LOVE INCARNATE - MAA SUDESHI BUDDHA

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LOVE INCARNATEMAA SUDESHI BUDDHA


TABLE OF CONTENTS BACKGROUND

1. START OF AN ADVENTURE 2. FIRST MEETING AND CRUSHING OF SPIRITUAL EGO 3. BE FOCUSSED 4. BEAUTIFUL POINTERS FROM MAA 5.INTERESTING EXPERIENCES AND FOND MEMORIES 6.A SIMPLE TRADE OFF 7. DO PEOPLE HAVE FREE WILL 8.PERSONAL TRANFORMATION STORIES OF HER STUDENTS 9. PARTING MESSAGE 10. BEAUTIFUL QUOTES BY MAA


BACKGROUND

This book is dedicated to my spiritual master Maa Sudeshi buddha and how her guidance transformed my life . Her pointings ,life experiences and wisdom and how they enriched my life .

It emphasises the importance of having a living master and how to be receptive to grace . I hope this book enriches your life in some way.

Meditation is a beautiful path .

We all are searching for happiness but the only problem is we are searching in the wrong place . Its time we turn within and get in touch with our true nature ..

OM SHANTI


CHAPTER 1- START OF AN ADVENTURE I was also looking for something deeper . I was subjected to traumatic bullying in school and was always depressed . The situation was made worse because of my chronic health issues of hearing loss and allergies which made me go into a self destructive mode of self pity . I felt suppressed because I never had the confidence to voice my opinion and felt like a door mat .

I was seeking peace ,a way to get out of the psychological drama and experience life . One day as i fell asleep ,I had a very vivid dream . In that i saw a group of ladies dancing with Osho with joy and laughter . I woke up so fresh and excited as if i had the glimpse of bliss for the first time in my life.

I asked some people enquiring if there was an Osho disciple in the town . The dream vision was the start of a series of events that was going to change my life for good .

Then I searched on Facebook and found Maa sudeshi buddha . I felt an instant connection .I was so happy that i would finally have someone to guide me to turn within . Luckily enough somebody in my locality was her student and helped me get an appointment from her .




She lives at a walking distance from my house yet I never know . Master comes in a student’s life when his seeking is really genuine . Otherwise you may come across a Buddha and not notice due to your ignorance.

A master is like a mirror . Only a master can show you your shortcomings and save you from going in the wrong direction . I hardly knew anything about meditation and had no actual experience .

But i had read a lot of books and filled my head with garbage and developed a subtle arrogance . The time had finally come . As i reached her home , a beautiful fragrance overwhelmed me . I rang the bell and door was opened . I entered into the heaven called Osho upvan. The whole place had a divine vibration . It felt as if i had entered a temple . So much peace and a sweet fragrance of incense .

A large photo of Osho on the wall with his magnetic blissful eyes . I was told to wait for few minutes by her daughter in law . It is rightly said that everyone gets deeply transformed by the transmission of a Buddha . Every member of Maa’s family is so kind and loving . It almost feels like I have gone into a Satya yuga as I enter her house.

And finally the awaited moment came . As Maa emerged from her room it felt like a Goddess had arrived. She was glowing and radiating love . Her eyes

had the intoxication of the one who has known the ultimate truth . Her face was glowing with spiritual power .

I bowed down to her and then received the most loving hug i had received in my entire life . 


CHAPTER 2 - FIRST MEETING AND CRUSHING OF SPIRITUAL EGO I had no depth of spiritual experience and still thought i was very advanced just because I had filled a lot of garbage in my head reading spiritual books .

I was in a way seeking validation and praise from her that i was very special .

Such are traps of ego which only a master can remove. It took two meetings for my eyes to open and veil of ignorance to be removed . It was only after two sessions that i became aware of my plethora of shortcomings and realised that i was just a beginner on the path and I knew nothing .

During the first meeting Maa gave me some very important pointings . She told always trust your experience . Experience the truths of existence in deep meditation rather than filling your head with second hand knowledge from books which is not going to help at all .

She emphasises this is an endless journey . We are not the doers . Drop the feeling of being separate and surrender to existence .

She told me I have a long way to go and that I need to develop patience and faith. Its so funny everyone who starts on a spiritual path expects to get enlightened within a year . What is important to understand is that it is a journey of lifetimes .

