, I

about aliens until self.

perceived aliens simply as perpetrators of fear and pain;

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them as the master the gods that we have always today,

I

see

intelligence of

deified

wonder, has anyone ever seen the face of God? reptilian, or

something

our world

and worshipped. Is it

I

human,

else?"

quantum leap in your thinking and you're still leading us toward new perspectives about aliens. You know, I recently saw a photograph of a Sumerian statue in a book on ancient art; it depicted a regal reptilian figure. There's some evidence to Barbara smiled. "This

certainly a

is

—

support your theories about reptilian astronauts.

were important in the ancient Egyptian

"Also, reptiles

civilization. In fact,

I'm beginning to see

how

reptilians

could have been linked to the development of

all

the

ancient cultures."

"I'm not as dedicated to research as you are, Barbara.

But

I

do

human Bible

mission to lead people to answers about

feel a

life.

—but

As a it

child,

I

wasn't allowed to question the

my questions

didn't answer

and evolution.

I

wanted

from, and where

than they would

God

tell

to

about existence

know where human

lived.

I

came ask more

souls

always wanted to

me."

"I'm beginning to understand

how restrictive some reli-

gions are," Kyle said. "They define boundaries of our thinking."

"Ignorance

is

our enemy,

most people may prefer heritage.

process, ogy.

I

Although I

as

Old Big Head

said

—but

remain ignorant of their true

was forced into

my own self- discovery

can no longer confine myself to a religious ideol-

believe that the answers about our alien heritage

within us. But

we

I

to

start

we wont start getting the

asking the right questions."

lie

right answers until

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75

"Today," Barbara said, "you're happy and healthy. But

you weren't happy or healthy when you came first

for

your

regression."

My

"You're right. therapeutic.

process has been very

self- discovery

We tend to fear what we cant understand; and To find the

fear causes us to think negatively.

aspects of a situation,

we must

positive

ask questions and clarify

our thoughts. Typically, we don't allow ourselves to look for answers fear

is

beyond the boundaries of our

fear;

and most

a matter of misunderstanding or misperception."

"You've

managed

to

overcome your

fear of aliens," Bar-

bara said.

Old Big Head

"After listening to

how much

time

it's

this

weekend,

I

realize

me just to resolve my misunderDuring my first contact, they told

taken

standings about aliens.

who you think you are, and you must accept this.' But it took me three years to overcome my fear me, 'You are not of them

—and

I

had

to

work though

that negativity before

all fell

quiet,

my interdimensional heritage." and thought about my early experi-

mental farm

ideas,

when

I

could begin to accept

We

manipulating us but three years tists.

I

thought that

I

like research animals.

had

later, I

a

I felt

evil aliens

were

victimized then;

new perspective on

alien scien-

According to Old Big Head, they've invested thousands

of years in improving

human

intelligence,

and

are actually

relinquishing their control over this planet. "If that's true,"

I

thought, "I'm ready to accept their interventions positively."

Now, rather than I

feeling victimized,

asked the others

if they,

I felt

privileged.

too, felt frustrated

when

they

tried to explain ideas about aliens and interdimensionals

to other people.

They

all

nodded.

I

said,

"Imagine

how

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176

when knew how uncom-

confused and frightened the rest of humanity will be information

this

fortable I'd

challenged

coming

over the

felt all

starts

out!"

I

last three years, as

of my ideas about

"If people all over the

my awakening

human life. now awakening

world are

at the

why time seems so accelerated why people, communities, and nations are expenow, and riencing so much stress. According to Old Big Head, milsame

time, perhaps that's

lions of us are in the

beginning stage of accepting our

interdimensional heritage." Kyle added, aliens, they'll

"And

as long as people don't

tend to perceive

all

understand

alien encounters as nega-

tive experiences."

"Yes;

imagine the collective impact of millions of people

dealing with this inexplicable, 'negative' force in their I

thanked Barbara for the brainstorming session;

grateful for the opportunity to clarify

bling issues. I

I

was

trou-

"When I made a commitment to write a book,

promised to help others understand

ters. It's

some of these

lives."

hard to believe now, but

warn people about

evil

their alien

encoun-

my first intention was to

gray aliens

who would

bodies and transport us to underground

freeze

our

facilities."

"Just think, Jim," Kyle said, "you've developed so

many

new theories about alien beings, that your book has practically

turned into a

treatise."

my thinking has been remarkable. has taken me far beyond my initial

"Yes, the evolution of

My discovery process ideas. Like Jane,

to be

I'm a few steps ahead of where

—and now I'm wondering what

How will my thinking change in will

I

discover?"

will

I

expected

happen

the next year?

next.

What

else

Thinking

The four of us

we

fell silent.

It

Through

Despite Jane's psychic

abilities,

know what the future would hold; we knew only we would continue to accumulate more information,

didn't

that

1 11

and that our beliefs would continue

to evolve.

MB

16

I

SAID, "If we're going to be responsible for the planet, as Old

Big

Head

said, the

next phase

may be an

education period.

People of all races will have to become acquainted with inter-

dimensional intelligence. Otherwise, imagine the world events that will ensue

when

millions of people experience the shock

of meeting alien beings for the indicative,

we can assume

a fearful stage at

that

time. If

most people

my awakening is

will pass

through

first."

"He

tried to

card most of their

human

Jane agreed.

first

tell

us

this.

People will have to dis-

beliefs before they'll

be ready to

accept the reptilian intelligence." "Letting go of beliefs will be difficult for

bara tiles

most people," Bar-

said. "In

many societies, people are taught to

with

or demons."

evil

equate rep-

Kyle said, "Humans have a primal fear of reptiles. are deeply afraid of them.

On

Most of us

the other hand, there are also

some people who worship them. Could these extreme responses be based on interactions with our reptilian progenitors?"

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We

shared our search for truth about alien beings,

comments about our progress, and expressed our desire to know more about the objectives and methods of alien intelligence. I reminded them that exchanged

we

still

flattering

any evidence to support our theories.

didn't have

Jane's encounter with like

my

clean-shaven image sounded

more than coincidence, but

it

didn't provide firm evi-

dence of anything.

Then

surprised everyone by saying, "You've heard Old

I

Big Head, and we've brainstormed ideas about alien beings

and

their intelligence." Presumably, we've learned

about the aliens and ourselves. "Now,

you

to consider:

What

if

I

more

have a thought for

I'm an infiltrator who's come into

your time and space on an assignment to distract or

alter

What would you do if you discovered that agent who has lulled you into positive-think-

your thinking? I'm an alien

ing complacency?" "Yes!" Barbara said. "This

is

a

new

twist.

What

a great

question." "I

could be infiltrating your camp, influencing your

thinking,

and confusing your

"You mean

research."

like the serpent in the

Garden of Eden?" Jane

asked.

"We know what happened

to Eve," Barbara said. "Please

don't tempt us with any apples!"

"The Garden of Eden may be mythical or metaphorical," I said.

"But

a

it's

"At least Eve got let's

good

analogy."

some knowledge," Barbara

said.

"But

be serious, now."

am a decoy?"

"Okay.

What

"Well,

you could

if I

be,"

qualities of a superior

gent, for example."

Barbara

—

being

said.

you're

"You have

handsome and

all

the

intelli-

Playing Devil's Advocate

"Don't forget sexual!" Kyle couldn't resist

I

added.

this. "If

you are an

infiltrator, you're

doing a great job. But, here's a thought: path or the wrong path? infiltrator?

is

could say

leading us

We can't prove anything!"

This appealed to Barbara's love of

made another

then she

Who

down the right How would you know if you were

whether your information an

181

embodiment of evil

is

a

game

theories... and

connection. "They say that the

handsome, dark-haired

man with

a widow's peak."

Jane and Kyle both leaned over quickly to check hairline,

but didn't discover a widow's peak.

