Our Life Beyond MKULTRA, Book 1 9781490439686

Table of contents :
Acknowledgements
Foreword by Elana Freeland
Introduction
1. Shattering A Young Mind: The Early Years
 
The infant
Rabbit
Childhood aliens
Missing time
Alien abduction?
Breathing underwater
Black patent leather and nancy the cheerleader
 
2. The Teen Years
 
Unhappy birthdays
"Female," not a woman
Brutality to the young
The deep breathing pool
Nowhere to hide
Brought together
 
3. "18"
 
Torture, programming, guns, and reptiles
Binding possession
The Mormons
 
4. Killing
 
Alpha and Omega: First and last solo
Shiny purple and the actor
 
5. 20: More Sex and Killing
 
Broken bones
Hanging on through the heavy use years
Body memories
The “Bordello” years
Demo-ed in New York
The FBI
The island and shiny purple
Bodies on the beach
Alter 14’s right hand grip
A life of killing
 
6. Ritual Use, Ritual Death
 
Beware, little ones, there be dragons . . .
The gold bowl of monatomic gold
Human flesh
 
7. All In A Night's Work
 
Full abreaction to “Jones” on Halloween
 
8. More On-Task
 
The perfect, lethal hostess
Drive it in
Time sensitive
Alter 14 and mutual handling
Training
Barrenness inside and out
"Band on the Run"
Electric programming to forget
 
9. Breakdowns, Reprogramming, and Fragments
 
Fragments
Our associations
"Delta Blues"
Andrew Jackson Plantation
Missing time
Starve and purge
The Scientologists
Batman
 
10. The 30's: It All Starts to Unravel
 
Aliens, the “female,” and reprogramming
Preparing for sex
Light emanating from us
Torture in northern Georgia
Death at 39
 
11. The 40's
 
Simon
Another disappearance
Trips
Cain’s bitch, lily
Red light district
"An alien walks into a gallery . . .
Salt Lake City: Our deep deprogramming begins
My Own Worst Enemy
Ownership: Cain, Lilith, and Lucifer
The “Relinquishing"
 
12. Internal Programming
 
Lily and the others
Alters 14 and 25 face to face
Pursuing a kill alter
Programming to actor Christian Bale
Splitting
 
13. Where the Alters and Systems Live
 
              The alters
              The systems
 
14. Running Interference
 
15. Programming: Codes, Triggers, and Reinforcements
 
16. Diary Entries
 
Epilogue: Our Keys to True Freedom, April 2010
Lexicon
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