Maa got enlightened in this lifetime but she has lifetimes of dedicated search , some of past lives she shared with osho and many of her students in this life are acquaintances from former lives .

Like Lord krishna says in Bhagavad gita ‘Do your duty and give up the desire for fruits of action’. Similarly we must keep doing our spiritual practice without being impatient . Maa often says forget about your obsession of enlightenment . Just go deep in meditation totally and with full intensity ,enlightenment will happen in its own time .

She shared a very important incident which was like a wake up call . Often being impatient we go on the wrong path .

It is sad that in todays time because there are so many frauds impersonating as spiritual teacher .

No wonder people these days are not open to the idea of having a spiritual teacher . No doubt the self in the teacher and student is one but the external teacher is required to help the student recognise that .

The incident she shared was about a young aspirant on the spiritual path . He was very impatient and ending up meeting a black magician disguised as a teacher . He was totally brainwashed and misguided . His family was

worried . HIs family contacted Maa . He was saved just in time from the dangerous cult . The lesson is be patient and have a genuine seeking . If your seeking is genuine you will eventually meet the right master . As the great 19 century master Sai baba used to repeat that patience and faith are most important on the spiritual path .

CHAPTER 3- BE FOCUSSED These days there is a very bad trend of spiritual shopping and mixing practices . It is sure road to disaster. One day prank healing workshop , next day tai chi followed by crystal and reiki healing .

Such kind of foolish behaviour leads a seeker nowhere . Maa often says they want to save the planet but they cant save themselves . Often messiah complex thoughts of saving the planet comes from a sense of inner inadequacy .

Seekers can’t save them from the illusion of maya but want to heal the planet . Maa tells us one should practice self healing and teaches various techniques for that . Although one should not be attached much to the body but this body is an instrument to realise the divine .She tells it is foolish to interfere in someones karma by practicing reiki on others . This has been the view of all great masters of the past also .

It is wiser to dig one deep well rather than digging ten shallow wells . When you approach a master ,do so with humility and then stick to the teachings and practices taught by the master .Mixing practices and paths and going to dozens of teachers will only confuse you .

Discipline and spiritual practice is very important . This New age Neo advaita school is nothing but a bunch of lazy people who don’t want to put in the effort and just intellectually try to know the truth which is never going to happen .

No doubt enlightenment happens by grace and in an instant but to come to that point requires lifetimes of dedicated seeking and searching .

That is also Osho’s and Ma’s view .The truth is beyond the feeling of I am . In silence there is no ‘ I am’

Regularity is must . Maa often tells us if you are given a technique ,do it daily for three months . The mind has a tendency to get bored . True benefits can only be seen with consistency .

Also one of my friends was recognised by Maa as very advanced .So she said simply sit in silence as a witness . She says techniques are for beginners . The best approach is silent sitting .

Because technique involves doing and meditation is about being . But beginners like us need effort to eventually go to the point of effortlessness .

Another important point Maa tells is that choose a particular time and place for meditation . When we consistently do our sadhana at a fixed place , the place gets spiritually charged .

Also set an alarm with a tibetan singing bowl sound or any other pleasant sound .This is because meditation can evoke an out of the body experience . Having a gentle alarm allows us to come back smoothly . Also meditation is not about escapism .

We need to a fixed sitting routine and then carry that meditative quality in are practical lives .

Meditation as Ma says is 24/7 . You have got to aware and alert all the time .

CHAPTER -4 BEAUTIFUL POINTERS FROM MAA Maa has given many life transforming pointings to not only me but so many of my seeker friends. A master can see which student needs what . Osho was often seen as contradicting himself but people don’t understand that the master answers according to the disciple .

Maa often tells us to be aware and alert all the time . The more aware one is the more life becomes beautiful .

I was a very dry intellectual person . Maa told me that meditation should make you joyous and celebrating people and not serious sad people . This is why there is a path of devotion practiced along with vedanta and that is why osho stressed on dancing and rejoicing .