"Many of

documented have involved

the cases I've

widow's-peak

aliens,"

Barbara continued. "They appear in

both male and female bodies. forms of reptilian hybrids sion

—they seem

I

who

believe that these are live in

another dimen-

to be a specific family. I've interviewed

many people who have encountered them, and

I

realized

some time ago that reptilian beings must be running whole show on Earth." As

usual, Barbara

was

far

contaminate

my

known

for

some time

in control of the Earth.

"At

I

that

might

I

was surprised when she that reptilian aliens were

hadn't thought about this until

Head appeared. More first,

me

information, so she had never mentioned

the widow's-peak aliens to me. said she'd

the

ahead of me. She's always been

careful to avoid sharing information with

old Big

my

pieces were falling into place.

the widow's-peak aliens seemed to be evil

beings with very strong sexual energies. According to

all

reports, people had very disturbing sexual encounters with them...." She was trying to initiate further discussion about

the widow's peak aliens. ple have

"Now, I wonder why so many peo-

been contacted by them repeatedly since infancy.

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182

Do

these people have a connection to the reptilian intelli-

gence through the widow's-peak aliens?"

Barbara turned to Kyle and asked, "Have you met the

widow's-peak people?" "Several times," he said. "I can

around on the grass with them, Barbara continued.

"My

remember

slithering

as a baby."

research

indicates

that the

widow's-peak aliens are sexual beings. They're attracted to the vibration or frequency of sexual energies

emotions. They seem

to prefer

what we would

by the fantasy image of a

call

the 'dark

my life, I've been captivated

of life." She confessed, "All

side'

and strong

slender,

dark widow's-peak man.

must have some unconscious knowledge of him and Apparently there's a connection;

species.

many

I

his

people

encounter widow's-peak aliens during dreams and contacts." started mulling over an encounter I'd

I

interdimensional before.

I

man

had with an

with a widow's peak two years

had reported the episode

to Barbara, but

I

wasn't

met him in a lucid dream or another dimension. He had a very pronounced widow's peak, and his dark hair was combed toward the back of his head. He was handsome and young-looking, but I also remember noticing pock mocks on his face. I met him outdoors late at night; we were standing on a sidewalk near my house. He said to me, "The town looks better than it ever has. You're doing a good job managing sure whether

the

city."

Then, he told

school, but

he wanted or so

I

couldn't

me

later, I

ceremony

I

me

to

do something

remember what

was instrumental

I

was.

I

wondered

somehow.

in organizing a

high if

A year

world peace

at that school.

My encounter with him may have than

it

to influence the students

at the

remember

—and when

I

been more involved

reported the episode to

Playing DeviPs Advocate

Barbara,

When

I

was too embarrassed

I

awoke,

I

to

tell

her everything.

was sexually aroused, and thought we'd

shared a pleasurable sexual experience, although

memories of it.

—

confusing

attracted to him,

to be with him. For the next several weeks,

meet him

had no

I

My feelings about him were haunting and

knew him, was

I

183

in real

But

life.

I

never saw him

I

and wanted expected to

again.

have shared some knowledge with me, which

I

He may

perceived as

a sexual interaction. I

was

just

wishing that

I

had explored

this experience

under hypnosis, when Barbara spoke up again.

"If

we

are

the hybrid offspring of a reptilian race, rival species might exist in other

dimensions. Conflict between dark and light

has always existed. To me, board, and

we

human

life

on Earth

is

a

game-

participate in the aliens' conflicts. Are

we

beginning to perceive the reptilians as intelligent and benevolent beings? Are they in conflict with other interdimensionals, like the great and wrathful gods trolled

and punished humans

who have con-

since the beginning of

recorded history?" This was interesting, but

another channel, and

had

I

had

my

thoughts were flowing in

to say

it

before

I

forgot

it.

"I just

a flash."

"Oh, good.

Tell

us what you're thinking."

"The chain of command may pure humans,

human

and various forms of

be,

from the bottom up:

hybrids, interdimensional hybrids, reptilian intelligence. Despite

earlier fears, the reptilian intelligence

our

may well be benevo-

and focused on preserving the Earth. The interdimensional and human hybrids are receiving intelligence from them and experiencing a process of self- acceptance and

lent

self- discovery.

But what about pure humans?"

"Keep going," Barbara

said.

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184

"The interdimensional human engineers may use pure humans in their experiments, as well as hybrids. You ve counseled hundreds of clients about their contacts with another intelligence; but, as we've discussed, you don't have

enough information yet

human

to identify the

hybrids

conclusively."

"Correct."

"Therefore,

we

shouldn't assume that the evolution of

human intelligence is restricted to human hybrids. Each of your

has contributed to the growing body of infor-

clients

mation about the existence of other

And

"Right.

people from

intelligences."

many

nationalities

have

reported contacts."

"Interdimensional scientists

and

may be

using pure

humans

their hybrids as conduits for sharing their intelligence

with this dimension," Kyle chimed

in.

"Think about the

worldwide advancements in science, technology, and medof the

icine

decade; compare

last

them

to the advance-

ments of the previous century." "They're astounding," are changing the play,

work,

etc.

I

agreed. "Science

and technology

ways people around the world

live, learn,

Human intelligence does seem to be receiv-

some type of infusions. I'm especially grateful that humanity is becoming more environmentally conscious ing

and

respectful of the planet."

Midmorning turned talking for several hours.

into midafternoon

—we'd

been

The positive tones of the discusI was ready for a break. "Our

sions were refreshing, but

minds have "I still

know

all

thing,

I

really

want

worked overtime

today,"

I

said.

to understand," Barbara said. "I

want

to

about the alien intelligence. But more than any-

want

to be of service to humanity."

Playing Devil's Advocate

I

understood. "All of us have struggled to understand the

aliens

who

own

have intruded in our

We

have

all

known

process of self-discovery. Each of us has a strong

sense of mission, and plete that mission.

those

lives.

and confusion, and now we're struggling with

pain, fear,

our

185

who

I,

is

seeking guidance on

how to com-

deep responsibility to

too, feel a

are trying to discover themselves

assist

and under-

stand their relationships with aliens."

Barbara

said, "I started

more than ten years ago. I ing humans unjustly, and

working with

alien abductees

believed that aliens were treatI

wanted

to study

and under-

stand the intelligence that could abduct people right out

of their homes

and wanted

like that.

to find out

I

felt

how

indignation at the injustice,

to protect people

from

alien

intruders." I

said, "I

—

but when we perceive we may simply be coming into If we are, in fact, human hybrid

understand, Barbara

injustice in alien activities

conflict with ourselves.

extensions of the reptilian intelligence, then we're also part

of the alien encounter phenomenon." "Yes," she said. "If

have to revise

I'll

erwise, as

you

Old Big Head

my thinking about

said,

I'll

is

speaking the truth,

reptilian aliens.

Oth-

be in conflict with myself."

my self-discovery process. I would never have imagined that my journey of self-discovery would lead me to an interdimensional Old Big Head had contributed so much

ever expect to discover that

race of lizard beings.

Nor did

an interdimensional

reptilian race

I

to

had controlled human

on Earth for thousands of years. Soon it was time to leave. On the way out, I gave Barbara and Jane a big goodbye hug. Kyle was driving, and as we entered the open countryside, I sat back and noticed life

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186

swollen buds on the trees and delicate shades of green

shimmering on the large, flat fields. "All that new growth seems to have emerged overnight," I thought lazily. I was tired

—but

I,

too, could feel the excitement of

wondered how other people would

I

new growth.

react to the idea

that our ancestors were large interdimensional lizards.

"Most of the world

isn't

ready for Old Big

out loud. "Religions keep

Head yet," I

said

simple for people; they

life

define the acceptable boundaries of our thinking. After

thousands of years of turning mythical stories into gious dogma, most of the world's population fortable with the old myths.

about

human

is

are based

to hear

evolution."

"You're right," Kyle replied. "Most people are their beliefs,

com-

quite

They don't want

reli-

and don't want

to

happy with

admit that their religions

on myths. Humans seem

to have developed a

form of amnesia. They don't know who they are anymore." "That's a great analogy, Kyle. In general, people

be in denial about aliens and, therefore, of their try." I

imagined a bunch of

seem

to

own ances-

reptilian aliens stepping into

our dimension and announcing: "We're here to show you all

our family album!"

how

"Kyle, just imagine

people would react

if

they

learned that their gods and ancestors were reptiles. They're still

fretting

"If that

about the idea of humans evolving from apes!"

happened, the world would change in a second,"

Kyle said. "The religious, social, economic, and political implications are beyond "I

may do some

Head,"

I

my comprehension."

research before

I

write about Old Big

said.

"What will you look

for?"

"I'm not sure. Barbara mentioned an ancient Sumerian statue,

and Jane referred

to the

Garden of Eden.

I

just

Playing Devil's Advocate

want

browse through some books on mythology and

to

ancient

187

art. If this reptile

business

must have

early civilizations

left

with this perspective in mind,

I

is

true, the founders of

some

clues. If

might find some

I

search

interest-

ing information."

"Good idea. I've wondered how you would incorporate Old Big Head into the book. You may need some historical information. Will anyone believe this?"

His question startled me.

wondered how vincing way.

I

"How will

wondered. Then, writing, "I just

I

suddenly

felt

pressured, and

could write about Old Big Head in a conI

convince people that he's real?"

reminded myself of

I

want

to

my

I

purpose for

encourage people to ask their

own

questions."

me make an important decisaid, "I'll write about my experiences as I perceived

Kyle's question sion.

I

helped

them, and will allow other people to form their

own

opinions and questions."

"That

prehend "Yes,

will

be helpful for people

their

own

and maybe

who

are trying to

com-

alien encounters." it

will cause

divine creation myths."

people to question the old

"

IN THE days

WfllfiC

my hypnotic sessions with Old Big Head, my being and matured as time passed. My

after

peace crept into

fear of aliens vanished. After a

living happily again.

my

Although

tumultuous three hadn't learned

I

him seemed

was

much about

to release the last vestiges

of my religious and educational programming.

my

discover

found a

true identity,

and

I

seemed

satisfying source of information

piness

to play

aliens,

I

was learning

me

write

more about them.

wanted

but they were no

my

and they

health and hap-

dedicated myself to

were going to write about

for clues

my idea of researching ancient art

about reptilian beings. After leafing

through a few books about early lizard beings

I

finally

to be a clear voice for them.

followed through with

and mythology

I

had

to trust them,

my book. If

I

about myself.

aliens,

an active role in restoring

and helping

learning

I

He helped me

was contented.

continued to have contacts with

longer disturbing.

I

I

interdimensional reptilian self from Old Big Head, the

experience of meeting

I

years,

permeate the

civilizations,

literature, art,

189

I

realized that

and mythology of

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190

most ancient

new

cultures.

perspective,

I

When

I

read and studied from

was overwhelmed by the amount of

information about them, and

increasingly confident

felt

and

initiated

myths, and stories of most ancient

civiliza-

that reptilian astronauts colonized the Earth

human The

my

civilization. art,

and

tions maintain that dragons, serpents,

long coexisted with

humans, and

that these beings can

assume both benevolent and malevolent ues, drawings,

and carvings portray the

beings or gods

who descended

lizards have

roles.

Many stat-

reptiles as

winged

and became

to Earth

involved in the lives of humans.

Having studied lege,

I

history, civilization,

knew where

ilizations.

However,

my

religion in col-

education had not prepared

for the idea that reptilian astronauts

human

and

to look for information about early civ-

civilization.

might have

Most of my history lessons seemed and the

origins of human

As

I

most

my questions about the

life.

reviewed literature of early

ized that

words always

Earth." These

troubled me; they failed to answer

to

God

be based on the biblical statement, "In the beginning created the heavens

me

initiated

religious teachings

civilizations,

seemed

I

soon

real-

to have evolved

from a mixture of myths, legends, and human imagination. I

was disappointed when

I

reread portions of the Old Testa-

ment; as a source of information about early

was unconvincing.

It

seemed more like a

civilizations,

it

selective exposition

of the religious beliefs and practices of ancient

Israel.

I

was

discouraged to discover that the various parts of the Old

Testament were written more than a thousand years apart. so,

If

how could it contain much historical truth? However, Jane's words had also inspired

the biblical account of the

Garden of Eden

me

to reread

—and when

I

Reptilian Origins 191

looked

at

from a reptilian-oriented perspective,

it

was ablaze with new

god created

invisible

him

ideas. It relates that

a

man

in his

Garden of Eden

in the

told that he could eat freely

of knowledge of good and

man would

die if he ate

own

image, and placed

as a caretaker.

from any

evil.

my mind

an omnipotent,

tree,

The man was except the tree

According to the god, the

from that

tree.

"What was

the

god

trying to hide?"

I

asked myself.

At one point,

I

tried substituting the reptilian masters for

the invisible god of the the passage

would read

human

trolled

were

life

interesting.

rather than an invisible god.

If so,

I

and

nearly

mean

and enslaved

they probably used fear to control

humans and

their progenitors.

When

shock that

I

I

read the story this way,

had never questioned the

of a serpent to converse with fifty

This

results

greater intelligence,

also realized with a

ability

The

story might

them from discovering information about them-

prevent selves

con-

improved primitive humans geneti-

endowed them with

them.

how

to see

if extraterrestrial reptilians

The Garden of Eden

that reptilian masters cally,

Old Testament. I wanted

is

humans

until

I

was

years old.

only one example of

ment can be

reinterpreted

how

the entire Old Testa-

from a new perspective. Some

scholars have suggested that reptilian beings should be

substituted for the

god who cannot be

research

on

Serpents

and Dragons, by

this topic led

the wrathful god of the

me

and

seen,

my

to a fascinating book, Flying

R. A. Boulay.

The author

feels that

Old Testament may have

actually

been an extraterrestrial reptilian astronaut. Boulay says that, according to the Haggadah the source of Jewish leg-

—

end and tradition fruit,

—when Adam and Eve

ate the forbidden

they lost their lustrous and horny hides. Does this

symbolize the hybridization of humans and lizard aliens?

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192

the Sumerian King List is the most document available to humankind. This valuable historical remarkable document, which dates to the third millennium B.C., identifies and describes all the kings of Sumer.

Boulay

feels that

The Sumerian creation myth

moment

time as the

identifies the

beginning of

their lizard-god ancestors

descended

to Earth. According to some accounts, Sumerian

gods established their

Mesopotamia, and

it is

cities

on the

reptile

alluvial plains

these cities that are

of

commonly con-

sidered to be the beginning of human civilization.

The

existence

and the accomplishments of the Sumerian

reptile

gods were extensively documented on cuneiform

tablets,

monuments, and

Someday, scholars may

artifacts.

reconstruct the history of our earliest days by studying

Sumerian accounts of alien serpent gods.

these

The

literature

on gnosticism

also intrigued

me. Accord-

ing to Boulay, the gnostics were rivals of the early Chris-

and

tians,

their literature wasn't included in the Bible

because their teachings were so different from the accepted versions. Gnostic beliefs were eventually put early

church authorities, and their

down by the

texts disappeared in the

second century; however, they were rediscovered in 1945.

These gnostic

and

tracts indicate the existence of serpent gods,

their version of the

with giving

life

to

Garden of Eden story

Adam and

credits Eve

portrays the serpent as a

noble and virtuous creature. These differences alone were reason enough for the early church to suppress gnosticism.

Most written accounts of the are

early history of humankind

camouflaged in religious and symbolic language. Boulay

discusses mythologies

and

religions

that refer to flying serpents

Earth to promote lore

is

from around the globe

and dragons who descended

human civilization.

to

For example, Chinese

ladened with mysterious references to an ancient

Reptilian Origins 193

dragon goddess named

Nu

Kau. Several early Chinese

emperors claimed to be her descendants. In addition, Boulay says that early

Hindu

texts,

such as

Ramayana and the Mahabharata, actually describe sexual intercourse between early humans and the serpent gods. Similar early accounts of reptilian gods and lizardthe

like

people can be found in Africa and Central America.