One of my friends had found himself in an accidental kundalini awakening . He used to experience energy surges ,headaches , ringing sounds in the ear . This was obviously not a medical condition . He was spiritually inclined but was scattered. When he met her ,he felt an instant connection .She could see something deep happening in him . She touched him at the third eye and gave him meditation instructions . After he came out of meditation he was totally blissful . A deep peace pervaded him and from that day the symptoms of energetic imbalance went away . Such is the grace of the master .

A common mistake many spiritual seekers make is to interpret difficulties as a problem with a particular practice. Then, when the going gets tough, the tough go “spiritual shopping.” From the vantage point of that uncomfortable edge, some other practice always looks better. “Maybe I should do Tibetan chanting . . . or Sufi dancing.” In fact, difficulties usually are a reliable sign that the practice is working.

Take Maa’s advice to heart. Stick with the practice you’ve chosen through difficulty and doubt, through inspiration and stagnation, through the inevitable ups and downs. If you can stay committed to your practice through the darkest of times, wisdom will dawn.

Maa often stresses to meditate everyday.She states firmly that if you want peace, you must practice regularly. She insists that students find time for formal meditation practice every day, even if only for five minutes. If that proved impossible, she advises, “At least when you are in bed at night, notice just one in-breath and one out-breath before you fall asleep.”

Another amazing event with one of my friends in college . He used to pray and chant everyday but had no living teacher . One day as he was sleeping , he was woken by a tap on the back . He saw a lady radiating love and she said ‘Go deeper’. Next day he mentioned this to me and asked me if i knew such a person . I showed him Maa’s picture and he was stunned . It was Ma who had visited him astrally . He felt an instant connection when he met Maa

and her guidance helped him immensely . Maa told very often the student and the master are connected from many past lifetimes .

Another friend of mine was very emotionally imbalanced . A master can see through you . She told her to practice some active meditation techniques since a lot of catharsis needed to happen for her before she could sit in silent contemplation and meditation .

I am very careful when bring any seeker friend to Ma since i don’t like to bring people who come to test the Guru . But it happened twice that one of my friends brought two people who were too full of themselves .

Maa often says that a master is like an ocean of nectar . Those who are receptive and humble can receive the grace . Master is always overflowing with grace . So this guy was a student of a well known world teacher and ironically he had never met his teacher in person . This is the problem when there is no one to one contact with the Guru . The student can go on an ego trip and convince and fool themselves they are enlightened . Sadly such arrogant seekers never get any depth because ego identification becomes very strong and a holier than thou attitude develops .

Maa often emphasises that ego is very subtle and that humility is a pre requisite to receive grace and guidance from existence .

Another person who once met her was so identified with being a reiki master , student of pranic healing and having done a plethora of bogus spiritual courses . Such spiritual shoppers never gain any depth but just become more egoistic which is sad because the whole purpose of spiritual process is to dissolve the ego .

Ma often highlights the importance of practicing gratitude and dealing with our karma with dignity and without complaining .

Often seekers go to their Master to discuss their mundane problems and cure their health problems . That is not the right thing to do . The feet of the master are not dumping ground of your problems .

Rather one should seek wisdom from the Guru , wisdom which will change your perception towards life . The biggest blessing a master bestows is changing your perception to life . Whatever karma need to unfold will inevitably happen but you will remain a witness totally detachment . That is alchemy of a spiritual process under the right guidance .

Ma tells to live each moment totally as if it is the last . She has also created Bardo meditations to use the moment of death in the best possible life . If one can exit this body at the time of death in full awareness , then liberation is possible . Even if there is some awareness ,the next birth will be spiritual .

Ma has guided many of her senior students and relatives through Bardo making the moment of death their meditation .

Maa was blessed to have a very pious and spiritual life partner . They both did their spiritual journey together . Maa often says it is a big blessing to have a spouse who is spiritual otherwise it can be difficult to coordinate your sadhana .

He was diagnosed with cancer but such was his divinity that he was peaceful through the entire process . In such times when people become depressed , he deepened his meditation and took Ma’s help in perfecting Bardo meditation . And he attained maha paranirvana which is freedom from cycle of birth and death .

Maa often tells that don’t force anyone to come on the spiritual path .Just give deep messages when you sit in a gathering rather than gossiping. Don’t be pushy because the fragrance of a flower spreads . Once a person becomes meditative people around him transform . Although i am just a beginner on the path I have seen my family become more tolerant and religious with time .