For example, the creation myth of one African tribe describes

how

descended to

their lizard-like ancestors

Earth on a thread from a cobweb. Itzama, the serpent god of the Mayas of Central America, supposedly led "feathered

and guided them

serpents" over the sea

Through

their art

and

to the Yucatan.

humans on

literature, early

every

continent have recorded the existence of reptilian beings.

Some

ancient texts suggest that these beings could appear

humans

at will as

human

influencing

or reptiles. Apparently, they've been since the beginning of

civilization

recorded time. The ancient texts and artifacts are available for study, ings.

I

and many researchers have published

was unaware of this information

to search for

it.

until

I

their find-

was inspired

Now, I wonder why so few people

are aware

of the abundant evidence of our reptilian progenitors.

Information about serpent gods Before

about

I

was abducted,

UFOs

or aliens.

once suggested that

I

I

is

didn't

readily available.

want

to

know

anything

remember how my friend Janet some UFO literature. I said to read that stuff! How can you pos-

read

her sternly, "Janet, don't sibly believe it?"

I

But the aliens forced

me

interdimensional aspects of myself, and

I

to discover the

can recount each

of the steps of my journey. In June 1995, they set the stage for step.

Apparently they wanted

me

me

to learn

to take another

more about

my

interdimensional reptilian self and the impetus took the

— THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

194

form of a

lucid dream.

Barbara and

said,

understand the

When I awoke I

immediately called

"We need one more

regression.

I

must

meaning of this dream."

me to tell her about the dream. I told her that

She asked

had taken place in a lovely old cathedral. "All of the cathedral walls were covered with tiny pieces of paper it

there

must have been thousands of them.

paper, a note

know I need

was written.

I

to understand the

them all, but I messages. The aliens must

have placed important information in

"Barbara agreed. nosis

and

my mind."

"We should investigate this under hyp-

try to recover the information."

meet once more able to control

We

decided to

at her house.

knew from my previous

I

On each piece of

couldn't read

regressions that

I

wouldn't be

my subconscious mind while I was in hypmy sessions, I had wanted to explore

nosis. Before each of specific encounters.

nosis, I

But

it

seemed that once

I

entered hyp-

my subconscious would take control and reveal what

needed to know, rather than what

I

wanted

to

know. So

didn't necessarily expect to explore the cathedral itself. It

nosis

dream

could have just been a message to submit to hyp-

one more time. But

release

I

new information

Kyle and

I

I

did expect

my subconscious to

for the book.

arrived at Barbara's house

on

a hot,

day.

She was as happy to see us as we were to see

said,

"The

erly.

Would you

air

conditioner in like to

sunny

her.

She

my house isn't working prop-

go into the guest house? We'll be

cooler there."

Apparently, the videocamera wasn't functioning properly, either. It

didn't record either audio or video of the

first

few minutes of the session. Afterward, Barbara and Kyle explained to Big

me

that

Head appeared

I

went under very

right away.

quickly,

and Old

Reptilian Origins 195

The audio began words,

in the

middle of a sentence, with the

manuscript with me. I'm in a small cubicle."

"...his

"Stay where you are and stabilize yourself," Barbara said. "Please look around. What's your environment like?" I

was

in

an unfamiliar place,

body. "The here,"

I

ceiling

is

at a great distance

very low, so

I lie

began. "The air pressure, the oxygen

everything about this place

is

different

from

down when from

my

I'm in

and

level,

my conscious

My human

body could not survive here. When I move around, I tire quickly, and I'm very cautious about making sudden movements. I've been warned to lie still while we discuss the manuscript." Barbara was concerned. "Are you safe there?" "I'm among friends, and I do not feel afraid." world.

My

Then, something unexpected happened. tongue swelled up, speak.

"My tongue.

as if .

.it's

it

was being

it.

I

had

Speaking was very

it

form words.

to

could barely

to stretch

I

tried to

tell

my jaws to

My enlarged

difficult.

tongue darted in and out of my mouth, and contain

I

quite large!"

My tongue filled my mouth; accommodate

inflated.

physical

I

could barely

Barbara that other

me in the interdimensional cubicle, but I had to abbreviate my thoughts. "They are friends. They are telling me information, which I need to share with other

beings were with

My

do not want people to be fearful of them when they enter human homes and ask people to think." Then I managed to say with force and clarity, "The people.

friends

movement is

on,

you know!"

Barbara assured to comfort out,

and

asked,

I

me.

me

that she understood,

My enormous

couldn't speak. She encouraged

"Why

is

your tongue so big?

the other dimension?"

and she

tried

tongue was darting in and

me to

Is this

the

relax,

way

and

it is

in

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

196

said,

my breathing

part of

"It is

process while

am

I

here,"

I

speaking awkwardly.

"Take a deep breath," Barbara suggested.

"I

want you

to

relax and breathe normally, as you do when you're there." "Once before when I was talking to you I almost came

to this place,"

frightened,

said.

I

and

I

"But

time

at the

my human mind was

could not gain entrance."

Barbara encouraged

me

sional environment. "I'm

to experience the interdimen-

happy

for you. You've

wanted

to

go there."

"A part of

me comes

here often, while

said, as if discussing a favorite restaurant.

be here.

know where I

I

I

am

sleeping,"

I

"I'm not afraid to

am."

"Are you beneath the Earth?" "Yes.

because

am

I

underground. Talking to you

do not use a voice when

I

"Do you communicate "Normally. this

difficult

am here."

telepathically in this

do not use

I

I

is

my mouth

to

body?"

communicate

in

dimension."

My tongue remained swollen—by now it was extending one to two inches out of my mouth. I said with difficulty, "Having my tongue out of my mouth helps me stay cool." "Are you cool enough now?" "I

this

am

comfortable.

I

like to

be very cool when

I

am

in

dimension."

Barbara told

me later that she wasn't sure where this diswe weren't discussing the know how to proceed. "Can

cussion was headed. As usual,

intended topic, and she didn't

you suggest a way for

me to help you speak?" she asked. "Is

a spokesperson present

who could articulate your thoughts

for you?" "I will

tongue,

have to speak for myself, but because of

I'll

speak slowly."

my

Reptilian Origins 197

Barbara tried to direct the discussion, saying, "We were going to talk about Jim's manuscript." "Yes.

The manuscript

responded

will

have seventeen chapters,"

I

slowly.

"The book

will

have seventeen chapters," Barbara

repeated. "I will it.

bring information from this dimension.

The manuscript will be

like a treatise.

humans to understand

for

races

years

is

possible.

may pass

ing world peace.

humans

My

not prevail, unless

My

all

asked Barbara

I

among

are fully capable of achiev-

that intelligent

intelli-

on Earth

life

races coexist peacefully."

tongue was dry and

ment, and

can do

seventy-five

fifty to

mentors are of the highest

and they understand

gence, will

that peaceful coexistence

However, another

before

I

My mentors desire

if

irritable after this

we could

long

state-

rest.

me for takmy messages. "This communication

She agreed, and we took a break. She thanked ing the effort to deliver

process

isn't

natural for you," she said with an understand-

ing tone. She asked Kyle to bring

me some water. my mouth.

Kyle gently poured the water into

wettest, coolest water that I'd ever tasted.

wonderful on

It felt

my

I

It

was the

asked for more.

dry, swollen tongue.

He

placed a

my forehead, and I was ready to speak again. "Please tell us about your body. Do you use your reptilian

moist towel on

form when you're there with your "If

I

do not

friends?" Barbara asked.

manifest in a visible form, like to

be hot, and

my

skin

is

very thick.

I

my thick skin protects me from

the heat." "Is

Jim's "I

your cubicle deep in the Earth?

Is it

located near

home?" do not think of

location.

It

it

as being close to

could be anywhere.

It's

in

any geographical

my mind, beyond the

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

198

physical world.

My

cubicle, or chamber,

is

exactly large

accommodate my being. I come here to receive information and rest. When friends are present, my cubicle expands to accommodate them. It expands and contracts, enough

to

and

always in balance with the space required.

it's

When

alone, I'm confined in a very small chamber, but space for

my friends is automatically available." Barbara returned to the topic of the manuscript. She

knew

that

had written the

I

hoped

to acquire material for the

asked,

"Have your mentors, or

uscript with you?

"I will assimilate

is

remaining chapters. She

information,"

to bring thoughts

said, struggling to

I

is

and

ideas into your

an experiment, as are

humans and my

actions between

included?"

until the final presentation.

it

sion. This writing project

man-

friends, discussed the

What information should be

speak. "I will not refine

mission

few chapters, and she

first

We

race.

My

dimen-

all

inter-

will study

human reactions to the information in the manuscript." My mouth was dry again, and Kyle asked if I would like more

water. "Yes, please.

I

dimensions simultaneously

As

before, the water

dry tongue.

"Humans

dance of water,"

I

me

manuscript when

I

said,

assignment, and

is

dehydrating. Being in two

challenging."

cool, wet,

and

delicious

on

my

are very fortunate to have an abun-

thought.

Barbara asked

minutes and

was

am

to continue

my

discussion of the

could speak again.

"Four friends are

when

appropriate,

I

rested for a few

assisting

we

with

will relate

this

new

thoughts and ideas for seven of the remaining chapters."

"How should lim proceed?" "He will be guided. We may

learn a

new communica-

We should end this discussion now." "Thank you for letting me know that we need to end the session," Barbara said. She asked Kyle to moisten my face.

tions procedure.

Reptilian Origins 199

This time, Barbara reentry into

knew the importance of guiding my

my human

body. "Disconnect from the other

human

dimension, and slowly return to your

form. Allow

the air conditioner to cool you, and ask your tongue to

return to to the

normal

its

human

body are

When

and

Rest

size.

relax.

You

are returning

dimension, on June 24, 1995. Your mind and

and

perfect

peaceful."

move around, Barbara suggested, "Please speak if you'd like to share more information. Your human speaking ability will return now. Tell us what we started to

I

need to know." I

opened

my

eyes

and looked around

awakening from a nap.

My

I

stuttered

when

groggily, as if

tried to speak.

I

awkward tongue stumbled over the words.

My

first

remember my space and my friends. They have entered my consciousness, and as a result of this, more information will come to me. This will be helpclear statement was, "I

finish the

ful as

I

like a

movie, and

"Maybe I

we'll

book. let

I'd like to replay this

you

see what's in

be able to see

it

journey now,

my mind."

through you."

thought about the interdimensional space that

just visited.

"My cubicle

is

fascinating.

any definite space. Wherever

know what this means, but "Yes,

I

it's

am,

I

It's

I

had

not confined to

can go to

it. I

don't

interesting."

very interesting."

it's

any particular location." "That's wonderful news. You can live wherever you

"I don't

have to

choose and "I

still

live in

be able to find your

understand

my other body much better now."

Barbara realized that gested, "As

you

friends."

relax

please review the last

I

was

still

under hypnosis. She sug-

and return

to

your

two weeks of your

human

life."

body,

She paused

before adding, "If you'd like to review a specific experience,

move

to

it

now."

200 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"I

understand the cathedral dream. The cathedral sym-

bolizes a purified space, like

The I

my interdimensional

cubicle.

notes on the walls represent the thoughts and ideas that

need to

retrieve

from the other dimension. This

bolic message instructing

me to do this regression

is

—

a

sym-

to go to

my other body and bring information into this world. Now, I

have

new thoughts

that

I'll

use in the remaining chapters

of the book."

"You seem to have a clearer understanding of the dream now." "It

ney.

was

like a

premonition of this interdimensional jour-

My conscious mind had never experienced the interdi-

mensional chamber before. afraid to enter

it? I

Do you remember when I was

went there today and wasn't

afraid."

my head. "I'm having horrimy ear," I said, gripping my head. Barbara asked me to describe the pain. I replied, "Something enlarged in my head and created pressure. And like the other times, my jaw hurts, too." I expected my head to explode. "I'll ignore the pain!" I shouted, clutching my ear, and continued to speak. "We Abruptly, pain ripped through ble pains in

made to

a major accomplishment today.

I'll

be able to return

my chamber and meet with my interdimensional friends

when I want to work on the manuscript." "Maybe they can help you with the writing." "Perhaps they can, but we don't use verbal language with each other. That's why I had so much difficulty verbalizing

my thoughts during this session."

Barbara suggested that

Then she added,

I

rest until the

"Let's discuss

your

pain subsided.

reptilian body, if

you

can speak comfortably. Could you draw a verbal picture of it?

Kyle and

I

would like

to

know what you look like."

Reptilian Origins 201

my other

"To visualize face until

my

width of long,

was

it

head, you'd have to squeeze

really long."

my hands. "And my my human neck."

head with

compared

to

"Can you describe your

my

indicated the length and

I

eyes?

neck

is

very

Are they rounded or

slanted?" "I

have round eyes,"

eyes are

round and deep

ical eyes.

push I

I

"My

said, in a childish voice

in

"My

now.

my face." I pushed on my phys-

other eyes are deeper,"

I

continuing to

said,

my eyes in.

was determined

reptilian eyes, set

rearrange

to

show Barbara

the position of

deep in their sockets. But

my

my

efforts to

my eyes alarmed Barbara. She quickly distracted

me by asking about my other features.

My gestures were playful and childish. ran my fingers my hair and said, "I don't have any of this, and I I

through

do not have

"No

ears."

How do you hear?" my brain, of course. Intelligent beings do not rely

ears!

"With

on sound

to

communicate."

"Do you have I

a sense of smell?"

couldn't find the right words to answer her question.

"My

interdimensional space

zone. Smells

like a climate-controlled

is

and impurities do not

exist there."

My constant hand gestures caused Barbara "What do your hands look like?" I

displayed

them up call

my human

hands, while Barbara filmed

close. Feeling the tips

these claws, but

I

to ask,

of each

finger,

I

said,

"You

nails,

but

humans do? Do you

use

don't use that word.

I

have

they are long, pointed, and solid."

"Can you use your hands your hands to work?"

as

202 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

I

—

sounded disgusted. "You must remember my race is We don't do physical work. Like our cubicles,

intelligent.

we can be nonphysical, or we can take a form. I can choose to project any body that we are discussing. But I usually form of thought

prefer to exist in the

Kyle asked

if I

had

a

name.

I

names weren't

said that

I

necessary in the other dimension.

our minds,"

alone."

"We communicate with

reminded him.

Barbara saved the best question for

"Do you have

last.

sexual desires?" I

"I

told her emphatically that

am

intelligence!"

I

I

did not have sexual desires.

repeated.

being to you? Electricity

"How

may be

can

flows,

and

I

take a form. facilitate I

see

my natural

state, I

couldn't complete the sentence.

nodded.

anyway.

I

but

electricity,

flow as electricity

the removal of barriers between the physical.

"Perhaps I

In

You

am invisible to human eyes, unless I choose to I am an experimental being, and I am here to

head was again

it

it.

my

explain

the best analogy.

understand the properties and powers of

you cannot

I

filled

The

left

..."

side of

my

with devastating pain.

we were too

close to sensitive information."

My body was distressed and trembling. "I'll say would rather go back

to...."

Again,

I

couldn't

complete the thought.

"Your tongue

you returning I

to

is

swelling again!" Barbara shouted. "Are

your interdimensional body?"

couldn't speak.

My

tongue inflated immediately and

my mouth. The pain was excruciating; for a moment, I thought my head had exploded. extended from

Barbara tried to get a verbal response from me. "Are you

demonstrating

how you

can change bodies?" she asked.

Reptilian Origins 203

In spite of my swollen tongue,

my

I

managed to

human

purposes for being in

to

life is

say,

"One of

remove the

blockages in..."