But in case of Buddhas the impact is on another level . Also perhaps only great souls become their family members . I have never seen a place as peaceful as Ma’s home . It is like a temple with a spiritual vibration . Her son is very kind and deep into meditation and so are other members . Her daughter in laws help Ma with technology . Her grandchildren are so keen into spirituality .

I feel blessed to know such kind and loving people .

Her daughter in law makes the tastiest coffee in the world . Maa is often called ‘badamo wali Ma’ because she makes the most amazing almond tea’.She is the living example of how one can touch the ultimate truth being in the world and yet not of the world . 


CHAPTER 5-INTERESTING EXPERIENCES AND FOND MEMORIES Meeting Maa has been one of the most beautiful things that happened to me .She has helped me to recognise so many faults within me and helped me go deeper in meditation .

Her house is a temple for us and the best meditations of me and my friends have happened there . Maa often says be in the world yet not of the world. The whole spiritual process is about transcending the mind . That can be done wherever you are at . Once doesn’t need to renounce the world.

One should rather renounce ego . She told us an interesting incident of a swami who came to meet her and fell at her feet crying .He said he regretted taking vows of monkhood and had told her he struggled with controlling his sexual energies .

Many times male monks become homosexual out of helplessness . They have repressed their sexual energies

Spiritual process involves transforming the lower energies and not suppressing them .

This is the reason Osho talked about tantra . People are too foolish and quick to judge . For some people who have past lifetimes of sadhna dispassion is natural .But for majority that is not the case .

Also meditation without devotion and celebration can become less fruitful .

This is why Osho taught dancing and rejoicing .

You cant call yourself spiritual and have a long serious face . Maa has the most graceful smile and god intoxicated eyes . A buddha has glowing and radiating .

Torturing your body and fasting is not required . Follow the middle path -the path of moderation . The body is a tool which you have to use to realise the truth of existence . Buddha fasted and his body become just bones . After awakening he realised it was not required .

Another paradox is that although enlightenment happens by grace and not by personal effort .But grace also showers on those who put in the effort . So this neo advaita school of thought is totally inaccurate .You can’t intellectually go to the truth without spiritual practice .

The meditations at Ma’s place are very deep . Ma has been regularly guiding seeker since 1991 . She had received a message from existence to spread Osho’s work . She had met Osho in 1985 in Manali . One gaze of Osho opened the memories of many lifetimes . Her whole body was invaded by high voltage spiritual currents .

Time just flies in her presence . All worries disappear and a deep peace prevails . Time in an illusion . So is mind . When mind dissolves there is no perception of time . If one is totally available to the presence and grace of the master awakening can happen then and there . Sadly most of us don’t have that kind of surrender and receptivity .

The presence of a master is not limited by space and time . I remember one of my doctor friends had a video call with Ma and had an intense kundalini experience during the video call .

Maa refrains to talk about kundalini and chakras because focussing on these things we are still subtle body centred. Kundalini rises automatically when distractions of mind go . There is so much non sense written about kundalini ,often written by those who have no experience .

She transmits all the time . Spontaneous awakenings have often happened in her presence . She has a lot of siddhis but like a true master she often emphasises they are very big distraction on the spiritual path . She can see through you . She once told somebody that he was linked to gurgieff in a past life and he should read his books .

A master knows you in and out . You cant fake and create a facade in front of a master . You are totally naked in front of the guru . Don’t resist and don’t let the ego interfere . Receive with humility and receptivity .

Maa never charges from anyone . Thats a sign of a true master . Spirituality cant be bought . She is the most selfless person I have met . Sometimes our meetings have gone to the duration of five hours and once she is guiding a student then she becomes oblivious to the fact that it is dinner time .

She is totally available for you when you are with her . She makes the tastiest coffee and tea .

She visits her students in her astral body and guides . But she is the most humble person i have met . She is so divine yet has a childlike innocence .

One can learn so much from just seeing how the master lives .

I remember once her son and daughter in law fell ill with dengue fever . She was extremely caring and served them day and night climbing stairs countless times since they live on the first floor of the house . Spirituality fills you with love and compassion , it doesn’t make you indifferent .