The pain

intensified,

making

Barbara guessed what in the

I

it

impossible to say more.

was going to

minds of humans?" Then

I

say.

"The blockages

heard her whisper

gently,

"Just rest." I

did rest

—

it

was

like deep,

deep

sleep.

When I opened

my eyes and looked around, I said, "I'm confused." Barbara instructed me to relax and disconnect from the other dimension. "Return

to the

myself

body of Jim

Walden now." must remember

"I

this,"

I

insisted. "I

need to remember

everything that was said."

You of our discussion. How do

Barbara suggested, "You will have complete will

remember every

you

feel?"

detail

recall.

"Rested."

"Good.

Please,

come

to June 24, 1995. Return to the

peace and quiet of your hypnotic cloud." She gave

me

sev-

me into my physical mind and body before she counted me out of the hypnotic state. eral suggestions to

"My ears

guide

are sore."

"Hello," Kyle said.

I

was

still

feeling

tell

residual pain.

"Welcome home."

Barbara seemed delighted to have "Please, Jim,

some

me

back; she said,

us about this experience."

know how to go to the other dimension now. My conscious mind doesn't know what it looks like, nor "Well,

does

it

I

have a direction or a bearing.

I

can go there again,

necessary.... But I'd sure like that pain to

rubbing the side of my head.

go away,"

I

if

said,

204 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

we

"Barbara,

just did

something extraordinary. What

we accomplished is far beyond the first flight over the Most humans cant even imagine doing what we just did." Atlantic Ocean.

"You mastered dual

existence," Barbara said.

"How does your tongue feel?" Kyle asked. I wondered why he was asking about my

tongue.

"It's

fine."

Barbara started. "Oh,

my

gosh!

It's

normal

again.

Do

you know what we're talking about? Stick your tongue out!"

Kyle said, "You don't

know what we're

talking about,

do

you? You'll have to watch the video." "Jim, please stick your tongue out again," Barbara said,

holding the camera for a close-up. I

Why in the world did she want to record the

laughed.

sight of

my tongue? The

serious, however.

stuck

She

expression

really

wanted

out obediently, but

it

I

on her to film

face

was dead

my tongue.

I

was pretty embarrassed

about the whole thing. Turning to Kyle,

I

asked, "Is she

kidding me?" Kyle shook his head. I

I

"I don't understand why sounds are so neceshuman communication. By the way, how long was

mused,

sary for

under?"

"An hour and a

half,"

Kyle sighed, indicating that he and

Barbara had shared an intense experience.

summary of what had happened and me.

I

didn't recall

guessed that "I

I'd

wanted

most of the

book. But instead,

I

gave

his report

session,

me

a

amazed

and would have

been under for only ten or

to talk

He

fifteen minutes.

about specific information for the

gained

many new insights about myself

Reptilian Origins 205

and about the

aliens.

My book

and

my

mission are just a

small part of the alien research program." "Yes,"

hend the gence.

Barbara

said.

vast scope of

And

so

many

"We're just beginning to compre-

our relationships with alien people are

still

intelli-

reporting hurtful

encounters with alien beings. You seem to be past that stage."

She paused and

said, "You're

not a typical abductee.

I'm very proud of your progress." I

thanked her for the encouragement, and she

"When I met you, reptilians.

by them,

Jim,

Because so I

perceived

I

had

a very hard-nosed opinion of

many people have been all

replied,

traumatized

reptilian aliens as reprehensible

beings." I

agreed. "At the beginning of

my

alien odyssey,

ceived their intrusions as malevolent actions, too.

I

per-

Now,

however, I'm inclined to think of the reptilian aliens in a

much more

positive light.

and benevolent of human

life

scientists

I

can accept them as intelligent

who

and evolution."

are researching every aspect

THEY ARE US

Epilogue

PERHAPS THE most occurred on

of those dark winter evenings

when

and the house was warm and been

hectic,

my

significant event in

alien odyssey

a cold winter evening in January 1995.

and

I

was

tired;

It

was one

the sky threatens to snow,

cozy.

My day at

but Kyle and

I

the office had

were determined

work on the manuscript. We'd spent many other evenings transcribing tapes of my regressions and phone conversations to

with Barbara. scripts

It

was tedious work, but these verbatim tran-

were essential to

my writing process.

Kyle was transcribing the tape of one of my interviews with

when he turned to me and remarked, "She's made comments in this interview." I was organizing some of my notes, deeply submerged in my own thoughts. "I wasn't listening," I said. "Please replay

Barbara

several interesting

the last part for me." As soon as

remembered the "She's doing

I

heard Barbara's voice,

I

discussion.

one of her monologues," Kyle joked.

Barbara always has a long

moment's notice

—and

list

of questions to ask at a

during casual conversations, her

207

208 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

may be

questions

longer than the responses. She was say-

ing, "Alien beings are responsible for sexual abuse of chil-

dren, and they're present during rapes. I've

such cases over and over. feel

Do they enter human bodies and

the sexual encounters? Are

Do we

vival?

Sometimes, televisions,

I

documented

we

necessary for their sur-

have a symbiotic relationship with them? think that

and

that

we

are

beyond serving

we host them

as their

They seem to on our emotions and

inside us.

experience our feelings, and thrive

documented their presence during birth and Aliens seem to be intricately involved in every

passions. I've

death.

aspect of

human

life.

Usually, they aren't visible; but our

eyes can't see germs, either."

As

I

my reaction to her tone me scrambling instant, an obscure area of my

listened to Barbaras voice,

of voice and her use of certain words sent for a

pen and paper. In an

mind opened and released its hidden treasure. The weather forecast for the weekend included freezing rain and snow but I was willing to assume the risk of traveling through any weather to discuss my new insights with Barbara. Kyle and I arrived at her house safely on a

—

Saturday afternoon. This would be our

compiled

all

last session

before

I

our information and immersed myself in

writing the remaining chapters.

As we made ourselves comfortable in Barbara's office, we could hear the intimidating sound of sleet on the roof. She was anxious to hear my comments and, as usual,

—

decided to record our conversation. I

made on the tape and tried what had happened when I heard it. "I felt a sensation in my head and suddenly, I knew the

read the statement she had

to explain

peculiar

—

answers to your questions. You provided a mental key that fit

a locked area of my brain.

When the lock opened, a new

Epilogue:

thought emerged. The only words in are us!

I

my mind were,

They

couldn't process any other thoughts."

Barbara was listening "I

They Are Us 209

carefully.

wrote the words down, because

them. But

I

didn't

I

didn't stop with the first idea.

I

want

to forget

also wrote,

'We

are physical, conscious extensions of our multidimensional

beings. Alien beings are present with us so often because

they are

us!'

"These thoughts have permeated three days;

last

else.

When

I

began to see in

I

my

thinking for the

haven't been able to think about anything

related

them

to

my

contacts with aliens,

more than one dimension

simultaneously.

thought about the sessions with Old Big Head reviewing the information he gave us, that

we

I

how humans could be dualistic beings; we live

I

—

Then I and after

became convinced

are actually a multiplicity of beings."

Barbara wasn't asking questions in her usual manner,

and

I felt

first

time. Basically,

awkward. "I'm verbalizing these thoughts

my physical, conscious being, which

sitting

here and talking to you,

beings

who

live in

for the

is

is

an extension of other

other dimensions."

"You said you related these ideas to your personal experiences?" Barbara asked. I

reminded her of

coma aliens

my

for nearly a week.

illness,

when

I

lay in a feverish

"Most of the time,

seven

of them

my hospital bed. Some my being they were multidimen-

remained beside

were not external to

six or

—

me, who were nurturing, reprogrammy human body and mind. They were

sional extensions of

ming, and reviving

assuring the survival of

my integrated being."

"Are you saying that our physical, conscious self

one

is

just

facet of a multilayered, interdimensional being?" Kyle

then asked.

210 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"I've

days,

been processing these thoughts for the

and

yes, that's correct.

or what, ghosts and spirits are?

about

a spirit

who appeared

Most

—and such apparitions may appear

identities. Also,

three

families have a story

to a relative

dying

and

last

Have you ever wondered who,

who was

in various

ill

or

forms

people talk about seeing a brilliant

white light just before death.