She is always there for her family . In indian culture Women were not given enough freedom when Ma was young . But her spiritual dedication and sincerity melted everyones heart .Her mother and father in law became supportive of her spiritual search . Doors kept opening . Difficulties came but her trust on her Guru osho and existence was immense . We have felt osho’s

presence often while doing white robe meditations . Once my friend asked her if she had come to bless him putting her hand on his hand . Maa said she didn’t . She herself shares of how Osho’s presence is still felt . He was indeed one of the greatest masters who ever walked the planet . Although Ma didn’t spend time in poona ashram , she was always connected to him on a subtle level .

A master’s presence is beyond space and time . Question is how receptive you are . She once shared how she wanted to have a fruit from the garden where osho used to sit and how miraculously a fruit came when she went while previously it wasn’t there . There are many things beyond are limited mind which happen on the path .

Ma has had many telepathic and out of the body experiences when she was on the path . Once somebody brought the photographs of a foreign country and she could recognise it since she had spent a past life there .

Often she would call me when i had a doubt but did not want to disturb her . I am not exaggerating that divinity of a master . Mind cant fathom the divinity of a true master .

Many energetic blockages in the subtle body dissolve in her presence . Satoris happen and mind melts like sugar dissolves in water .

Maa once shared how she met a teacher who was giving enlightenment certificates after people attended his three day paid retreat . She warns seekers of getting exploited by so many fraud teachers in today’s time . Enlightenment happens in an instant but it takes lifetimes of search to come to that instant . That lightning of truth strikes those who strive and meditate sincerely and not those like the new age spiritual people who discuss spirituality intellectually over tea and snacks.

Any knowledge from books is borrowed knowledge and can’t bring transformation .

A master is fearless . Ma often warns of false teachers , full of ego healers who can’t heal themselves but want to heal the planet and those who fool themselves by taking psychedelics .

Realisation of truth is not possible through psychedelics .There are no shortcuts to enlightenment . Ma shared how once a young boy came to her claiming enlightenment . She rapidly found it he was on drugs and warned his family to take him to a de-addiction centre .

Meditation is not sitting for a limited time with eyes closed . It is a 24/7 practice.Spiritual practice has to be integrated with our daily living . As Ma

beautifully says “You have to do the path wherever you are in the midst of your daily life . You don’t need to go to Himalayas in a cave to confront and transcend your mind . It is about allowing the mind to still and settle to allow silence to pervade . When there is no “I” , no feeling of doership then life happens .It is our ignorance to think that we are the doers . So if you are drinking a cup of coffee enjoy it totally with full awareness . Don’t let the mind get caught up in a dead past or drift away into an imaginary future . Allow the aroma of the coffee to calm you , feel every sip in your mouth go down your throat and relax…. Take the time to appreciate nature and smell the roses . Cultivate gratitude in your heart . If you are working in the kitchen be totally alert . Before meeting Ma i used to think one has to take out separate time to meditate . What a fool i was!I used to sleep walk through life . I cant recollect how many times i have burnt and cut myself while chopping vegetables . But practicing mindfulness brings a deep peace and increases your work efficiency . She also tells us to not crave for spiritual experiences . Whatever has to happen for a seeker will happen . Don’t get into comparison . Spiritual jealously is the most foolish thing to get into . Everyone is on their journey . Get inspired ,not jealous . Never let spiritual ego come in .

She also warns not to desire for viewing past lives . If they are meant to open for spiritual progress they would .Often they are best not remembered . You have enough traumas and pains of this life .It would be foolish to refresh bitter memories of a past life . She had once advised a well known past life regression specialist to teach people meditation alongside doing regression and do regression where required and not making it a business .

Often people get stuck in Psychic abilities which come due to activation of the third eye . This is a huge obstacle .

The biggest miracle is peace of mind in all situations of life . Meditation should not be used as escapism . If you call yourself a seeker it should reflect in your daily life . Your relationships should improve and your work life should become smoother .

One of the most powerful experience I had when she gave me shaktipat .As she touched my third eye it felt like the time stopped . A deep silence and energy invaded me .

A master always protects you from going on the wrong path . Ma shared how once an Osho disciple started going on the wrong path .He started reading books on occultism and dark arts . Osho visited in a dream and warned and the book fell to the ground . A master dies to the disciple . A student can never repay what a master showers and bestows .

The student should be very respectful to the teacher and have lots of gratitude in the heart . By following the instructions and reaching the truth is the best gift that a student can give to the master .Master wants to see all his disciples get awakened .

Every disciple has a different temperament and tendencies . Ma gives instructions best suited to the seeker . All of us in my group got different pointers from Ma and they work wonderfully for each of us . Enlightenment cant be given to crowds . A true master works one to one .

“Maa always says the path is not easy. It involves immense dedication and commitment. One might go through dark nights of the soul where one feels totally depressed and directionless and that progress has stopped. Those who remain persistent with full faith on divine sail through. The spiritual path involves letting go of your false identity as a person and realizing your nondual blissful nature. The materialistic activities which you might like before may seem meaningless to you. Having the support of your guru and fellow practitioners is a big blessing. Although the spiritual path is a solitary journey yet having support helps a lot.

 

It is quite rightly mentioned that realization without a teacher is very difficult. It is sad with so many fraud teachers and cults people are afraid to take guidance of a living master. But mark my words if your seeking is genuine and intense you will stumble upon a right teacher.

 

A true master will not be about money.

“A living master is absolutely necessary otherwise one can go into a zone of delusion. One of my friend brought his friend who was disciple of a famous world guru but ironically had never met him in person. No wonder with no one to challenge him he was under the delusion that he was “almost enlightened”. Most of the people who keep parroting about inner guru are fools. No doubt the self in the guru and disciple is one. But the role of an external guru is to help the student turn within and recognize ones true essence.

 

Are confrontations and scoldings from a master pleasant?

Definitely unpleasant for the ego, but the intention is supremely divine. If there is no one to show us the mirror and warn us of the pitfalls a fall on the spiritual path is inevitable. So be careful and sure if you want to follow a path and a teacher and then stick to it.”

“Seekers often lament that they don’t have time to mediate. These are all excuses. If you really want it more than your next breath, as great sage

ramana would say, then realization would happen. You can’t put a broth on the stove and keep turning the fire off intermittently. Spiritual path involves letting go of the mundane thrills and being single pointedly focused on truth. As one deepens one doesn’t have to repress, the mundane things simply lose their grip and charm.”

CHAPTER 6 -A SIMPLE TRADE OFF “Just like in economics, the path toward enlightenment has a trade-off. You will have to trade-off a common life for one dedicated to the Truth, to the Divine, to unravel the ultimate mysteries of existence, to unravel your true Self. Rather than spending countless hours watching TV, playing video games, reading novels, and just wasting time in general, you have to apply that free time to your journey. This trade-off is easily seen as non-problematic once you realize that you are not being asked to choose between two great things: you are being asked to throw away the garbage that you’ve been feeding your mind and replace it with mindfulness, wisdom, joy, peace, awareness, and love. Is that a trade-off? The real trade-off comes when you have to choose between your identity as a person, as “I am so and so,” and the egoless impersonal Beingness. It is not so hard, though the ego makes it seem that way. Since the cost of something is what you give up to get it, one might wonder: “What do I have to give up to achieve enlightenment?”
 “You give up the one who gives up—the “I-ego.” That is all. It is the most expensive thing ever though, because giving up “I” is giving up everything. However, the benefit of giving up “I” is unfathomable timelessness. You give up the temporary to be everlasting. This doesn’t sound that bad, does it? The “I-ego” fears that if it stops the thinking process altogether, it will cease to exist or, at best, become dull or bored. However, dullness and boredom are simply consequences of not being satisfied with the present moment. Why is the “I-ego” not satisfied with the present moment? Because it is so accustomed to showing interest in thoughts and mental contents (of the past and future)—and therefore feeding them—that when they are not present, it becomes increasingly frustrated. When one remains simply “just Being,” unified with silence, one shifts the focus from the mind’s contents to its substratum, empty consciousness. Eventually, consciousness’ intoxicating fragrance will prove to be far more interesting than any thought or mental content could ever be. It will bathe you in happiness. “This pure happiness is all-encompassing, a memorable fragrance of Being. Its presence liquefies even the hardest rock, turning it into a jovial

freshness. Happiness is not just a byproduct of Being—it is Being itself! They are one and the same. Being can’t really be understood, because prior to understanding, it already IS. It can’t even be experienced because it is also prior to experience! Being is primordially without a subject or object. In this world, doing is overlapped into Being, but they don’t have to negate each other. The sun simply is (beingness). However, the sun also warms up the planet, gifts it with days and nights and gives life to Earth (doing). Can you see how the sun’s doing is also Being? That’s how a truly enlightened human acts—as the sun.”