Some people

believe that

these manifestations are helpful spirit guides or divinely

inspired forces,

coming

human life." "And how do

these apparitions

our transitions out of

to assist

into your theory?"

fit

Kyle asked.

"These

spirits

may be

interdimensional extensions of

who sees them, and they may be there to prehuman counterpart for release from the physical part of life. Or they may simply be reminders of the multiplicity of our existence. And human death may simply be the person

pare their

the process of reintegrating ourselves with our multidi-

mensional being, rather than an expiration."

"Most people haven't even accepted Kyle reminded me.

spirit entities yet,"

"How can you explain

that

humans

are

extensions of multidimensional beings?" "I

can only

point.

'They are

us!'"

I

replied.

Most people wouldn't understand

explanation. ple.

say,

Many

acceptable

I

But he had a

my

added, "This theory will disturb

people spend their

form of

human- created and

lives

spirituality.

unattainable,

I

three-word

many peo-

seeking a culturally believe this quest

and

it

is

prevents us from

discovering the multiplicity of our true being."

"Those are profound thoughts," Kyle "Yes. In other

may

words, our

separate our

human

said.

quest for spirituality

human being from our multidimenThat may be why most humans aren't

sional counterparts.

Epilogue:

They Are Us

211

integrated with their other selves in their temporary

human

lives.

We

should be striving for integration with

our multidimensional

selves, rather

than trying to appease

an elusive god."

new idea for me," Kyle said. are still new to me, as well," I assured him.

"That's a brand

"These ideas "Initially,

I

nal to me;

and

their

perceived felt

I

power

aliens as inexplicable beings, exter-

all

victimized by their superior technology

to control

were simply created by

me. But these apparent

conflicts

my inability to grasp my own mul-

we want to understand aliens, we'll have to stop thinking of them as alien." "Do your new ideas pertain to all humans or just certain tiplicity. If

groups?" Barbara asked.

"This 'they-are-us' idea only.

It's

may

pertain to

likely that reptilian intelligence

evolution of all humans; but as far as

I

human

hybrids

has influenced the

can

tell,

only

human

hybrids have received specialized programming."

Kyle said, "But

if

you're a

human

hybrid,

you probably

much understanding of pure humans. Most of your human understanding would be based on lives as a human hybrid." don't have

"That's a

good

point, Kyle. All

tives are limited to

"Do you have a human hybrids?" "No.

I

my insights and perspec-

my own experience as a human hybrid." feel for

the ratio of pure

can't estimate the ratio of

humans and

human

hybrids to

human hybrids are being assimilated into every culture, they may eventually outnumber humans." "If the population balance is shifting in favor of human hybrids," Kyle reasoned, "your theories may be very timely. As we speak, thousands or even millions of human hybrids may be struggling to awaken."

humans. But

if

212

THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"Yes, these are timely ideas.

Our human need

stand alien beings has intensified. Think

how

to under-

aliens have

been popularized in books, movies, and television programs. But

I

don t think we'll be

of alien beings as long as tality.

They are

make

a

and we

us,

able to discover the reality

we have

a 'them-versus-us'

are them.

I

don't believe

I'll

mennever

more profound statement about aliens. Before we we must discover the truth

can understand their existence, of ours."

"Those are powerful thoughts," Barbara

said.

"And

you're right about our growing fascination with alien beings, especially

"According to lated as

from to

among

children."

my theory, our interest in aliens has esca-

more and more hybrids

receive a

their multidimensional selves,"

I

said.

be more accepting of interdimensional

wake-up

call

"Children seem realities,

while

we 'older models' may have more difficulty accepting ourselves as multiple beings. The interdimensional extensions of

my

being contacted

me

hundreds of times before

stopped thinking of them as

who

alien

left

aliens.

I

For example, the gray

my body during my first

regression was an

interdimensional extension of myself." After a thoughtful pause, Kyle said, "These ideas will

rock

many people.

"They are

us!"

I

I've

never heard them before."

repeated.

"Some of the

aliens

I

met were

my conscious world, adjusted my body and mind, and helped me understand my role in human evolution. It's more evi-

multidimensional aspects of myself. They entered

dence that our reptilian intelligence grate

all

is

attempting to inte-

the dimensions, or worlds."

"You're assimilating this information share

it

with others," Kyle

said.

and preparing

to

"Who knows how many

Epilogue:

people will read your book, or

They Are Us 213

how your

theories will

change them."

"Overcoming our

fear of interdimensional beings

actually be our greatest challenge, theories,

most of those

from our

failure

to

fears are

and according

unfounded. They

may

to

my

result

recognize the multidimensional

Some aliens are actually our own counterparts, but when we perceive them as external to us, we become afraid of what we don't understand, and react aspects of our being.

with

fear, anger,

and

pain."

"Are you saying that

we must

figure out

how to

integrate

ourselves with our total being?" Kyle asked. "I can't

grasp

all

the implications of

my comments yet.

know that my total being has more than one interdimensional layer. I can't deny the gray alien who left my body, or Old Big Head. I don't know how many layers of my being exist, or how many dimensions they occupy. And I'll never truly understand the phenomenon of alien encounters until I integrate my human self with all my multidiBut

I

mensional

selves.

"I can't yet tell

But

I

do know

gramming

how to integrate their being. we must overcome the human pro-

other people

that

that causes us to think of our spiritual quest as

our only true objective in

life.

Instead of assuming that a

god or gods created humans, we should instead consider that

we humans may have

created our gods."

"Are you referring to your ideas about the interaction

between early humans and

extraterrestrial astronauts?"

Kyle asked. "Yes.

I

believe that primitive

extraterrestrials as wrathful italized

on

that fear, using

it

humans

perceived the

gods— and

that the aliens cap-

to control

and manipulate the

214 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

humans.

the

If so,

emulate gods

human

spiritual quest

—probably developed

their intelligence

with

us.

But

—our

desire to

as the aliens shared

thousands of years of

after

alien-directed evolution, the reptilian intelligence

is

now

dispersed throughout the

human population; and the need

for a spiritual quest

no longer

is

humans should focus on

relevant. Therefore,

the discovery of their multidi-

mensional beings, rather than seeking approval from

omnipotent gods, whom they've never even "These seeking

seen."

new insights may be the information we've been

all

along," Barbara said.

"And

I

about death especially intriguing. From

find your ideas

this

new perspec-

tive, spirit

beings would be our multidimensional counter-

parts. I've

heard

many reports about spirits leaving human

Now I'm wondering if interdimen-

bodies during deaths. sional beings use our

aspects of human

human bodies

life,

to experience various

such as emotions."

"Yes, that's part of the

phenomenon,"

I

said.

means that multidimensional beings can enter human bodies and watch life events through human eyes," "So that

Barbara concluded.

"Imagine their reports to reptilian headquarters," Kyle said, laughing. I

asked,

"Do you remember my

old theories about the

Earth as an alien experimental farm? Back then,

humans were

alien -owned chattel

I

thought

—and now we're

dis-

cussing the integration of human consciousness with mul-

tidimensional entities. I

realize

far

now that the

supersedes

Humans

our

We may be experimental beings; but reptilian

simple

human-evolution program cattle-breeding

concepts.

are literally receiving the master intelligence."

"Do you have a prognosis for humanity?" Barbara asked.

They Are Us

Epilogue:

"Yes.

gence

I

is

bodies,

believe that the ultimate goal of reptilian intelli-

human mean people with human minds and

to populate the Earth with integrated

By

hybrids.

215

this,

I

who can

simultaneously manifest multidimen-

sional reptilian intelligence."

"Going back to your

"how can we reduce our "That

by

may be

'they- are- us' theory," Kyle said, fear of aliens?"

a matter of perspective.

my early encounters. My human

felt

I

victimized

tendency was to react

with emotional and physical pain. In retrospect, however,

understand that both alien forced

me

grating

to constantly

my human

was disturbing

self

scientists

and

move toward with

at times,

my

but as

self- discovery. Inte-

multidimensional selves I

moved

forward,

more of my humanness, my fears and illusions about these experiences."