“Being, like the sun shining down lightly on one’s face during sunrise, is unconditional, gentle, sweet, and it emanates a natural softness and love; but Being is also all-powerful, just like the sun is—capable of wiping out entire planets and incinerating anything that is thrown into it. Enlightenment does make a human the most powerful being in the Universe, but not in the conventional sense. You might not visibly change the world, although some Masters did. You might not become well-known, although some Masters did. You might not become wealthy, although some Masters did. You might not have any supernatural abilities, although some Masters did. You might not have any students, although many Masters did. You might receive no recognition whatsoever in your lifetime for your massive direct or indirect contributions to humanity, although most Masters did.

Society might think you are a simpleton, a nobody. Being nobody is generally so puzzling to the mind that it wastes no time starting to fill up that empty space of Being. The mind cannot endure being nothing and nobody! However, if you fill yourself with an identity, with a personality, then you are clouding your own awareness. “Being nothing is true freedom; only when you are not filled with concepts, thoughts and impressions are you free to be filled with the eternal love of God. Ashtavakra, the revered Vedic sage, was ridiculed for being handicapped; Jesus Christ was crucified; Ramana Maharshi was poisoned and beaten up. What will happen to you in the course of your life? Nobody knows. Your life doesn’t even belong to you, so why are you still claiming it? Life belongs to Life, not to any individual consciousness. Are you afraid? You don’t need to be; you will not be “you” anymore after realizing who you truly are. The limited “you” who you think you are is a short

concocted story; it is fake. The real “you”—infinity itself—is one with Ashtavakra, Jesus Christ and Ramana Maharshi. The real “you” is one with Life.”

CHAPTER- 7 DO PEOPLE HAVE FREE WILL “Do people have free will? Yes and no! Consider this: You are crossing the zebra crossing and a careless driver runs you down. You had no free will there; your bad karma just acted itself out. You have a business, but suddenly the market changes and you are ruined. No free will there, your bad karma just acted itself out. You are single, a suitable partner woos you; you can say yes or no. Here you have free will. You win the lottery; you can say yes or no to the money. Here you have free will. What we can conclude from this is that you have free will with respect to good karma, but not with respect to bad karma. Bad karma just hits you no matter what. You can protect yourself, take precautions, insure yourself and so on, but it hits nevertheless. The question that follows after this is: What made you decide like you did with respect to your good karma? What made you accept it, what reject it? Everyone can agree that your history of good and bad karma led you to choose as you did. This means that all along you have had at least free will regarding your choices about what to do with your good karma. It is worth noting that when someone created the bad karma, they had free will with respect to whether they would create the bad karma or not. This means that at the end of the argument you have free will as to whether you will relinquish your free will and surrender to the forces of bad karma at play in your life by creating more bad karma. The more bad karma, the less free will! The more good karma, the more free will! No matter what, when bad karma hits you, you have free will with respect to how you react. Some have more options, others less. “This again depends on the balance between good and bad karma in the person’s life. No one is ever without the choice of how to react to bad karma. Basically, you have two options: you can seek revenge or you can forgive. Seeking revenge creates more bad karma and reduces your free will. Forgiving creates good karma and enhances your free will. Seekers often lament that everything is pre destined and I am not the

doer . You cant parrot the words of a realised being and fake it till you make it . This entire Neo advaita movement has produced lazy seekers who keep saying there is nothing to get and nowhere to go and they do no spiritual practice . Indeed from the point of a sage there is no path and the truth is already present but the clouds of ignorance need to removed to allow the ever present truth to shine in full glory .

CHAPTER -9 PARTING MESSAGE “There is nothing more fulfilling than the quest of finding the truth, knowing what divine is. If there is a god ? Our bodies are subject to disease, decay and aging. MA always says don’t be too attached to your body but take

good care of the body because it is the vehicle you used to realize god. Your spiritual practice can be intensified only if your body is healthy.

Love everyone unconditionally but don’t get emotionally entangled. Love god, live for god, die for god. Let your ego “die” and merge in the eternal ocean of bliss. There are still real masters in the world amongst all frauds and cults. If your seeking is genuine and intense I guarantee you will stumble upon the right guide. I always feel me and my friends never found Ma. She found us. When the disciple is ready the master appears.

 

Don’t swim on the surface. Be committed to the path. Divine love is magnificent and divine will is supreme. Don’t resist or go into self-pity ever. No matter how many health issues I face, I feel they are a left handed blessing.

“As the great Sufi poet Rumi has said the light enters the heart, where the wound is. It will not be easy when you want to burn the karma of so many lifetimes in one life. But I assure you divine will always hold you in her lap if you have unwavering faith, surrender and gratitude.”

“Be selfless and see the divine in everyone. The whole purpose of the “path is to realize the oneness. We are all One. But often we become egoistic and selfish on the path. It becomes all about my enlightenment. Drop the me and let love of divine mother envelop and flood your being. Gratitude is one of the most powerful teachings.

Maa always told me count your blessings. It was this guidance that helped me get out of my pity party. Never disrespect or betray your teacher. Not only is that a very bad karma but the height of foolishness. A master is a tool to crush your ego. Let the grace behead your ego. It is the most rewarding in the end. Help everyone seeing the divinity in all. Go beyond like and dislike. If someone throws venom, transform it into love and radiate back.

 

In every birth we make our own movies; but we make mistakes when we make them. Then we are inspired to improvise and improve it. Every birth is an improvisation of the previous birth. When our desires are not fulfilled, then again we come back. We fulfill that particular desire but we forget to show gratitude for the good things that we already have. “So then we create another movie, another birth. But again there is a shortcoming in this, which brings another birth, and this just goes on and on. It is like a serial.

 

In Hinduism, charity is something very important. We should learn to give. What is it that you have to give? Externally, we have to give. Internally, we have to let go of the past. That is also giving; that charity should happen within. Let go, leave it. It’s all right.

Whatever is past has no meaning now. It happened and it’s over. Why do we have to go back to that painful moment which we have finally come across? We have gone beyond that now—that is not even existing. Why do you want to hold onto it? It is dead, right? So what is dead, we either burn or bury— we don’t live with it, right? That is past. Anything good or bad or whatever we call it, whatever situation, it has no meaning once that moment is over.

But we all have the habit of holding on to that. That is the wall or obstacle, actually. The most threatening wall is the past, the wall “ of the past. Once we know how to demolish it, give it away, let go of it, that charity first we should learn to do within—then only any charity outside that we do has any meaning.

 

Once you let go of the past, learn to live in the moment and start forgiving your own mistakes, it’s easy to forgive others’ mistakes also. Because we comfortably do lots of wrong things. We lie, right?

And we do many things that we don’t like in others, yet we are comfortable about it when we are doing it. So why is it difficult to forgive someone else who is doing that? When you say someone is an angry person but you are fine with your own anger, why can’t you be fine with the other person’s anger? First understand yourself, acknowledge the shortcomings that are already present in you.

Then it’s very easy to forgive others. Similarly, loving others—you always like to be loved, right? So why can’t you first give it to someone? Because only what goes around comes around. Only what you give someone else will come back to you, in some form or other. “If you want love, show love. If you want to be accepted, you must first accept someone. And if you want to be forgiven, you first forgive. So, that charity should come from within. Do that first, then automatically it is very easy.

 

Love has to be unconditional, so that there is no emotion. Love is not an emotion.

Happiness is not an emotion. Happiness is a state of being. Similarly, unconditional love is what we are. The consciousness is nothing but love, right? Siva is nothing but consciousness, so consciousness is love. Love is God, so love is Siva, God is Siva, Siva is love. Siva is Shakti. So all is One. No duality

 

If you practice three things you can attain mukti, you can attain moksha: unconditional love, unconditional forgiveness and unconditional acceptance. If you can practice these three things every single day of your life, then there is no enmity, there is no hatred and there is only eternal happiness.”