I

was

including

slowly able to release

"That's an interesting perspective," Kyle said.

would you describe your current

I

my counterparts

"How

relationship with the rep-

tilian intelligence?"

"I feel like a participant in a

multidimensional marathon,

participating in a race to save the planet. I've accepted myself as a

human

hybrid,

my

and dedicated

life

to facilitating

world peace and preserving the planet." "You've certainly

come

full circle in

victim to participant," Barbara said.

have for those

who

are

still

your thinking, from

"What

advice do you

experiencing painful alien

interventions in their lives?"

my case, Jane recognized my suffering, and led me to you. My suggestion for abductees is to seek others who Ve had "In

Although we may be in a different stage we can still learn from one another. Some-

similar experiences.

of self-discovery, times

I

wonder how

I

survived

my

awakening.

I

probably

"

216 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

would have died

continued to

if I'd

isolate

myself and to

think of aliens as malevolent beings. "Eventually, aspects of altered.

But in return

freedom

to discover

my human life were removed or

received health, happiness,

I

and the

my multidimensional lives."

"Alien encounters are

beyond the understanding of

—and we can

perceive these experiences either

most people

as devastating or enlightening," Kyle

"Good point," I with the

little girl.

said,

"As

remarked.

thinking about Barbara's interview

we

evolve,

we may be

able to

com-

pletely bypass the disturbing phases of self- discovery that

I

And our acceptance of our interdimensional much faster if we believe in self- integrarather than victimization. Future human hybrids may

experienced. lives will

tion

enter

progress

with

life

full

consciousness of other dimensions."

"When I think of the diversity of religious thought among human beings," Barbara said thoughtfully, "I sometimes wonder how we can we help." "Old Big Head said that

fifty to

seventy-five years could

pass before peaceful coexistence begins

he also said that some of us are here

way

for others.

These theories about

may be beneficial to

future thinkers

—and

on the planet

now to human

and

prepare the multiplicity

researchers."

"These concepts have certainly been beneficial to you," Kyle said. "Yes; they

multidimensional selves

them

new world for me. When our come to us, we mustn't perceive

have opened a

as external beings

and

react with fear, anger, or pain.

We must accept our human lives as extensions of beings in other forms who live in other dimensions. We would be so much happier if we But so

far, this

sible for

could interface with these other

selves.

kind of communication has not been acces-

most people.

"In the future, will pure

Epilogue:

They Are Us 217

humans have

interdimensional

contacts, or just hybrids?" Barbara asked.

"Pure humans will not exist in the future!" sharply. "I interpret all

humans

Old Big Head's remarks

to

said

I

mean

that

will share the reptilian intelligence within fifty

to seventy-five years. this intelligence,

Human

and

other words, the pure

hybrids are the carriers of

their offspring will disperse

human species

is

dissolving,

it.

and

In

will

be replaced by human hybrids."

"Wow! This could make

headlines," Kyle said. "Those

are profound thoughts to digest

your journey.

I

—and

can understand the

I've participated in

human

see alien encounters as negative events, but

aged by your theories.

inclination to I

feel

Some encounters with

encour-

aliens

may

be manifestations of our struggle to achieve continuity with multidimensional beings their

own

I felt

ideas.

—people

interacting with

selves."

uneasy as

I

listened to Kyle's interpretations of

my

My theories were still new, and they weren't familiar

and comfortable Barbara?"

when you She

I

yet.

"Does

all

make

of this

sense to you,

asked, seeking her support. "I feel alarmed

don't ask your usual probing questions."

said, "I don't

want

ing your theories clearly,

to interrupt you. You're express-

and

I

just

going. Besides, you've answered

want

to keep the flow

most of

my

questions

before I've had a chance to ask them."

"As you know, Barbara, the other side,

I

often feel a longing to be

and sometimes

ing myself into

human

life.

able in other dimensions.

I've

had

At times,

Some

on

difficulty reintegratI

more comfortpain, anger, and

felt

of the

conflict that people experience following encounters

might

be attributable to their subconscious desires to stay in contact

with those other dimensions."

218 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

other dimensions without any con-

"Do people travel to

scious awareness of their journeys?" Kyle asked.

more than twenty years, I served as a some called me a channeler and left

"I'm sure of it! For

—

psychic counselor

my consciousness while

—

frequently. At the time,

I

assumed

that

my body 'God' was protecting me and to speak through my voice. I was naive!

was out of

I

allowing

'Spirit'

During the regressions, "You used to dimensions

talk

after

"Back then,

I

I

experienced other dimensions."

about crossing back and forth between

your encounters," Barbara didn't understand the

said.

need to maintain

my multidimensional selves. I didn't know that parts of me were residing in other dimensions." the continuity of

"So,

you cant avoid

"You cant stop

contacts," Kyle said.

yourself from having interdimensional contacts, because you're actually interfacing with yourself all the time."

"That's right. In fact, contacts.

I

Three years ago,

wouldn't want to stop having I

was waiting

for the aliens to

my life tragically. Now, I feel a great sense of responsibility to live and to explain my experiences to others." "This may be the most profound conversation of my end

lifetime," Kyle said. "I feel the

same way,"

opened our minds aliens less

I

assured him.

"Now

that we've

to these ideas, we'll be talking about

and discussing our multidimensional

selves

more."

"These ideas are intellectually stimulating, but they're also a bit scary," Kyle said. "I can't

imagine

how other peo-

ple will react to them." "I'll

have to reconsider the events of my

of these

new theories," I

said. "I

want

life

in the light

to determine

whether

they really do provide explanations for

my questions about

human life. They may be inadequate to

explain everything,

Epilogue:

but

at the

about

moment,

human

have

I

existence

experience before

I

unobstructed thoughts

clear,

and evolution, and

us!'"

may be

the person

the gap between us."

"Rather than bridging the gap, to yourselves,"

never had this

I

heard the words 'They are

Barbara seemed to understand. "You

who will bridge

They Are Us 219

said.

I

introduce you

I'd like to

"People need to become acquainted

own multiple beings." of our political and many "So

with their

dissolve if people

social

problems would

around the globe understood

all this,"

Kyle said. "I

look forward to living in a happier, healthier world,"

"But most humans

replied.

existence to a

will

continue to credit their

supreme being. Most people

will

culty accepting these theories, until they are

begin their I felt

own

have

Kyle had been right;

we

said.

—and

so

much more. I was so

unwavering support and encouragement.

wondered what was

in store for the friends I'd

—and the images began

to

pour

phone would ring soon, and she'd become

new

I

three were capable of producing a

alien encounters

grateful for their

my journey

to

our discussion drew to an

end. "This could be our last brainstorming session,"

I

diffi-

prompted

searches."

a twinge of sadness as

book about

I

in.

met on

Barbara's

involved in a

would follow his dream of returning to colstudy computer programming. Jane would be

case. Kyle

lege to

focused on her family, but she'd continue to peer into the future to help others. over.

I

And I might

even relocate and

was wondering which world

son would

live in,

when Barbara

my

"The

future."

"All

know is, it'll arrive on

I

interdimensional

asked,

thinking of?"

schedule."

start

"What

are

you

220 THE ULTIMATE ALIEN AGENDA

"Yes.

For the present,

I'll

focus

on my writing and my role

my knowledge of their relationships with humans and instructed me to share my theories with other people. Although my account as a voice for the aliens.

may

They have expanded

not answer every question

people to ask their answers. That's alien odyssey."

own

what I hope

we

have,

I

can encourage

questions and seek their to accomplish

own

by describing

my

Aliens

/

Paranormal

Hypnotic Regression

/

"[Jim Walden has] succeeded in saying time.

No one else has —Barbara

written

a book

what needs

like this

Bartholic, Internationally

be said at

to

this

one!"

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